Victoria came up to me and then I looked at she pulled me to a bunch of other kids who were doing spin the bottel and then I sat down with them and spin the bottel and then It landed on Victoria It funny how dark it got but I must be how much I was drinking cause I was drinking to much that I didn’t know what time it was then okay back to the game
Victoria: come on back to the game liz
She was really durnk she wanted me to kiss her or she just like girls but I did just to get to shut her up and the I got up and went Into a room and staed that when Samantha walked In
Samantha: hey your crying what happend
Me: I miss him
Samantha: who
Me: Sebastian
Samantha: then why aren’t you with him right now
Me: cause I told him that we should be on a break I’m pushing him away because I love him
Samantha: no your not your doing because your scared because you know that If you give him even any love you think he just go call him
I walked out the room and then went outside and then my hand were shaking as I pressed on his name Sebastian the words the world looked bigger I didn’t want to talk to him well I did I just thinking then a voice
Sebastian: Hello
Me: Hi what are you doing
Sebastian: drunk thinking about you
Me: oh okay well do you feel like picking me up
Sebastian: yeah I guess I could what are you doing
Me: at a party Victoria
Sebastian: boring huh
Me: yeah all they do Is drink and kiss
Sebastian: High schoolers
Me: yeah but also I’m old for my age you know
Sebastian: your not there are something you are good at
Me: like what and don’t say s*x
Sebastian: well I got nothing
I hung up and then texted himthe address It made me smile that he was coming all the way here to get me but I need more drink I packed my bag Victoria looked at me and then walked near me
Victoria: where are you going
Me: oh someone picking me up
Victoria: who
Me: Luke coming with that person okay can you shut up
I called him back to tell him to bring Luke therfore that Vicotria can get off my back cause she will not care about me If Luke Is here and he said okay Luke would do anything for me and It party therfore he can also get drunk that good for him when he got here me and Luke switch places
Luke: Sebastian we said the rules okay just be careful
He said rules and I love that why iu my brother has rules for me
Me: what dose he mean rules
Sebastian: the right things to do with this sister
Me: and what were the right things to do with me
Sebastian: he told me that If I make you cry he will kill me
Me: that sound like him but If you did I wouldn’y tell him
Sebastian: why did you call me
Me: do I need a reason to call you
Sebastian: yeah you wanted a break and now your calling me at a party
Me: I missed you and why you come
Sebastian: I thought there would be a chance okay
Me: can you drive there a place I want to show you
He started driving and then I lead him t a pond he looked at me like I was crazy but I knew what I was doing
Sebastian: why are we here
Me: this is my place and you said that we may have a chance but I don’t see with a life were we can be married anymore not with the news I got
Sebastian: what news
Me: I don’t know If I should tell you
Sebastian: Liz pleses
Me: It going to be hard for mr to have kids and you talked about having them before
Sebastian: well we will find away
Me: and what If we don’t Sebastian I can’t have you hate me
Sebastian: I would never hate you
Me: you say that now but when you think about down years
Sebastian: I love you
Me: If I say It like a promise that I can keep because I will always love you
Sebastian: then kiss me
I moved over to him and then kissed him there was this thought while I was kissing him that I was In love with a person that really loves me and I couldn’t help but smile
Sebastian: are you smiling Liz
Me: yeah Is that a bad thing
Sebastian : no It not Liz I love your smile and I love you
Me: do you feel like driving back
Sebastian: no not really why
Me: there a hotel 5 min away you know
Sebastian: yeah I get what you are saying
He picked me up and then walked to the car I moved to the driver seat and started to drive and then I felt my one hand that wasn’t on the wheel but on the arm rest with Sebastian hand on top of It I looked at him
Sebastian: what I’m drunk
Me: don’t blame you being drunk the reason your hand Is ontop of mine
Sebastian: should I move It
Me: no leave It
Sebastian: are we there yet
Me: nope well yeah now we are
I parked the car and I was getting my bag and then took the key out the the car and then locked It and then e walked to the lobby It a hundred for one night that well like what I didn’t think It would be this Is the nice part of Hollywood
Me: one room
They gave us the key and then we went to the room when we got to the room I didn’t know what to do now like It was dumb we did all this and we have no idea about anything that when Sebastian kisses me I move back to the bed he follwe with his lips still on mine and then I laid one the bed Sebastian moved ontop of me In this moment I knew that I was wearing a dress and I know that a dress Is wrong to wear when you don’t want to have s*x
Me: can we talk about this Sebastian
Sebastian: talk about what Eilzabeth
Me: don’t use my whole name I don’t like It
Sebastian: why not I love your name
Me: It like a teacher thing you know when they call you by your whole name when your in trouble
Sebastian: but you know your not
Me: but I also know that your planning on having s*x with me and Sebastian you know I love you more than s*x
Sebastian: yeah I know I love you more than s*x too
Me: yeah but It like you know what forget It
I pushed his hair back I know like were always having s*x but who cares It more funny when your both drunk he pulled down my panties and there was the fast feeling In my mind that I shouldn’t do this I just didn’t want to rush Into thing like me and Sebastain always do during s*x
Me: can we not rush thing like we always do when we have s*x
Sebastian: got It Lizzie slow s*x
Me: well not slow s*x
He went back to his place well when we have s*x he like to tease me before we have s*x and I like but he tesaing me and It make me want him more he picked up my panties off the bed and then looked at me I loved hie eyes
Sebastian: these have to go now
Me: yeah I agree
Sebastian wasn’t really Into the lovey dovey stuff added Into s*x unless It was like a brithday or like the day we started dating or a month or a year and I love that we can get to the point and we have to be like the couple who have a day they have s*x because that boring the way Sebastian started to suck on my clit It was making It wet and yes I did learn more about my body before I stared having s*x again I rolled my eyes and rolled my eyes I moaned he notice that moan and started sucking harder and then I pulled on the sheets and there was just a hinG as wrong timing my dad calls s**t like I knew I was supposed to call him but why did he have to call me now right when Sebastian and me are having s*x I can’t ignore my dad he would think nsomething wrong and track my phone and bring the police here in time
Me: Sebastian stop I have to call my dad
Sebastian: what he can wait
Me: no he can’t my dad has this thing were If he dosen’t hear from a person he think something bad happend and he will send for someone to look Into It , It will be quick okay and If It not you can keep going I just moan on the phone with him
Sebastian: okay 3 mins that It
Me: by time you get ice you can’t be here while I’m on the phone
Sebastian: why not
Me: my dad has that thing were he knows there another person In the room
Sebastian: no he dosen’t
Me: Sebastian my dad an cop he knows
Sebastian: okay I get ice anything else
Me: oh see If the gift shop has any food
Sebastian: okay
I took the phone and covered myself it may sound crazy but I feel like It werid to be naked while your dad on the phone I don’t know I clicked on his name and then it ranged
Dad: oh Liz I thought I would have had to bring someone there
Me: no I’m fine I’m with Sebastian now okay he went out he picked me up early and we didn’t want drive back we got a room
Dad: okay were Is he sleeping
Me: In the pullout chouch he like my uncel It werid you had to ask that dad
Dad: well Liz when you get home there something I want to talk to you about
Me: dad I don’t like that dose this have todo with x-mas break tell me your not going to miss it
Dad: no I will be home that whole day okay Lizzie the whole family
Sebastian: I’m back I have ice
Me: I have to go to take a shower I will talk to you tommrow
Dad: okay Lizzie
Sebastian: a shower really
Me: it was that or you would have had made me moan on the phone call with my dad and he was werid do you know anything about that
Sebastian: nope your dad dosen’t tell me anything he think were to close
Me: us we date but he dosen’t need fear you telling his business out like that to his own daughter we have limties to what we share cause If we didn’t we would not be In this hotel room right now
Sebastian: speaking of this hotel room
I wrapped my legs around him and he picked me up and then we moved to the bed I laid on the bed with Sebastianontop of me he looked like he was up to something and I didn’t like It there something werid with that
Sebastian: would you hate me If I got you a Elsa doll for what you call x-mas
Me: yes and no and would you hate me If I call you Seb for the rest of our life
Sebastian: yes and no becuse you know we will be together for every and I love you
Me: and I need food where Is it
Sebastian: oh yeah I order a pizza
Me: and that was something you were not going to say
Sebastian: I was living in the moment
Me: but I’m hungry
Sebastian: I know I am to but pizzia isn’t what I’m hungry for
Me: omgosh Sebastian
I grabbed the pillow and hit him with It he grabbed and tjen throw It at the floor and started to kiss me I was backing away and yet he was still kissing me and I love him but he just woudn’t stop and there no way
Me: hey what taken the pizzia long
He checked his phone and put on his shoes he gave me a kiss on the check why he do that he was leaving me was he I think he had his wallet and keys In his pants that kiss on the check seem like a goodbye If It was the hotel paid for I have money for a cab It fine he can leave me here but I willl have to order me food then again he did leave his phone and didn’t stop ringing I went to check it would It be wrong to look at Sebastian phone then I seen It (3) missed calles from Ms. Holly and 4 text messages well can’t get mad she may need him for school wise okay It not like a big deal I needed to check It for my issue or I will go crazy when I seen the text one
Hey
What day Is our date again
Also I’m glad were doing this
How are you
I’m thinking wow I slammed the phone on the table and then started to get dress that was crazy why would we let anything go as far as us share a bed when he has a date when he came back In the room he was confused
Sebastian: hey what going on
Me: you should check your phone more you know
Sebastian: why what oh there
Me: Ms.Holly really want to go on that date now you can I can’t believe I loved you your a liar and a cheater you say all this thinking of you drunk bull I opend upto you about having It hard to have kids and your out planning dates wow did you even love me
Sebastian: yes Liz that was a mistake okay me and Ms.Holly was never going to happen untill I knew my place with you
Me: and that supposed to me make me me feel batter you were going to play with a woman head for me no that worst
Sebastian: yeah and what happen to the guy you were going to use to forget me
Me: yeah I know that worst to but I don’t want to hurt anyone
Sebastian: well that what you do to me when you play these I love you no leave me alone games Liz like make up your mind and now cause once I tell her the date It over there no more us even If I love you that much I not going to stop my life for you
Me: nobody asking you okay do what ever makeyou feel happy
He dropped the pizza box and then walked towards me he remove my bag and I kissed him he sayes his sweet nothing In my ear and I let him
Sebastian: now I’m going to tell you what going to happen I’m going to strip you and then I will started kissing your neck and then I pull down your panties and your nice wet clit I will suck It dry
Me: I agree with everything you said and I will consent to It too
I don’t know why but I like this Sebastian he bossy and In control It kinda hot and sexy like I don’t know this Is like the book 50 shades of grey I know there was moive I didn’t see It cause at the time I was like the virgin Mary but now It like It like that book Is like my life In some ways then he started to remove the white loses dress off of me and I let him It not like he would hurt me like the person In the books he knows when to stop and when to go and he knows when he wants It ,It hot that he dose this he doing this and there and then he starting going deep In my neck I hope he dosen’t leave a mark on my neck cause I didn’t want to explain to peolpe why there a hickey on my neck and then I would have to say so many lies
Me: hay how about we don’t have s*x tonight
Sebastian: why not
Me: we can save It for the hoildays you know
Sebastian: what happend you were Into a Min ago what happend
Me: nothing were just like always having s*x you know you didn’t do anything jusr cause I don’t want to have s*x
Sebastian: was I bad
Me: no you were nt bad I think when you always think you are bad at s*x Is when you down yourself It make me It bad but no your not I just want you to hold me okay
Sebastian: I’m just mad that for the hoildays you and me won’t be alone these holidays
Me: my dad wants us all to be together this hoilday he has a suprises I hope It a dog I hope that maybe the new years we can lie and say were going to your mothers for New years
Sebastian: and what about everyone you bring along like last time
Me: the last time we went your mother was an asshole and there will be alot of peolpe know that I’m lying
Sebastian: my mother was okay
Me: no she an asshole okay she in to say In here hole but I love you so I will make It work with her
Sebastian: thank you but no don’t fake your love her
Me: I do that to you It easy
oh s**t did I do that I bared myself in Sebastian chest he started laughing I hit him with my hand I looked up he was smiling I hate It but I also loved him
Sebastian: you can stay anything arund me and not feel embressed we dating for 4 months and going on 5 you can be fine around be yourself
Me: well yeah but I can’t It like when I when I say It and then I think and In my mind why didn’t think It before saying It but then I think about how much I love you and I can’t hold back how do you think my dad will react when he finds out about us
Sebastian: I hope he hate It
Me: why
Sebastian: well It just make me want you more
Me: well I think If he understand he will be okay with It
Sebastian: Nah he going to hate It and I would amazing that he would think his opinon matter to me when It dosen’t
Me: you would not care what and speaking of my dad he calling
He took the phone said Lizzie fine and then hung up I grabbed the box of pizza and then the side of me Sebastian
could see my ass I grabbed one of the slices out the box and then I could feel someone eyes on me
Me: what
Sebastian: the person that brught It here spit In It
Me: really now I have to go out why did he spit In It call them and complan okay and then I will be in the shower
I took of the dress and threw It at him and then walked up to him I knew what I was doing there was a pen on the floor I bent down and picked It up well never picked It up cause he Sebastian picked me up he grabbed my face and kissed me his lips touched mine and I loved It I undid his belt he pulled my panties down he traced his fingers on my v****a I gasp the feeling of his finger then when It went It hit rock bottom then rock bottom goes up I gasp louder and now I don’t know how I feel right now I got up and pulled him
Me: why am I so small
Sebastian: I like It cute
Me: but It like next to you I’m small
This part I know to well next thing I knew I was on the bed and with my hands pinned down and with a bra that the only thing on why do I still have this bra on and why Is he still clothed with the shrit and boxer short I wrapped my feet aroumd him and pull him closer
Me: I want that and that off pleses
Sebastian: Lizzie you can’t be nice when your being bossy
Me: well what If I said I’m a bit light headed
Sebastian: well I willhave to get you something to eat what do you want
Me: a chesesburger and fries and stake and and ribs and for a drink a beer you want anything oh and a sunda
Sebastian: okay I will have room service bring It up but do not do to sleep with a light head
Me: okay got I but do you have anything I can eat like what can eat that pizza has spit in
Sebastian: Liz I wouldn’t eat that
Me: well do you have change I only have a 20
Sebastian: really could you say that without sounding rich
Me: when how many times have you only said you only had 20-100 dollars and I’m sound rich
Sebastian: oh and now I have to tell you that my mother did invite us to her party
Me: no she ibvited you not me and knowing you you told her the only reason you were going Is If I go which I came not going
Sebastian: well to late I told her yes by the way we are going
Me: but I don’t want to go come on you can’t make me
Sebastian: I don’t eirther believe me Liz but come one pleses go with me be my date
Me: fine but one rude thing your mother says and what ever ice shape thing I bang her head In It
Sebastian: got It I won’t even stop you
I picked up my pants and then put them on and then took a 20 out of Sebastian wallet and then started to walk towards the door I smiled as I blew him a kiss
Sebastian: where are you going
Me: to get a snack room service Is taking to long
Sebastian: you speaking like a rich princess
Me: I am not okay If I was I wouldn’t have not still wanted to give them a tip for the long wait like come on what did you order
Sebastian: what you ask but no beer wine It was more classie
Me: says the mama boy
Sebastian: I am not
Me: am too you just said something your mom would comment
Sebastian: and only princess say comment you know sweetie
Then the door knocked woah I’m not wearing anything but a bra nope that not a reason to answer the door I messed up the bed and grabbed a sheet and handed him the 20 I took out of Sebastian wallet I took the dish off the plate and to revale a cheses burger and some fries I took a fry and just died
Me: omgosh I love you
Sebastian: I know that was for the food but I’m going to take as It was for me
Me: you know I love you to but also love this food more now
Sebastian: as I said claim It as the same thing okay and take the sheet
Me: what I like It I could make It in some sheet fashion
Sebastian: you culd pull It off
Me: why thank you wait he didn’t give us our wine wow and I gave him a 20 dollar tip
Sebastian: you also let him she throught that sheet
Me: sheet fashion Is sexy you can also cover yourslef when wanting to get pizza
Sebastian: I want to do this thing were your not eating like a dog
Me: wow and you have all this sause on your face
I grabbed the napkin and then went to the bathroom and wet It and then went I to the other bed where he was sitting out and cleaned his face then he grabbed my face I pulled his boxer to check him out
Sebastian: okay Lizzie
Me: s**t am I still looking
Sebastian: yeah kinda and you still are
Me: i’m sorry
I looked up at the wall there goes that not think before I do thing I just threw the rag at him and then walked to the other side of the room okay I didn’t n=know why I was shy when I did the whole stop
Sebastian: well there was fairness In what you did your flexing out your v****a proud that mean I should
He pulled down his boxr shorts I looked down and I couldn’t stop looking omgosh wow I think he did get bigger down there
Me: did you grow down there a couple of inches
Sebastian:Yeah and no
Me: oh okay good to know
Sebastian: may I ask why you need this info
Me: you know the info would be good when I need like you never know when you need It
I opened my legs I was calling for It when he came or here well this was a bad move If I didn’t want to have s*x and I don’t want to to do that whole teasing thing and then not have It then a part of me wanted to have It well I finally took off my bra and then lifted up In front of him he grabbed them and threw them
Sebastian: well we can have a choice of the pull-out method or condom or the pill with the pull-out Is I pull-out before I c*m In you
Me: and what If I want you to c*m In me and that rules out condoms then
Sebastian: are you on the pill
Me: No Sebastian were going s*x with out a condom and the pill so no I’m not
Sebastian: Lizzie it not a joke
Me: what I am not treating It as joke you ask me dumb things like I can’t have kids as Is Sebastian but yes I’m on the pill you know what forget It like come on If I wanted to trap you with a child I would have but no okay I just want to deal with the party from your b***h mother and then wait over the two day of hoilday shopping
When I went to sleep I didn’t have time for this I just thought that I know Sebastian mother she going to do all this for a small party and It won’t care that she would have make-up crew hair and dresses for this one thing and no like I don’t have time for this bish s**t when I woke upthere was peolpe on the bed
Me: what the f**k who the hell are you I have to get In the shower and then I’m going home okay whatever your going to do with Sebastian do It
Sebastian: walked IN the room with a suit wait why did he have a suit on what the f**k why Is he going to church I know he Is not dranging me there to cause I will not go
Me: what the hell Is this
Sebastian: remember I told you the party my mom was throwing
Me: oh you were for real Sebastian I don’t want to go okay
Sebastian: then what do I tell my mom
Me: you could still go I’m not stoping you from going
I gave them a 50 dollar and then they left Sebastian lide to his mother saying he had to take care of me
Me: don’t use me on your lies Sebastian aww they have you In a tie that cute
I pulled him with his tie near me I pulled his head down to me and kissed him he was looking like nice young man what did his mother do to him
Me: what the hell leave the suit on
Sebastian: why I have no reason to keep It on
Me: okay what dress did your mother bring me