Sister She Wolves

A Wolves Night Out

It was seven thirty and we were getting ready to leave for our night out. I wasn't really excited about where we were going but, I am happy my sisters went through so much planning for my birthday so I will try to have a good time. They always mean well. They are way more sociable than I. The events that happened the day of the battle I guess put a lot of emotional scars on me. I just don't want to get close to anyone for them to die on me. I know death is a natural part of the life cycle but I don't think I could survive another person dying on me. So now to the fun having part of the night.

We make our way to the bar to get some drinks. I order a beer while my sisters order shots. Seeing as it is a wolf club they don't card other wolves. They do however card humans so they don't get shut down. We sit at the bar for a few minutes before hitting the dance floor. We were dancing having fun and after another hour we decided to get another round of drinks. As we get up to the bar Anabelle notices some hot guy and won't stop talking about him so I again tune the girls out. I'm so lost in thought that I don't notice the guy is now over talking with Anabelle. I look over and Victoria is dancing with some guy. I smile glad their enjoying themselves and order my third beer. I decide that it should be my last so I can be sober enough to drive in a couple more hours.

The girls eventually make their way back to me and we dance together some more. The guys the girls were talking to have found them again I excuse myself to use the facilities. On my way out of the rest room I end up talking to a guy at the bar and he actually gets me to dance with him. Anabelle ends up talking me into two more beers so we are cabbing it home. The three of us (yes myself included) were having a great time. I got out of my funk for once and actually enjoyed myself. Derek the guy I was dancing with was good looking I suppose but every time I let myself think that I feel guilty. So, I have decided to just have fun and not worry about anything else. Derek was really nice too or so he seemed. I could smell he was an unmated wolf and he smelt of power like maybe he was an alpha or beta or something. The girls and I wanted another break so the guys came with us this time. We sit at the bar and talk for a little longer. Derek ends up giving me his number before he heads out. The girls are saying by to the guys they were talking to while I'm holding the cab for us to go home.

Once they finally get in we're off to home. The whole ride home the girls won't stop talking about what a good time they had. I couldn't get a word in if I wanted to. So, I sit quietly off in la la land. I can't wait to get home and snuggle Bjorn's coat so I can sleep. After the fifteen minute drive we are finally home. We have a very long driveway so we get out at the top of it to walk down. I carry my heels so I can just feel the dirt under my feet. We get to the house and I open the door and we make our way in. Anabelle and Victoria go throw themselves on the couch while I go grab a water from the fridge.

I come back in the living room and they ask me if I had fun. "Yeah I had fun. I was a little surprised but yeah it was awesome." I tell them unable to stop the smile on my face. "So, what was up with you and that Derek guy?" Victoria asks with a cheeky grin on her face. As I realize what she means my smile falls. "Don't do that sis. You can have a good time. You're not loving and missing him any less because you have a good time." Anabelle says coming over to hug me. I hug her back knowing that she's right in some part of my mind. I just can't help it. When Bjorn died it felt like a part of me died with him. I pull away from Anabelle and decided to talk to them finally about a couple things that are always on my mind.

" Look girls, I think I should tell you guys a couple things that are on my mind always." I tell them waiting a minute before I continue. "I loved Bjorn with everything I had. I know dad wouldn't let us be mated till my eighteenth birthday but, the bond was already there. I knew Bjorn was mine and I was his." I tell them with tears in my eyes. "So when he died, I felt like a piece of me went with him. I haven't been in a good place since he died. I try to have fun, I want to have fun but I feel guilty." I continue. "I feel guilty because, I was dancing with someone else's mate and it isn't right. I'll never have a mate because mine got taken from me." I add as I let the tears fall. "You don't get a second mate you get one and that's it. I shouldn't have been dancing that close to someone else's mate. Look, I want you guys to find your mates and be happy. I don't want to ruin that in any way. I did have a good time tonight and I am so glad that you guys did too I just don't think I'll be going out like that next time. " I tell them as I look up at them to make sure their still awake. They're both nodding at me. They get up and hug me tight. "We understand, we love you so much sis." The girls tell me. "Now, it's getting late. Let's get to bed. We have a busy day tomorrow.