Spirit Wolf - My Home (Book Two)

4. My decision

REI’S POV:

I was in cloud nine, dreaming sweetly about the previous night I spent with Calen. The bed was cold now and I didn’t feel his scent that strong so assumed he was already back in the work. Recently the only thing he is doing during the days is work and then again work. I know he is an Alpha of the pack but still, I had no idea there is so much work around the pack.

A quiet knock woke me up from my half-sleep and I tried to open my eyes and sit on the bed so I could call the person who was now standing on the other side of the door. “You may enter,” I called from my bed. I didn’t care about the sleepy face or the nest on my head instead of the hair. I pulled the blanket up to cover the night gown I was wearing now, luckily I took a shower yesterday after our lovely time and put this little piece of clothing on me.

The door opened and Hannah entered. I checked the clock and it was something around eight in the morning. She never came to me so early and on top of that sneakily like this. “Good morning Hannah.” I greeted her. “Good morning Luna.” She greeted me back.

“What’s up? Why are you here so early and on top of that so sneakily?” I asked her. For a brief moment, she stopped and was thinking about the words I said before she started to laugh. “Oh, dear dear, I didn’t realize that it would look so strange.” She started to explain and I am sure my look gave away the confusion I was feeling right now.

“Don’t worry, nothing has happened. I just wanted to visit you before I head out because I will be gone for a few days but I wasn’t sure if you are still sleeping or not.” Hannah explained to me. I stopped paying attention somewhere around ‘gone for a few days’. “Gone where? Why?” I asked, shaking my head. I thought she was going to help us with the decoration for the evening party and now she is telling me that she won’t be even here?

“Can’t it wait after the party?” I asked her sadly. It wasn’t a big party but the New Year was already like two weeks ago and the point is I spent that time alone with Calen. Christmas was also destroyed because of the searching for me and after my recovery. I wanted to celebrate with everyone. I know it might sound pathetic but they are my new family now and I missed celebrating with them. Plus because of the cold weather, ice and snow, and the mood in the pack house because of our unpopular prisoner, I still have a feeling people are a little bit too stiff so the party might help them relax.

“Oh, I am sorry my dear I completely forget. The reason I am going out is important and I can’t delay. Later you will also understand and know but for now, I can’t tell you much more.” She apologized and I could read in her eyes that she didn’t lie about forgetting, but it didn’t matter anyway since whatever reason she has is so important for her.

“So it can’t be helped then,” I started with a sad voice and from the look she gave me I was sure the way I was looking at her was breaking her heart. I didn’t mean to hurt her but I was really sad. Compared to whatever she had to do the party might be trivial and not so important but it was still important for me.

“We can celebrate together once I am back. Anyway, there is always something to celebrate.” Hannah said trying to cheer me up and her voice was encouraging while she was winking at me. I gave her one sad smile before she closed the distance between us and came right to me while I was still in bed. She hugged me.

Hannah was right, there was always something to celebrate. Which brought me back to the previous thoughts I had to finally take my official place in the pack as a Luna. I already tried to speak with Calen about it two times but every single time I started about it he put a peck on my cheek and ran away. I didn’t know if he did that on purpose or not.

“How long will you be gone exactly?” I asked her the same moment she stood back up and I guess was ready to leave. “Maybe two weeks.” She answered. It made me curious where she was going and why. Two weeks are not such a short time.

“Alright then. After you come back, we will plan my Luna ceremony.” I told her with resolution. Her eyebrows narrowed as she was scanning me. “Did Calen approve about that?” She asked me and I shook my head. She was looking at me cautiously. “Don’t give me this look, please. I already tried to speak with him about that two times but every time I do he runs away.” I explained to her and she started to laugh again. “I see, we will fix that I promise, but are you sure you are ready to reveal for the whole pack your identity?” Hannah asked me seriously and I nodded to her.

“This is my pack, my family, and my home. I feel already selfish for hiding from them. It is time to give them their Luna and stop hiding.” I said and to my surprise, my voice was so strong. Hannah stroked my hair once more, giving me a soft smile. “Your parents would be so proud of you.” She told me to kiss the top of my head. Her words brought tears into my eyes but I tried to hold them. I didn’t want to cry, not now. I need to be strong.

“When I am back, we will talk to Calen and prepare the ceremony. I promise.” Hannah said before turning on her heels and headed straight to the door out of my room. She was really like my second mom.

‘I am also very proud of you.’ Maat told me when we were left alone in the room. ‘Thank you Maat.’ I replied to her. My eyes were still watery but I managed to handle it and no tear fell. ‘Maat.’ I spoke to her again once I completely calmed down. ‘Yes, my dear?’ She waited for the reason I called her.

‘Thank you for keeping me alive for so many years and staying with me the whole time.’ I told her. I was immensely grateful to her and I wanted her to feel it and to know it. ‘Not like I had a chance to run away or something.’ Maat joked back. I swear this wolf is something evil. I slapped her from the back of her head in our mind space and she started to laugh. ‘It is not funny, you stupid dog. I am trying to be serious now and show my gratitude.’ I told her. My voice sounded angrier than I was. I knew she was joking trying to alleviate the situation but still, her timing and the way she was joking was something too extreme.

‘Hey, I was joking, you moron.’ She snarled at me back. ‘Maybe you could learn when it is good to joke and when we should restrain ourselves from such stupid jokes.’ I replied to her back sheepishly, turning my back to her and pretending I was insulted and not gonna talk to her again. She came closer to me and poked me with her muzzle. ‘Come on, I didn’t mean it like that. You know I would do anything for you.’ She poked me again trying to pat her. Every time she moved to face me I turned again to stay with my back to her.

She sat down and just placed her head on my back. I could feel the weight of it but in our mind space, it didn’t affect me. If a wolf would place his head on my back for sure I would end up flat on the ground. ‘I am sorry for making stupid jokes at the wrong times.’ She apologized with her voice muffled by my back as her head was facing my back.

‘I am not really angry.’ I told her slowly, turning around to face her one more time. She was sitting and her head when she lifted it was facing my face. She was huge compared to me and until now I still didn’t understand how her huge posture could fit into my small body. It was really strange that the Moon Goddess paired us two together.

‘I am not angry at you because I know you were joking, I was just teasing you but the fact is you should really learn when is the good time for joking and when not. I tried to show some appreciation and gratitude and you just make it sound unimportant.’ I told her and she was looking kind of guilty at me. Now she was trying her puppy eyes on me.

‘Seriously, puppy eyes?’ I asked her and she licked my face. ‘I had to try it, you never know when it might work.’ She told me back in her playful, joking and funny mood. I just sighed because I already had no other words for her that would somehow fix this attitude of her. I should maybe give up; she can’t be saved. My wolf was a lost case.

‘What?’ She asked me after I sighed and gave her the look that was explaining my current feelings. ‘Nothing.’ I said to her back before patting her head. ‘I am giving up on you.’ I told her by putting on my serious face. ‘There is no redemption for the lost case like you.’ I told her, giving her an evil smile.

She licked my face more and I struggled to get her off of me. Sadly, no matter if this was our mind space or not I had no power over her here. Soon I found myself laying down on my back with her standing above me. ‘Hey, this is unfair.’ I shouted to her and this time it was she, who was laughing evilly.

‘You are forgetting one very important thing.’ I told her still trying to avoid her tongue licking my face and hair. This was disgusting and even here I already started to feel like I am drowning in her saliva.

‘Oh really, tell me? What am I forgetting?’ She asked me and at the same moment, I simply disappeared into thin air. ‘You forget that this is our mind space so I can be there or not.’ I laughed like never before and I could sense the feeling of loss from her. I am sure she didn’t expect this. ‘Come back you little coward.’ She called me. ‘No way. You seem like a sore loser.’ I replied to her again sheepishly. ‘For a wolf, you can be so cute.’ I added a little bit of salt into her wound. ‘Just wait once you get back here you little rascal.’ She called after me in our mind link.

The thing is we can speak to our wolf anytime. Our mind link is working exactly for these purposes and you can communicate anytime. The only thing is your face goes blank like your mind is not present but otherwise, it is not that suspicious. Speaking with your wolf in your mind space is different. At that moment you are almost out of the body and even if someone will poke you, you will not feel it so we use this only in case you are sure to be hidden well and definitely alone like I was now in the room. Even if someone else would enter like I am sure no one would without me answering their knock, they would understand I am talking to my wolf in our mind space. It was very convenient when you needed to feel the presence of someone else during a long time of separation from the pack. This is the way how rogues are surviving to live a long time alone.