Where Your Secrets Hide

Secret 1

"A 17 year old, Chase Carter is still missing after two weeks now! No sign of him has been found, his family is hoping for their son to knock on their door, alive."

"f**k!"

I said after slicing the skin of my finger while chopping the pork meat for my breakfast.

I went on the sink to wash off the blood on my finger to avoid viruses. After washing it, I dried it with a face towel and went on the sala to turn off the television. I take a deep breath so I can relax again, but I can't. I just can't relax until there is someone finding Chase body.

I heard a knock on my door and that's when my heart start racing again.

Shit

I slowly walk towards the door to open it, and it is just Henry, my bestfriend. He smiled at me and he went straight inside my house. He make a frown face before he put his bag on a chair

"God, the smell Jackson!" He said while covering his nose. "I know! That is why I need your help tommorow after school!" I explained. "Yeah, for sure." He said while walking towards at the cabinet where I put all the materials that I used for cleaning this house. He open it and the smell came out and spread to our faces.

The flies fly over our head.

"I think we should do it earlier." He suggested.

Yeah, maybe it's for the best.

I am so sorry Chase. I didn't mean all of this to happen. I know you know it, but I'm still sorry.

I wipe the tears on my cheeks so Henry couldn't see that I'm crying. This whole week, I couldn't sleep. I'm thinking about him, thinking about what I did. All I can do is think about Chase, it's all about him, all about Chase.

"Where do you want to put Chase body?" He asks. "Well, uhm, I decided to put his body at the back of my house, at the forest." I said.

"What?"

"I have plan Henry, don't you worry. I have a plan. You have to trust me, like how we trust each other before this nightmare come."

The Secret

So you're probably wondering how this all happen. How I have Chase dead body, or worst, why I killed him.

And you maybe wondering how I get out of it.

Let's just go back to where it all started. The day of the game night. The day when that accident happened.

2 days before the game....

"Hey Charming." Chase said when I close my locker.

"What the f**k is wrong with you?!" I said after I look at him who's looking back at me. He is smiling like there is something he wanted to tell me, a smile that when you see it, you know that his happy.

He keeps looking at me, wondering why I said those words to him. I grab his wrist and drag him on the hallways.

"What the f**k is wrong with you?" I ask him again in confusion. "What? What did I do?" He ask back. "Did you just call me charming?" I ask and he nodded.

Yeah, that's the problem.

"What happened yesterday is the last time we're gonna do it. Alright? Last. Time. Your mother already mad at me, I don't want them to be ballistic again when she saw us talking to each other." I said. He smiled and yeah, he just walk out.

I'm used to it to be honest.

But this time, I felt guilty for saying it to him, but his mother already warned me not to approach him 2 days ago, but we can't stop ourselves from seeing each other, so I have no choice but to approach him.

"I'm sorry." I said. "It's okay, I understand. And you have to remember what you told me." He said and I just look at him, waiting for his next word. "Be professional, you are just my tutor, and I am just your student." He said. "Was actually, and until now you are still denying to your so called friends that I am your friend. We're doing things, we're talking about things. I think a lot of things happened between us, but you still don't want to show to everyone that we're friends." I said.

He stop walking for a second.

I know what he's thinking, people like him, doesn't want to be around with people like me, a loser. The only jock person who has a strength to be friends with me, is Henry, my best friend, because he is the captain of football and no one messes with him. And that because we are neighbors, knew each other since a kid.

"I already told you my plan Jackson, I don't want to introduce you as a friend, but more likely a boyfriend. And after the game, I promise you that." He said.

"Yooow, Chase mah friend!" We both look to our back when someone called him, his best friend, Austin a latino jock here. When he approach us, he look at me and smiled. "Are you still giving Chase a hard time by giving him a hard math equation?" He asks. "Excuse me?" I ask. "Chase told me."

Chase punch his arm, but not that hard.

"f**k you Austin, you know what, we have practice later and tomorrow, so see you again Jackson, but after the game, I won't forget my promise." He said and he drag Austin with him.

Sigh,

I can't believe my life change after tutoring him, I still can't process it.

"Jackson!" I look to my left and saw Henry walking towards me. I smiled. "How are you?" He asks me. "Fine. Can I ask you a question?" I said while we're walking on the hallways to go in our first class. "Hmm?" He look at me waiting for my question. "How many girls did you f**k yesterday?" I asks and he laugh.

Yesterday?

Celia had a party yesterday at her house, cuz' it's her birthday. I'm not really going yesterday, but this asshole force me, so I don't have a choice but to go. That party, is my second party of the year because I'm not really a party goer, I prefer going to mall than going to a drug house. I don't know what's waiting for me when I go there.

"Yeah, about that, how many times did you f**k Chase?" He said in mocking way, the reason why I stop walking. I look at him in my shocking reaction. "H-huh?" I said, but I failed. I'm not a good liar, that is my weakness, lies

He laugh.

"So it's true?" He asks. "What? Everyone knows?!" Damn Jackson. What if Henry is just playing? Now what? You just confess. "I knew there's something going on between you two! Of course not. Just me." He said.

Woah,

Thank god.

"But how'd you know?" I ask him and went inside our classroom. We sat down and we just continue talking. "I saw both of you, kissing inside the bathroom." He explains.

I just force myself to smile and put my head on the desk, my head still hurts, because of the drug that Chase give to me. I don't do drug, but I'm sober yesterday, and I don't know what I'm doing, and I'm sure that I'm not the only one who use drugs yesterday, right?

I saw Chase and Sarah, kissing when I lift my head. Sarah is Chase girlfriend, and I'm just the third wheel that no one knows, but now, Henry knows.

"Good morning class." Our English teacher greet us. "Good morning Mrs. Vagianna." We all greet back.

That's her surname, Vagianna. We mispronounce her surname when she's new here, it was last year. And our classmate Rod, said that mispronounce surname. That's why we got in trouble.

Our new english teacher came today. She's old, I felt like she's a terror teacher, because of here white wavy short hair and a glasses on her eyes.

After we greeted she written her name on the board.

'Josphine v****a'

What?

What the hell was that surname?!

"Bro, did you see what I see?" Henry ask. "What do you see?" I ask. "Her surname idiot." He said. We both look at each other and laugh.

"Josephine v****a? Why's your surname is that Miss?" We all look to Rod when he talks, and because of that, we laugh, everybody inside the classroom laugh. I saw her shivering eyes because of madness when we laugh.

"It's Josephine Vagianna mister. And do you think it's funny to laugh? It's not. Detention! All of you!"

Yeah, it's funny how all of us are in detention that time.

The bell rang, means our class is now over.

There's no special things about this day, just a normal day, except for the players of football team is in practice after lunch till 6, and I'm here on the bench, watching them practicing.

Waiting for my best friend, Henry.

"Aren't you tired of waiting for him always, every practice?" I look up and saw Katharina, a friend of mine. I have a few friends though, it's just Henry is my friend since kinder garden, because he's my neighbor and he's here for me when mom died, the reason why I lived alone.

Well, my uncle and aunty support me, but I told them that it is alright not to move in with me because they have family in California.

If you're asking about my dad?

He's an asshole, he leave us without a mark, he lives with his pregnant girlfriend, somewhere. I was 6 when that happened. Until now, there's no news about him.

"I'm used to it." I said. She sat down beside me. I look at her and she's watching the practice. "Austin look hot with that shirt." She said. I look to Austin and to the shirt he is wearing. He wear red fitted shirt. "You like him?" I said. "I don't know, I like Chase, but he has a girlfriend. So I'll go with Austin."

Wow, just wow.

After hours, we just talk. Talk about anything, something or maybe nothing. I'm glad she's here, because if she's not, I'll be bored for 3 hours, straight.

"He is an asshole, I saw him cheating with me in his own house! Do you know how f**k up that was? He invited me to his house, and didn't even think about being caught?" She said, we we're talking about her ex-boyfriend Josh who cheated on her at their 3rd year anniversary last September. And did you know how many ex she had? She had four! While me, I'm single as f**k! Virgin to girls, but not for boys?

God!

Does that make any sense?

"You? a*********s about exes? Relationship? s*x life?" She asks. I gulp when she said 's*x life' "oh, no. I don't have any." I said. " So you're a virgin?" She ask.

Is this normal? Talking about s*x with a girl? Because for me it's not, but I enjoy talking about it because I don't talk about it with other people, not even Henry.

"No? Yes? I really don't know." I said. "No? Who did you lost your virginity! Is that the girl your kissing yesterday at the party? The blonde one? And yes? You're a virgin but not exactly like that? God, even my brain couldn't figure it out." She said and we both laugh.

And wait, what? I kiss a blonde girl yesterday? Why can't I remember that? Because I'm high?

"Hey!" We both look up and saw Henry walking toward us. "Hi Kath!" He greeted. He look at me and smiled weirdly.

Okay? What was that?

"I'm gonna take a shower first and we'll go home." He said and walk away. "Hi Chase!" Kath said. I look to Chase and he smiled at me. "You two know each other?" Katharina said. "I tutor him, in science and math." I said. "It's weird because, I greeted him, but he greeted you back. Instead of me." She said.

"Yeah, it's weird."

You see. No one cares about who cheated and got cheated. Because everyone cheated to anyone, because everyone has a secret, and for you to know it, you just have to pick up all the pieces and make the pieces whole again.

Inspect deeper, until you reach the bottom of the sea.

This is WestHood, everything is possible.

"So?" I look to Henry while he's driving his car. "So?... What?" I ask him in my confuse tone. "Are you two together?" He asks. "Chase?" I ask back and he laugh like something is funny. "Katharina, you i***t!" He said and I turn my head on the right, so I can avoid his eyes. "But wait, you said Chase. Does that mean you two, are two two?" And he made a gesture using his two fingers.

Oh god, I hate talking about Chase, nor about us.

"Nope." I answer seriously. "I don't believe you. So what? You two are just having s*x? But not in relationship? Like.... Friends with benefits?" He said. "I don't know. It's just one time." I said and he look at me with his joking expression. "Fine, two? Three? I don't remember how many times." I said and he laugh, loudly. "What?"

I can feel my face heating up in embarrassment. I don't really know how both of us ended up having s*x together.

I don't know.

"Is it big?" He ask and I look at him. "You know.. his..." And he point out to his... "Pp?" He said. "f**k off Henry! You're disgusting! You know what!" I stop and swallow my own spit. "I will never ever talk about this again with you!" I said and he laugh. "Why? It's fun to talk about it. There's nothing wrong about it. We're growing up, and we never talk about it before. We're 16 Jackson! Our age meet the limits, so what to waste right?" He said.

Why?

It is because I don't wanna talk about it, I never wanted it to happen. It's just an accident that went to obsession, or I don't know, addiction? It's like we both want it to happen because were bored, we're destroyed inside, sadness. And s*x makes us both happy. That is why I never consider it to the relationship one, and consider it for my virginess. I don't want everything to change, just because of our stupidity. Just because of our connection.

"Why'd you ask if his pp's big? You're on the football team, you all take a shower after practice or a game. It's impossible for you not to see it." I said. "He never wants everyone to see him naked. He never took a shower after every game or practice, his just saying that he'll take his own shower at their house." He said.

Oh, I didn't know about it.

"So if he never wants someone to see him naked, does that mean..." I didn't continue because Henry stop his car.

We're home.

"Yes, you are the only person who see him naked. And his girlfriend, Sarah."

Girlfriend.

I should remember that before we make out, that he has a girlfriend. I don't want to destroy their relationship. I don't want to look a bad person.

"Yeah. I should probably keep going." I said. Before I open the door, he spoke something that I couldn't process right. "Go to the game tommorow, alright? I'll wait you there, and I can't get you to school tomorrow because I'll be in school earlier than 7." He said. "Yeah, no problem." I said. "Night bro." He said and I went out. "Love you!" He said out loud before he shut the door of his car.

I smiled at him and give him my middle finger.

Present Day

Let's go back to the present day, where Henry and I are standing in front of Chase body. Where everything turns out f**k up.

See? My life is not perfect, but I never really think about complicated things that can happen to me, that is why I never expect everything to turned out like this, it just all started when Chase mother paid the school principal for Chase to get a tutor, for short, when I starting tutoring him.

"Close it! Now!" I said and Henry close the cabinet door. "One more day and everything will be back to normal. One more act and everything's gonna be alright again." I calm myself down. "How the f**k are you sure about that? That everything will be alright? You f*****g killed your man!" He shouted. I cover his mouth. "Well, you f*****g broke his legs! The reason why he need my help!" I said. "What's the connection of it? You know what. I'm done ignoring the questions in my head. Why did you kill him?" He asks. "Why the both of you fight? Why did you break his leg?" I ask him back.

He shut his mouth.

I know there is something he doesn't want to tell me. Because he keep refusing to tell me why he and Chase had a fight in the first play, the reason why he can't play the game that night.

We are both shock when someone knock on my door. We both look to each other, with our own scared expression.- to be continued.