Fuse (Book 3 Hell Raisers MC)

5

Daisy

“You know what, you need a vibrator. That’s what really got me into s*x. An amazing orgasm.” Tilly told me and I laughed. “I’m serious. I didn’t have an orgasm with a man until way after I gave myself my first one. It shows what you should expect from a man. How it should feel.” She told me and took a sip of her wine and I did the same only I tipped my wine up and gulped the last of it down.

“I have a friend who owns a shop, I can get you the best model. I’ve seen those little rose one’s everywhere.” Aiden pipped in as well with a huge smile on his face.

I felt my cheeks turning a bright red and I just stopped thinking about it. I didn’t want one. What would I do with it? Tease myself?

“I’ll get you both one so it’s fair. I’ll tell him you have friends and it’s a little promotion.” He added once he realized I wasn’t going to openly accept or decline his offer.

I’d probably never even take it out of the box. But I’d thought it was a good idea and Tilly said she’s tried it… I didn’t want to be a prude and deny what they were trying to help me with.

I hadn’t thought of that conversation past my goodbyes… but looking down at my phone on my break to see Adiens message saying it was ready for me on my doorknob I was dreading going home.

I looked out at the diner and saw the prospect that Victor had left behind this morning after eating. He said he would be back to collect me after my shift, he was going to shower and change and pack and bag and I gave him my keys to drop things off.

His kiss this morning was leg melting and when he saw that he had smirked and told me he liked my taste. Nothing else, no other talks of moving forward with other things besides kisses.

He kissed me quick when he was leaving on my temple because I was changing out the coffeee grounds and my hands were gross. But would it be different in public and private?

Would he make me quiver and moan at home and be more respectful and reserved in public?

It made me feel safe that he wasn’t pushing for anything. Not that my ex did… he waited for me to be comfortable with things moving forward but at the same time… he was my first everything.

Victor was always my deepest desires…I’ve had fever dreams, horny thoughts, and needs. I wanted to try everything with him, everything I’ve seen on Tv and movies, read in books, heard through gossip.

“Sweetheart, what are you doing staring at the dish water?” I jumped and turned to my boss, the owner really, Daniel, who as much to my dismay, seemed excited when I walked in with Victor and was told I would be taking less hours.

“Just thinking.” I told him with a shrug and pushed my phone into my back pocket.

“About Victor? I’ve been waiting for that kid to get his head out of his ass for the last decade.” He laughed as he moved to rest on the lockers we keep our stuff in.

“Him. Us living together. Seems so fast.” I told him and he laughed as he got up to stretch now.

“Once you get to be my age, losing all that I’ve lost… going fast just means you’ll have time to be happy longer. Trust me… everyone always wants more time.” I could remember every one of his losses over the last decade of working. His sister, his father, then his mom, and then his wife. He didn’t have kids… but he knew loss.

“So you think I should just go with it?” I asked him to be sure and he smirked and then snorted before laughing outright.

“I’m not your father… just your boss. I can tell you to run and hide… but I know this is what you have always wanted. What that little overthinker wants too. I told you, he’s watched out for you for years, at first I thought it was an older brother thing… but he always looks at your ass when you bend over.” He laughed and I rolled my eyes. Many guys did that. Some liked to comment on it like this was a bar or a strip club. It didn’t help in the summers I wore shorts that really showed it off.

“So you think it’s a good idea… as in if this was your choice you would take it?” I asked and he nodded with a smile.

“It’s time for you to be happy. For you to maybe take on those classes we talked about.” He added and I rolled my eyes. “You taking over when I retire is the only way this place will stay open. We both know it.”

“I’ll think about it. Maybe run it past Victor and maybe Tank, If they invest then you can retire with money.” I had a whole world of opportunities now that Victor was claiming me as his girlfriend. I had ways to be able to talk to Tank about this diner. And if I took classes to be all manager/business professional and able to keep the books and do all the ordering it could go well.

But now I didn’t want to just bring it up to them when they’re really trying to help me. Who knows what bad things might happen with the Rubiano family.

I thought on it for the rest of my shift, thinking about how to get out of all of this without causing trouble.

“Baby…” I blinked at the familiar voice of Victor suddenly registered he has been talking to me. “Ready to go?” He asked and I nodded before looking around.

My tables were cleaned, salt and pepper shakers filled, dishes in the back drying. Some of the prep for tomorrow was also done since it had been a slow night.

“Yeah let me clock out.” I told him and moved to stand but he caught my hip, brought me in tight and kissed me like he had this morning. Lips and tongue and his hands squeezed and rubbed. He pulled back slowly and reached to snag my hand. He had me following him out and once we got to his bike he handed me a new helmet, tag still on it.

“You didn’t have to… I mean I could have bought it-“

“Sweetheart, you’re about to get a whole lot more things you want or need. Just you wait.” He took the tag and tugged until it snapped off. He stuffed it right in his pocket and I realized that I didn’t even notice if there was a price on it so I could pay him back.

“I don’t really need anything-“

“I’ll see.” He told me and then held his hand out for me to get on the bike. I settled pretty fast and wrapped my arms around his waist as he got on and started it up. I made sure that I held on for the fast ride… and once we were home I realized that I had to get to the toy before he got to see it.

I was burning red as we got to my floor and I could see what looked like a wine bottle bag hanging from my door knob. I grabbed it up and he made a comment of it being from Aiden.

“Yeah, it is.” I gulped and fumbled my keys until my hands were shaking until I got the door open. I moved right to put my things down and then get to the kitchen where I put the bag and then moved to grab water.

“What time are you off tomorrow?” He asked as he took off his cut and then moved to join me in the kitchen area.

“I’ll know for sure if the other girl wants to take my shifts or if he needs to hire someone to fill the holes. But once that’s sorted I will start getting off at 5.” I told him and nibbled my bottom lip when he seemed to pause.

“That’s still more than eight hours a shift girly.” He put his elbows on the counter and sort of waited for me to talk.

“It’s just until things even out. Daniel said I should only work 5 days and 40 hours… but I asked to keep it 6 days and 10 hours just so he doesn’t have to work the extra-“

“Daze, you’re the one I am worried about. You’ve been working non stop for as long as I can remember. You’re falling off the bone, you’re tired all the time.” He whispered it like it was sad news, but really it was just honesty. It’s how he saw me. No wonder he thought he needed to take care of me.

“Daniel… he’s older. I can take the shifts.” I shrugged and he worked his jaw before he stood up and then he physically caged me into the counter until his hips were pushed against mine.

“I want you to take care of yourself, not anyone else. Don’t think about anyone. What do you want? Less hours or to work yourself ragged?” He asked and I realized that he was worried over me more than I was.

“I can’t answer that until everyone else is ok too.” I could rake the hours, I could take the late shifts, the 6 days a week, all of it. Daniel couldn’t take it anymore. I raised my hand until I could cup his cheek, and I smoothed over the tension. “When he hires someone new, when someone else takes on my shifts and they’re ok with it, I will unload more.” I told him, promised basically.

He eyes softened and he took a deep breath. “Ok. What you feel like you need to do, we will do until you’re not needed as much.” It took a moment for him to say that, and I felt like he was accepting it despite it sounding more like he was giving me permission.

“I just have to change, maybe we can watch a movie.” I whispered and he nodded slowly. I grabbed the bag and my purse and started towards my room until I was putting things away and then I moved the bag right into the bathroom and tossed it under the sink before grabbing one of my dresses I like to wear around the apartment.

I walked out and saw him on the TV, sort of adding a few apps that I didn’t pay for so I hoped he had accounts with them. I grabbed my brush from my purse and started to brush my hair before braiding it. I curled on my feet and I noticed Victor notice me and he kept signing into the apps before walking over to me and sitting near me.

“This is going fast, for you… isn’t it?” He asked and I bit my lip. It was. We’ve barely kissed, he’s barely talked to me other than sharing the fact that he wants me. That he wants me to live with him and be together… and while that is what I wanted more than anything… I wanted to do it right.

“I just want to do it the right way. I feel a little rushed into this but it’s not something I don’t want. I want you Vic… always have. But I don’t want to rush and maybe be swept up into something we haven’t built up.” I told him and gulped hoping that my readiness to agree to be with him and work at it would be enough.

“You need to tell me everything that you feel. Even if you’re worried about what I would do or say. Truth and honesty is what is most important to me.” Vic told me and i nodded knowing I would keep that in mind going forward.

“Is it too late to say that I don’t think I am ready to share a bed tonight?” I hadn’t shaved, I hadn ‘t prepared for him at all. I wanted him, but I was too nervous.

“I can sleep out here on the couch again, or I could go back to the compound and come back in the morning.”

“Will you stay for a movie?” I asked and he nodded slowly and I swallowed hard realizing that was my choice and he knew it. He would go back and get a good night sleep in his bed and we would take this slow.

“I can also walk to work-“

“Nice try.” He smirked and I felt a little better as he then passed me the remote. “Pick your show or movie.” He told me and I slowly started to find my way around the apps and eventually I landed on a funny movie and before long… I was falling asleep.

I felt him lift me and he shushed me when I said I would walk him out. “You’ll get a good night sleep, I will see you in the morning, and we’ll come back and do this all again tomorrow.” He kissed my temple before my lips in a quick peck and I watched him walk out of my room.

I cuddled in and listened as he let himself out. I let out a breath and felt bad but also like this was ok. He would go home and sleep in a bed. I would get a date before anything happened… and I would have to be more open and honest like he wanted. To speak up.

Does that mean I have to tell him I didn’t like s*x? That I’ve never had an orgasm?

My mind drifted to the toy in the bathroom and I slowly got up… padded to my sink and got down on my knees and slowly opened it. I realize I was sneaking in my own empty apartment and wanted to bang my head against something for being so ridiculous. I opened the bag and saw a velvet pouch, a cord and adapter and I took it back to my bed and dumped it out.

When I saw a note float down too I grabbed it and shook my head.

All charged up for you baby girl! Just the matter of you being alone to try!

Love

Tilly and Adien

My face was flaming but I cracked my neck and took a few deep breaths. There was nothing wrong in exploring my own body. There was nothing wrong with pleasure. If I could be pleasured.

I crawled back in bed and turned the rose on and off before figuring out the difference settings and the speeds. The buttons glowed in the dark and I was glad I didn’t need a super long instruction book to figure it out. I pulled all my clothes off and slowly brought it down between my legs. I spread my thighs slowly. Gulping as if I was nervous now.

“I can do this.” I whispered to no one but myself. I needed to get a grip. This wasn’t dirty. It wasn’t gross. It was natural.

My fingers found the ON button and I slowly pushed it against my clit. It didn’t tickle but I moved my hand away out of instinct.

“Just need to get used to it.” I whispered and set my legs wider. Bringing my knees up so I was completely spread… and I tried again. It fit nicely in the palm of my hand so I kept it off while the small hole was just over my clit again. I took a deep breath, turned it back on and I kept it loose but flush with my body still.

I didn’t jump or pull away, I slowly increased the pressure against my p***y until I felt my body jerk and I had to clench my teeth so I didn’t make any noise.

My hips moved slightly at the pressure but I kept my hand firmly against my clit and I suddenly felt waves of zings through my body. I could feel my n*****s getting hard and my toes were very affected. I curled them in and moved my hips as the toy started to suck my clit into the hole. My body arched on its own and I used my free hand to grip my covers. My breathing got a little testy as I felt something swell and my n*****s were hard and tight.

My mind chose that moment to conjure the all the ideas I’ve ever had of Victor. His mouth kissing mine, moving down my body, playing with my n*****s, biting my tender ticklish parts. His hands roaming my chest, down my stomach and to my hips. He’d be watching as I played, telling me how wet he could see me getting, how needy I looked.

I could tell my body was winding up, my heels were pushing down into the mattress and my hips were moving against the toy and my head was swimming with thoughts and before I could really enjoy anything I remember feeling a gush before the breath left my lungs and I could feel pleasure all over my body until it felt too much and no dropped the toy and moved my hands up to my boobs to find my n*****s hard and aching for touches.

I was breathing like I just ran a mile, I moved the toy away from between my legs and turned it off before flopping back on my bed and letting my body unwind.

I remember turning my head and then nothing until my alarm went off the next morning. I shifted in bed and felt my face flush as I realized the toy was still between my knees since I pushed it away from my p***y last night.

“I needed the sleep I guess.” I whispered and wondered if the reason I felt so refreshed was because I had an actual orgasm last night.

FUSE

I gripped the handle bars as I sped to her place, I knew she was uncomfortable last night and I hated that I rushed her until she was completely plowed into just having me there. I knew she was ready to date, to kiss, to hangout and take my help… but I should have pumped the breaks on living together before taking her out on an actual first date.

I knew I messed up, even if it wasn’t a total f**k up. So I got to her apartment building and waiting out front until I heard a door, and then another door slam from the weight. I saw her look around, spot me, and she smiled before coming closer.

“Hi baby, riding with me or shall we walk?” I asked and she looked at the bike before the street and I knew her decision was made. I wasn’t sure if she even noticed but I left her helmet upstairs and she didn’t have it now. “Let’s walk.” I parked my bike on the side of the building and set my helmet down before meeting her back on the sidewalk.

I reached for her hand and interlocked our fingers. Keeping her on the inside I tried to think of something to talk about, something to tell her or something to do with l her as a date… and f**k me if I needed to fish for ideas.

“I know you’re busy, but I do want a date, with you.” I told her and she looked over at me all bright eyed like she was excited if that didn’t give me confidence …

“What were you thinking?”

“Well the fair is in town soon, we could go there, gives you enough time for requests a night off.” I told her and her eyes got even bigger and so did her smile.

“Will you go on the rides with me?” She asked and squeezed my hand as her other hard reached up to grab the same arm.

“Any ride you want sweetness.” I would to. I didn’t care if I would spin and get a f****d up stomach… if it made her happy, we’d go on all of them 5 times.

“I’ll have to see when it opens-“

“Next Friday,” I had seen the billboard on my way to get her. “Is that enough time? I think they do fireworks the first night.” I told her and I didn’t think it was possible for her to get more excited.

“Only fireworks I’ve ever seen are on Fourth of July out on the street… the stuff other people did.” She shrugged it off but I knew that was nothing to seeing just how far they go up in the sky with the proper equipment.

“I’ll take care of everything. It’ll be a long ride so we can either take my bike or I’ll take the car I have and we’ll be more comfortable at night riding back in that.” I told her ans she nodded but didn’t pull away or relax her grip on me. She was just as excited as I was.

Thank f**k.

“Next Friday is payday so I can play some of the games.” She gushed and I knew she wouldn’t be spending a penny so I’d make sure to get enough cash out to play games and I’ll look up how much wrist bands were for the rides and we’d get the junk food and look at the other stuff around.

She’ll see that I can provide even if it’s just a day out to the fair. That I want to. That I’m happy to do it.

We walked the rest of the way with her humming like a cute little happy girl which made my day turn a new leaf. Here I thought I f****d up like a dumbass moving too fast, but maybe she was nervous last night.

I’d still give her space, we’d move forward as a couple. Talk things through and fully understand where and what we were doing. Just a few more days and we’d be on our first official date.

I had a date with Daisy.

I had a pep in my step all day. I went to work and left a prospect with her at the diner. I got caught up on most of my missed work and hours settled so I can make what I’ve missed out on, Tank and I worked out the prospects on Daisy for the foreseeable future. Until we had this debt of hers handled.

I walked out of the garage and practically sped all the way to the diner just to see my girl.

Fuck it felt good to call her that. My girl. Daisy was my girl.

All mine. I’d show her all my feelings. All my wants and needs with her, I’d take it slow but never pull away. I hopped off my bike and headed for the door have to see she noticed me and sent me a smile

Fuck me I needed to make sure I did everything right or I’d lose that beautiful woman.