Chapter One
“Harriet, you know we can’t be together; you are an omega, and I am the alpha of this pack. We can’t be anything more than lovers.” Damon stated as he laughed coldly in my face
I felt a sting of rejection and disappointment as Damon's words hit me like a punch to the gut. I had been hoping that he would see me differently, that he would see past the societal norms that dictated our roles as omega and alpha. But it seemed he was just as bound by those norms as the rest of the pack.
I tried to keep my emotions in check, but it was hard to hear him dismiss our feelings like that. I felt like I was just a means to an end for him, a way to satisfy his desires without real commitment or love.
"I thought you felt something for me," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "I thought we had something special."
Damon's laughter sent a chill down my spine. "You're an omega, Harriet. You're meant to be loyal and obedient. You're not meant to be loved or cherished. You're just a tool for us to use and discard when we're done with you."
I felt a surge of anger and hurt at his words. How could he say such things? Didn't he know I was more than just a tool or a means to an end? I was a person with thoughts, feelings and desires.
"I'm more than just an omega," I said, trying to keep my voice from shaking. "I'm a person with feelings and emotions. And I deserve to be loved and respected, just like anyone else."
Damon's smile faltered momentarily, and I saw a glimmer of uncertainty in his eyes. But then his expression hardened again, and he spoke in a cold, detached tone.
"You're just being foolish, Harriet. You're a weak omega, and you'll always be an omega. You haven't even got a strong Wolf. In fact do you even have a wolf? And I'm the alpha, and I'll always be in charge. That's the way it is."
I felt a lump form in my throat as I realised he wouldn't change his mind. He wouldn't see me as anything more than an omega, a hard pill to swallow. He was right I hadn't been lucky enough to know my Wolf since she had never come through to me. Maybe I was too weak. Damon had always made me feel so good and yet here he was running me down like a bag of filthy rubbish.
I turned away from him, trying to hold back my tears. I knew I couldn't stay with him if he didn't see me as more than just a tool or a means to an end. But where would I go? The world outside the pack was unknown and frightening, and I didn't know if I dared to face it alone.
“Harriet, you know I love having you in my bed, but I need a real woman, a strong leader, to stand beside me through thick and thin. Someone like Aurora.” My ears pricked up at the sound of his aurora. She was the beta sister, tall, beautiful with long black flowing hair and bright blue eyes. She was fierce and strong so of course he would end up choosing her over me. How could I have been so stupid to think anything of him?
My heart sank as I heard Damon's words. I felt like I was being rejected not just as a lover but as a person. The realisation that he was only using me for physical pleasure was a harsh one, and it stung.
I turned back to face him, my eyes burning with anger and hurt. "You're just going to replace me with her, right?" I asked, my voice trembling.
Damon's smile grew wider. "Of course, Harriet. Aurora is a strong leader, and she's the perfect mate for me. She's got the strength and courage that I need in a partner."
I felt a surge of jealousy and resentment at the mention of Aurora's name. I knew she was a strong and capable beta, but I couldn't help but feel like she was the reason for Damon's rejection.
"You're just using me to pass the time until you can get what you want," I said, shaking angrily. "You're just using me as a means to an end."
Damon shrugged. "You know it, Harriet. You're an omega, and you're meant to be loyal and obedient. You're not meant to be loved or cherished."
I felt a lump in my throat as I realised Damon wouldn't change his mind. He wouldn't see me as anything more than an omega, a hard pill to swallow.
I turned away from him, feeling a sense of sadness and loss wash over me. I knew I couldn't stay with him if he didn't see me as more than just a tool or a means to an end. But where would I go? The world outside the pack was unknown and frightening, and I didn't know if I dared to face it alone.
“You can leave me in peace now, and I will call for you later tonight when I decide to.” And with that, he slammed the door in my face, leaving me a trembling mess, but I knew there was no way I was going to let him use me any longer.
As I walked away from Damon, I couldn't help but feel a sense of resentment towards Aurora. She was the reason for Damon's rejection, and I couldn't help but feel like she would take everything from me. She had always been so lovely and friendly to me; she treated me kindly, but nobody knew about me and Damon. He had insisted that I keep it a secret. Our secret. But now I realised I was nothing more than a dirty little secret to him. I felt so used.
I pushed those thoughts aside and focused on my feelings. I knew that I deserved better than to be treated like a tool or a means to an end. I deserved to be loved and respected for who I was, not just for my physical appearance.
I took a deep breath and squared my shoulders, determined to move on from this painful situation. I knew that it wouldn't be easy, but I was ready to face whatever challenges lay ahead.
I wasn't going to stick around and wait for Damon to want me again, oh no. Tonight, I was going to leave Milton Manor Pack, and I would never return; it was time to start putting myself first.