I felt betrayed by my friend. By the one I classed as the closest person to ever be to me, the one I had talked to and told things to. The only one I really have been able to be close to. Sure, Jania has always been there too, since we were kids. But Jania's loyalty had always gone to the one that could offer her more, even as a child. I had been trapped in the castle, she wasn't. She took advantage of that. I know I have never been the one she really wanted. I could just offer her the most. It was why I never even really tried to connect with her in any other way than physically. Deep down I knew it was not his fault my father said what he had. But Kalen was more like my father than I was. Yea, I was ruthless. Yes, I had more blood on my hands than anyone. But I wanted to believe in mat
