Becoming The Billionaire's Desire

My Perfect daughter...

Amy’s POV

And suddenly, I woke up one morning…and felt empty. It’s been two weeks since I lost my 7 months baby. My perfect daughter; my almost. Oftentimes, I find my hand straying to my belly to caress it as I would when she was still there. I didn’t even attend her funeral…I didn’t think I was ready to say goodbye yet.

“Hey,” Sebastian’s hand clasped around me making me jump in fright. I didn’t know he had entered the room.

Involuntarily, I pushed myself away from him, hugging myself instead, feeling the emptiness that accompanied it. He frowned and jammed his hands inside the pockets of his khaki trousers and said “Nana said you didn’t eat anything tonight, you should eat something dear,”.

I pursed my lips and replied “I am not hungry,” I turned back to the window.

“Do you want to join me in the shower? I am feeling sticky all over,” Sebastian suggested again and started peeling off his clothes.

“Already took my bath,” I answered wishing he would just leave me alone.

Without another word, he padded barefooted to the bathroom across the bedroom.

It was Sebastian’s fault. If he hadn’t gotten me pregnant then perhaps, I wouldn’t feel this pain. My heart would be devoid of these endless emotions I feel now or better still, if it wasn’t for that stupid contract, I would be happily cooking food somewhere downtown. Sighing, I made my way to the bed and stretched out at the edge of the bed willing myself to sleep. All effort was futile and I laid still till I heard the bathroom door open and heard Sebastian pad gently across the floor towards the bed. I heard the deep on the other side of the bed and heard him turning off the bedside lamp. Just when I tried to relax, I felt strong hands wrap me again.

“For Chrissakes, Seb,” I jumped up in anger as I faced him “What do you want?” my eyes were blazing with hate.

“I just want to cuddle you,” he shrugged reaching for the bedside lamp.

“Or you want to f**k?” I laughed sarcastically, scaring myself with my own sound.

“It won’t be out of place you know. We’re married and if more than anything you should remember that I’ve been denied pleasures from your body for a while now but of course, I won’t force myself on you. You’re still healing. I just wanted to cuddle,”.

Without another word, I reached for some pillows on the bed and turned towards the door.

“Where are you going to?” Sebastian rasped as he sat upon the bed fully.

“I can’t stay in the same space as you, Mr Carter. I wouldn’t want to be made an example of how selfish a man is,”.

“Don’t worry, I’ll leave instead,” Sebastian stood up from the bed “I’ll just sleep in the guest room,” he muttered quietly as he walked past me.

It no longer felt like the right thing had been done…As Sebastian left the room, I stood up from the bed and went towards the window, the moon was half today, so half of the castle was illumined with the light of the moon. I stood there for few minutes, not knowing what to do, without thinking, I backed into the room and made for the door, maybe a walk will do me good or better still I paused and looked at my cell phone lying face down on my side of the bed, maybe I need to keep up with the world.

Ten minutes later, I was outside my room, instead of walking towards the front door like I’ve proposed in my heart, I found myself going upstairs, to the nursery. My emotions were bland, my thoughts were not mine so, it was difficult to control myself at this point. When I reached the door of the nursery, I paused and stretched my hands touching the knob. Then for the first time, something inside of me snapped, I started crying.

“Oh Baby,” I staggered to the floor, wrapping my hands around my stomach, the bulge was still there and It felt like she was still there.

“Oh Baby,” I cried again. Losing a child was one of the most terrible feeling ever. We didn’t know how much we love until we lose and that was the perfect word that described how I felt now. I reached for the knob again, forcing myself to turn it and go inside but I just couldn’t the reality of losing my baby was dawning on me and I didn’t want to let her go, at least, not like this.

But for now, let tears be my solitude...***

Sebastian’s POV

I lie awake for the longest time trying to quell my stirred-up emotions. Somehow, having Amy in my arms, moved a certain part of me that had not being attended to for months now. I felt wicked getting aroused near my wife who was recovering but then, these things are not what can be easily controlled either. My life was taking too many wrong turns; it was as though the universe didn’t care anymore about me and it worried me so much. For days now, I’ve tried to block out the image of my child being laid to rest in the family’s tomb ground. I’ve tried to block out how beautiful she had looked even though she wasn’t well formed. Her loss was something I never thought would happen, “How can I lose my first child?” I murmured underneath my breath.

I thought I was invincible, but life had dealt me a hard hand. The vibrations from my phone snapped me back into the reality. I peered at the caller and Austin’s name flashed, I wondered why he was calling at almost midnight.

“Hey bro,” I said as soon as I received the call.

“Hey, mate,” he answered quietly “How are you doing?” he asked.

“I am fine,” I answered too hastily, I couldn’t bear to be pitied.

“Seb,” his voice dropped a volume lower, “It’s ok not to be fine. It’s ok to want to forget these pains and believe me, I understand I just wish but you and Amy will accept our help. You need your friends at this time,”.

“But we’re not rejecting any help,” I scoffed immediately with a strange voice that didn’t resemble mine “I mean, we appreciate you guys for your numerous …” I trailed off; I didn’t know what word to use.

“Sebastian,” Austin sighed “How is Amy?”.

“Amy,” I chuckled sadly “Austin my marriage is over,” I felt my heart lurch in pain as soon as I said those words.

“Hey, don’t say that,” he chided.

“But it’s the truth,” I felt a tear roll down my eyes “My marriage is over. Amy walks around the house all day looking gloomy and dressed in black. I’ve tried to talk to her, to tell her that I am in this too and maybe see if we can comfort each other but it has been an uphill task Austin. If we survive this, if we ever survive this then I know that she’ll be mine forever,”.

“Have you ever taught of breaking that contract that you signed? Do you truly love her, Sebastian?”.

“Yes, I do,” I sighed “I really do, in the craziest of ways, through and through and I know that I want to be with her for the rest of my life. As for the contract, I wanted us to break it off after the birth of the baby and renew our marriage vows, you know but I dare not bring it up now. She won’t even let me cuddle her,” I complained.

“Things will work out eventually, Seb, but you need to be very patient. These things take time and what will determine its success is how much you really cared, how much you made yourself available. This is the time you get to show Amy that you’re the man for her. You’ll be fine,” he added.

“Yeah, Austin, I’ll be fine,” I smiled “So, how’s work? How’s Emily? What’s up to the both of you these days?” I asked.

“Work is hectic and one of the reasons I called is because of the baby. We cannot leave her grave unmarked so, I need you and Amy to come up with a suitable name for the child. So, I will call the marksman and they come do their thing, okay?”.

“Yeah,” I nodded my head vigorously, our baby didn’t have a name. I and Amy were still in the middle of deciding a perfect name for the child before its death.

“And both of you need to be there on that day too,” Austin sighed “Don’t worry, Seb, everything will eventually be alright,”.

“Yeah, thanks a lot,” I smiled and since the question I asked about Emily was not forthcoming, I decided to ask him again “You haven’t told me about Emily? How are both of you these days?” I asked.

“Emily is fine,” Austin answered a bit forceful “And there’s no need to ask of her welfare from me,” I could feel the irritation in his voice.

“Hey, easy, Austin,” I shrugged “I thought both of you were an item and you sure looked it. Why the sudden nonchalance?” I pursued.

“Let’s just say, I and Emily do not agree on certain things. We had a fall out during that case with Monsieur Abelard and Amy (it seemed like a long time ago) and she was so worried and was acting up because she accused me of not spending too much time with her, of which I explained and told her that I was trying my best to not lose the case. We kinda exchanged some words and then that was it. We stopped talking,”.

“Wow!” I exclaimed “You really let a good woman go because of your ego?” I asked “For chrissakes, you could have reached out to her after that, apologize and I am very sure that a compromise will be agreed. You guys make a perfect couple you know,”.

“I wanted to do that, only that she travelled to California that period and won’t answer my calls, so I figured that I am not needed. Besides, these days she seems happy with another guy. His name is Jack and believe me, I see a lot of PDAs online, so…”.

I burst into laughter trying to contain myself, it was almost impossible to believe that someone like Austin can get jealous. He never gets jealous.

“You’re jealous bro,” I said in between laughs.

“NO, never,” Austin exclaimed “I just happen to be so good at getting any information,” he defended.

“Yeah, I see that, bro but to the best of my knowledge, you’re never interested in the lives of the women who are no longer in your life but I am so shocked to know that you know the name of the man that Emily is seeing. Besides, what if they are on the same movie set?”.

“They are,” he replied “His the male character lead in the movie she working on,” he added.

“Wow!” I chortled trying to calm myself from laughing too much  “You sure know how to get information, Bro,” I added.

“Don’t be annoying, Sebastian. You know I liked Emily and for a while I saw the prospect of entering a relationship with her but it seems like a futile try and of course, I’ll be lying if I tell you I wasn’t jealous in the first place, I am twenty times whoever her new guy is but yet she left me for him. I am not going to sweat it anymore. I’ve lost Emily for good and that’s okay,”.

“Yeah?” I asked.

“Yeah,” he replied “Save your marriage, Seb, women like Amy comes once in every generation. Sweet dreams,” with that the call ended.

I am going to save my marriage.