Being his halal

Chapter twelve.

Annur's POV .

Hearing hatina's voice in fear made my heart sink, I ran and ran looking for her but no avail. I looked at every corners around where I heard her voice but couldn't see her.

"Annur!!!" she yelled again.

I followed her voice this time and when I saw her my fist stiffened.

"Get the hell away from her". I said as I came closer to the drunk who was coming closer to hatina.

"Ahh what will you do, who do you think you are". The drunk said.

"You will know who I am soon enough". I told him as I grabbed him and punched him in the abdomen making him growl in pain then twisting his arm till he reaches the floor and screamed in pain.

"She's mine and only mine, no one dares touch her, lay a hand on her again and I swear I'll find you and your family and make your whole generations suffer more than the disease of a plague". I squeezed his arm more in pain.

"Annur stop, you'll kill him". Hatina spoke breaking me through.

"I don't care, he touched you". I growled angrily.

"He didn't, he hasn't touched me I swear".

"But he hurt you" I told her as I released my grasp on him.

"He isn't the one that hurt me, you did, you hurt me".

When she said those words my heart sank deeper I couldn't show my face anymore, watching her speak in such an hurt, low voice, really bit me. I pushed the drunk aside as he felt and scurried away.

"Let's get you away from here first, when we get home we'll settle everything". I assure her.

"I'm not going back annur, I can't". She spoke Tears rolling down her eyes

"Hatina please". I begged but she protested tears welling down from her eyes. All I could think of was that I wanted to console her to take away those tears but I couldn't because I'm the f*****g cause.

I didn't wait for her response as I carried her bridal style, still protesting but I didn't listen to her. She was hurt and it was my fault now it my responsibility to fix it.

Oh God.....i hurt her so much, she's not even speaking, the tears are just falling.

We arrived home and I sat her down but she turns her face away from Me. Great now she won't even look at me.

"hatina, I'm so sorry you had to see that, I didn't mean to. I f****d up big time and I know it, I.....". To be honest I don't know what I have become, this isn't me, I'm normally not the type to apologize but here I am. I can resit the fact that gradually this woman right here is changing me.

"Then why did you do it, why, how could you, doesn't our marriage mean anything to you even if you don't love me, can't you at least respect that". She spoke bitterly.

That part she said made my body shrink "even if you don't love me". Why did she feel that way, I can't say I actually feel this way about her or say I'm in love with her but I do care for her no matter how I try to hide, I just can't. Ever since we got engaged my only aim was to make her suffer but that day on our wedding night when I saw her she looked so innocent, so pure and caring and Even if I didn't want this marriage I couldn't at least make her suffer for something that we both agreed to.

"I'm really sorry, I don't have any excuse per say, so go angry at me, slap me if you want, but I want you to know that I didn't mean what I did, I thought she was in danger and..... I'm just really sorry hatina it won't happen again am really sorry".

"Subhanalah I'll never do that, no matter how upset i am, why will you say that? Why I am upset is because we're married annur, and its.... And it had to be her again the same girl at the restaurant I want to forgive you and I will but If you want me to forgive you then you have to make it up to me".

"How". I said.

"Cut all contacts with with her and any other more of them".

"Fine I'll do that, I'll do it". I tell her truthfully. See this is why hatina is different, she's matured and always does things gently. If it was any other woman, I'm sure I would have taken a slap by now.

"Good".

"I'm I forgiven".

"Not yet, I must see the improvement".

"Yes then, you will". I said before grabbing her into a hug and then taken her to the room. I felt relieved hearing her say that, I don't know what I've become or how I did, but I know someone who is the cause of this. I'll definitely make it better, I'll treat her better, I promise.

"Hey so just rest and sleep okay, I promise I'll make it up to you". I tell her as she nods then goes to the bathroom to change her clothes.

"Goodnight annur".

" Goodnight hatina" hatina what the hell are you doing to me.

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"Umma, umma, I'm so sorry, please forgive me, i promise I will listen to you from now on, but please don't treat me this way, I'm sorry. Umma, umma....." I hear hatina screaming and crying in the middle of the night.

"Hatina".

"No, umma am sorry". She continues to cry as her whole body becomes hot.

"Hatina, you need to get up, you're burning up". I said shaking her and putting my hand on her forehead. "Hatina". I yell and then her eye opens.

"Hey, are you okay, what's wrong". I ask her. Her face is rushed and she's sweating as hell.

"Um..Nothing" she gulps. "it was nothing just go back to sleep" she said frightened.

"It's something you were screaming and crying, tell me whatever it is, even if its nothing I want to know." I protested. For her to be crying and be like this its definitely something bitter and as her husband I have the right to know. Thinking of the fact that I'm her husband made it more bitter, if we had a good conversation going between us or I had at least tried to know her maybe I would have know what was wrong. I just hate seeing her like this which is why I'm going to try my best to know everything about her.

"Annur just go back to sleep". She shakes her head

"How will I sleep when I know that you're not alright". I said facing her on the bed and dragging her close.

" annur please drop it, I told you it...I..its nothing so don't worry" she gulps as her breath quickens. She's scared, very scared and just looking at her I wonder what was so terrible that happened to her that made her feel this way.

"No am not dropping it. Like you said we're married so we should care for each other and am not letting it go, no matter what, we could stay all night on this but I'm not letting this go" this is hatina we're talking about, if I don't pester her she won't say anything and tomorrow She'll act like nothing happened.

Wow I guess i know her better than i thought. Oh lord.

"Fine, I'll tell you". She said before taking a big sigh and then resumed talking." ever since I was little I and my mom have always been close, we would go to the salon together, she'll braid my hair sometimes if we can't make it to the salon. She'll make I and my sister breakfast, she was really caring and nice to us, but suddenly it changed all of a sudden, she stopped treating me the way she used to, she would hit me, insult me, injure me, and she wouldn't even care. She would call me ugly and that was the time I realized she despised me and blamed me for every misfortune in her life, it was the time I realized she had stopped loving me but I didn't, I couldn't stop loving her because she's my mother, I would do anything for her even if she does not know It". All what hatina has just said made my jaw dropped.

How could her own mother treat her like that, how can she treat her own daughter like that, I know I and hatina have just know each other for weeks but its like I've known her for years. She's sweet, forgiving, loving, and cheerful. I don't expect anyone to treat her that way.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know it was this way, by the way I don't see you that way you aren't ugly, you're beautiful just the way you are. In fact you're perfect". Now I know why she was so hesitant about telling me. This is deep.

"Its not your fault, I don't just want you to pity me and look at me as left over trash".

"No, don't talk like that ever again please I will never see you that way, I will never, I will not pity you rather I'll get you through this, okay?".

She nods "thank you annur".

" I'll always be there for you, I promise, come here". I grabbed her into a hug and rested her head on my chest while patting her back till she slept off. Right now she needs someone to be there for her and I am that person.

"I'll never leave you, that's a promise".

I said to her knowing she fell asleep before I said that. And I realized something.

Everything that happened today, only brought us closer than we've ever been.