Fifteen
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To hear that people hurt Isobel was like a physical blow to me. I staggered when I heard Alexander said that but I don't think he noticed as he refused to look at me.
I don't blame him, I don't even feel like looking at myself and seeing the disgrace and failure that I am made up of.
My vow to her, « to hold, love, protect and cherish » have been broken even though I was not present for the wedding, I love being with her, she made me happy, and my reward to her ; I made her pregnant and cast her out, undefended and alone with an extra burden to take care of. I deserve to be locked up in hell for eternity for how I treated her, she and Alexander have every right to hate me.
‘ did they violate you ?’ I asked in a strangled voice and she paus
