crush

Year 2021 in a school when I first saw him I was shocked how handsome he was.my name is susmita class:9.i have never been in a relationship but I wanted to be when I saw him. I was wondering what his name was in which class he is reading in that time one of my friend said his name is Subash from class 10 he haven't been in a relationship till now but many people have crush in him.one of my classmates also have crush in him.at first I was moved by his handsomeness but I got to know that he is kind and helpful too.i wanted to talk with him but I don't have the courage so I didn't talk. next day while going to school I saw him so I wanted to talk with him but one of my classmates came and I couldn't talk.days past I started falling for him more and more.one day suddenly while I was going to market I slipped and he came from nowhere and catched me.he said watch here and there while walking how to describe I was so happy that he talked to me.we started being friends and became so close in few days I was falling more and more for him day by day ........ after some time months pass final exam came we all passed the exam I was happy but suddenly realised that he has to left the city for higher studies I became sad and asked him if he could stay here to study but he replied I can't because here isn't the subject I want to read. after he said that I was unhappy so I left from there.he saw I was unhappy so he followed me and said there is still 1 month left before I leave and I promise that I will be back to you after completing my studies. in that one month we went to many places to have fun.my school started and he also leave for his studies.we used to talk to each other in phone. that year passed I studied harder to go on good collage.and one day suddenly I read about an collage which had very good background.and suddenly realised Subash was also reading in the same collage.i applied for the college my results were good so the college took me.i decided to read nursing in that collage.while moving to hostal room I suddenly met an senior so I asked him about the girls hostel. he asked about my name he said his name was sanjay.he took me to the girls hostel room. I was the first one to be there while I was unpacking my things my roommates arrived they said their names were priyasha,ashmita,and sajina they were so sweet we became best friend in notime. after few days in collage when I was heading to the canteen I saw Subash suddenly when I called him he was shocked why I was there I said I am here from few days and didn't told you because I wanted to surprise you but I didn't know about your room numbers.he said do you know how scared I was when I couldn't contact you these few days.then suddenly the senior appeared and asked me to have supper with him Subash asked who he was I said he was the senior who helped me become while comming to hostel he said you can have supper with him on some other days but not come with me and he took me to have supper with him after few days he said susmita I like you please be my girlfriend I was shocked also happy so I accepted it. after some years we had a physical realtion ship and I was pregnant with his child but suddenly one day Subash had an car accident he was hurried to ICU but the doctor said he was in coma and Don't know If he can come out of it or not I was so sad.days passed I always went to him and talked to him every day months passed I gave birth to a son.i name him Sagar. after some days doctor said he came out of coma I was happy so I went to hospital running after I saw him I started crying but he said who I was.he didn't knew who I was I couldn't say anything when I asked doctor about his condition he said his memory is loss due to the accident.i courageously went to him and said I was his girlfriend but he said he never had an girlfriend I was sad an went away there after few years my son was sick so I took him to the hospital but I saw the doctor was Subash I couldn't hold back my tears.he asked why I was crying so I replied my son is sick that's the reason I am crying he said don't worry he will be fine.at that time while I was going to the counter I accidentally fall Subash saw and wanted to help me get up but he got a headache suddenly so he left.l stayed with my son in the hospital. next day when he arrived at hospital he asked me how my son was I replied he's good. that's good he replied.i smiled at him and went out from there being sad. in the afternoon when he was going to check my son I silp on the floor and he caught me but sudden he had and headache and he said I he wanted to go out for some time he said oh I know you I was shocked I thought he remember it but He said I am sorry I think I am having some trouble so please give me a leave to for today he said that to his supervisor and ask for a leave. for some time I thought he remember me I was very happy but was sad too I don't know what was the problem what he can't remember me why it because of that accident or he didn't wanted to remember me. I said this myself and went out from their being sad. I was thinking of the incident of yesterday but suddenly Subash came and hug me I couldn't believe it was happening he said to me susmita I remember you please don't be mad about that to me I couldn't say anything and hug him back I was thinking if it was happening in real I asked him if it was real or not what he said of course it's all real after hearing that I criedreally hard hugging him. he asked whose child was that I couldn't say anything and left from there I wanted to say that it was his but I couldn't say because he just have his memory recovery so I didn't wanted him to take pressure. I went to the counter and ask for the medical fees it was 12000 I paid and left from there with my son I couldn't imagine you he was following me when my child as asked we he was I couldn't say anything and said he is a doctor from the hospital where you were admitted he is looking if we are safe or not so don't mind him and let's go straight I wanted to say he was his father what I couldn't say.