I cancel the client I had scheduled for Monday and give myself the day off. I don’t have anyone but Ryan lined up for Tuesday, and I’m hesitant to schedule anyone after him. I need the money, I do, but I just can’t rouse my enthusiasm for anyone else.
The moment I realize this, I know it’s a bad thing. I’m not falling for him. I don’t like guys. Quickly I fill my calendar for the rest of the week, sometimes booking two appointments in one day. I’ll have to avoid m**********g in the shower to ensure I can accommodate them all, because while I know the guys just use me to get off, they really do like it when I come, too. It makes them feel manly, I guess. Underscores their ability in the bedroom. Something about getting a straight guy off makes them feel…I don’t know, more gay, maybe.
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