Loving Jaxon (bxb) (completed)

Chapter3. Jaxon and Sebastian

(Jaxon)

Even though this room I was in was super comfortable, I couldn’t help but feel a bit depressed over what happened. The need to cut outweighed everything else and it has left me with panic attacks. I got my memory back shortly after leaving the hospital, it's a good thing too or I would be so lost and alone. Sebastian was trying his best to help me, even Danny but nothing was working.

“ l-leave me alone! I-I w-want t-to d-die!” I shouted as Danny and Sebastian tried pinning me down on the bed. I was trashing and making it more difficult for them to get me under control.

“ Jax you fool shut up and stop acting like this now!” Danny shouted but it only angered me more.

“ n-no i-if y-you j-just d-do w-what I a-ask t-then I w-wouldn’t b-be a b-burden a-anymore!” I stuttered out which had Sebastian sighing.

“ we only want to help you get better jaxon, you have us now to take care of you please stop struggling and let us help you.” I calmed down and looked at Sebastian’s face which was filled with worry. I nodded my head and they release me, thinking that I wasn’t going to freak out again.

“ now let me get back to what I was saying before all of this. My dad hired a pt and she will be here by tomorrow to help you with your legs. She kept on insisting that you will be up and running in no time, which I am choosing to believe her. You don’t have a say in this jaxon just accept our help so you can move on with your life.” I started fiddling with my fingers, not looking at them as I tried to think of an answer.

“ o-ok.” That had Sebastian smiling and gesturing for Danny to follow him ourside now that I’m alone, I could get this opportunity to think. Even though my dad did this to me I can’t help but feel sorry for him. He doesn’t deserve to be put in this situation and it’s all because of me. I even tried talking slower before but it was not working at all. My dad used to love me, even when I had my speech problem he would tell me that everything would be alright and that he would never leave me but the moment I came out as gay that was the dealbreaker of it all.

He started acting as if I didn’t exist even Went as far as saying he wished I was as perfect as Danny. My heart broke when he said that and I shook my head because that day when he uttered those words I knew deep down inside that things were about to change. The door opens and Sebastian walks back inside carrying a tray with a bowl of delicious smelling soup on it. He sets it down and came up to me.

“ this is the part where it might get super awkward but trust me there’s nothing you can do to change my mind. You are mine to take care of, mine to love and mine to be with jaxon no one is ever going to hurt you if you accept me. So will you let me be the one to take all of your problems away?” I closed my eyes as I thought about what he just said. Do I accept his offer to help me? This is so strange. I couldn’t stop the pull I felt whenever he’s around me, the way my body trembled as he touched me.

I sighed and open my eyes and gave him a slight nod. Maybe I was playing with fire, but right now I didn’t care as long as I had someone to take care of me until my last days here on earth when I finally gather enough courage to buy that gun I need and end my life once and for all.

Sebastian smiled and jumped on the bed beside me as he pulled me towards him for a hug. I chuckled at his childish behave and returned his hug which felt nice. It’s been awhile since I’ve been hugged like this, comforted by someone else so it was kinda strange to me.

“ good thank you for this you won’t regret it I promise you. Now I brought this soup for you to drink that my butler prepared so let’s get you comfortable so I can feed it to you.” I blushed and shook my head getting ready to reject his offer but one look from him had me closing my mouth and biting my tongue.

“ now that’s better.” After he was done feeding me, I felt sleepy so he left me to get some rest. My mind was still a mess and I really don’t know if I’ll get better since I’m still contemplating taking my life. If I didn’t exist my family wouldn’t be broken right now and it was all my fault once again, I have managed to make a mess of things.

I woke up and saw that it was dark outside so I stretched my hands out and yawned a bit.

“ if that isn’t the cutest thing I’ve ever seen so far I don’t know what is.” Sebastian said and I shrieked because he scared me.

“ S-Sebastian d-don’t d-do t-that a-again!” He laughed and sat down beside me on the bed.

“ I just couldn’t help it you’re my boyfriend now aren’t you not? So of course I have to complement you.” If this boy didn’t shut his mouth I would shut it for him because he was making my heart flutter and it wasn’t a good feeling.

“ ok enough of that? Would you like to take a bath now that you’re up or go back to sleep which one? I don’t care about either to be exact. I brought a bunch of snacks up here and I really wanted to watch a movie with you.” I smiled and nodded my head with the last part.

“ I-I d-don’t s-smell a-and I’m n-not t-tired a-anymore s-so m-moves i-it i-Is.” Sebastian gave me a kiss on my cheek and took up the remote then dump a bunch of snacks on the bed with my favorite juice of all apple juice.

(Sebastian)

I couldn’t wait for my baby to wake up so I could spend some time with him ugh why did he have to sleep so often? Well that was stupid coming from me seeing as he just came out of a traumatic situation but still! I wanted his beautiful blue eyes on me, not closed so I can’t see them. They are so gorgeous, a deep blue so bright I could get lost in them with just a hint of black. His eyes were so unique that I couldn’t stop myself from feeling proud that I’m the one who gets him, the one who gets to make him happy and stare into those beautiful eyes of his.

After we finished watching The Godfather which seems to be a movie jaxon really enjoyed, I decided to move on to other matters like getting to know him.

“ so up for playing twenty one questions?” I asked and he giggled and nodded his head that was leaning against me at the moment, So I started out with an easy one.

“ what’s your favorite color?” He sighed and took out some chips out of the bag I held out to him.

“ g-green.” He answered but didn’t elaborate on why he loved it so I left it alone.

“ mine is blue, now it’s your turn to ask me something.” He nodded his head and sighed.

“ w-when i-is y-your b-birthday?” He asked and I smiled, another easy question.

“ May twelve, 1992 yours?” He chuckled and shook his head.

“ t-thats n-not h-how y-you p-play t-the g-game s-seb.” I blushed when I realized that he called me seb! Not only does my family and friends call me seb but now my boyfriend was calling me that name.....ok calm down geez.

“ I know but it will get better I promise.” I took out a chip and fed it to him and shivered as his tongue made contact with my finger.

“ o-ok i-it’s A-August t-ten, s-same y-year a-as y-you.” Yeah it would have to be since we are both sixteen year olds. We went on to asking each other questions after questions and getting to know each other little by little.

“ ok so for the final question, if you could change one thing in your life what would it be?” He took a moment to answer and i could tell he was struggling with something.

“ I w-would p-prefer n-not t-to b-be b-born.” My heart picked up speed when I heard his answer and I saw red. How could he say something like that? Wasn’t I enough for him?

“ don’t say that ever again jaxon you hear me!? You were put on this earth for a purpose, Everyone was out on this earth for a reason but it’s up to you to find that reason. Whenever you feel down, tell yourself that you’ll be ok that someone is here to make sure you’re ok.” I didn’t realize I was crying until I felt jaxon’s finger wiping away the tears.

“ I-I’m s-sorry s-seb, b-but I-Its h-how i-its g-going t-to t-turn o-out. I d-don’t b-belong o-on t-this e-earth a-anymore.” I couldn’t stay here and listen to him anymore so I told him I would be back and went for a walk to clear my head. His parents are so f****d up in the head, why the hell would they look at someone as beautiful as Jaxon and do those dreadful things to him? I was trying to make him happy but how could I accomplish that when it’s been one day since he moved here and one day since he agreed to be mine. I sighed and decided to turn back around since I’ve been walking for more than fifteen minutes now. When I arrived home I went straight to jaxon so I could be with him and comfort him. when I opened the door I saw him crying on the bed and I ran up to him.

“ oh my jaxon, mine and only mine. I promise to take care of you all the time and I’m sorry for leaving you just now I just don’t like it when you talk about yourself like that.” He sobbed against my chest and after a while of holding him, I realized that he fell asleep so I got him comfortable in bed and then proceeded to take up the remaining snacks. I got in bed beside him and looked at him while playing with his beautiful hair. He looks so peaceful right now, so fragile that I wanted nothing more than to hide him away from this world and keep him safe till eternity. I know, I sound like a sappy i***t right now but that’s just what jaxon brought out in me and I can’t help it. I kissed him on his forehead and got comfortable beside him then fell asleep right away with lots on my mind.