Loving Jaxon (bxb) (completed)

Chapter4. Jaxon and Sebastian

(Jaxon)

“ why don’t we try one last time?” Lara my physical therapist said and I shook my head, indicating that I wanted to stop.

“ come on jaxon it’s better to keep pushing yourself harder in order to walk again. This procedure can take up to six months or more give or take if you continue to delay it.” I sighed getting frustrated with her mere presence.

“ I-I’m t-tired a-and n-need s-some r-rest.” I replied stubbornly and she sighed and got up off the floor.

“ ok let me help you to get to bed then I’ll leave.” After she got me settled in bed, she told me she would be back tomorrow and walked out, closing the door behind her. This was the part I hated the most, having to rely on others for help. I can’t stand feeling dependent on others and wish I could just get away from it all.

“ I-I w-wish I w-was n-never b-born.” I whispered to myself as I started sobbing. My parents hated me, my own parents. At least my brother didn’t hate me, I sighed as I thought about all those times he used to ignore me making me feel useless. I didn’t have anyone to turn to and I was so scared that I would never have anyone to love me again but then Sebastian came along and is trying to help me but why do I feel so down? Why do I feel like the world is about to cave in on me? My head started spinning from my thoughts alone and I fell asleep right away.

The next day, I was rudely awaken by Danny who came to tell me that Lara was on her way here and I needed a bath. Since I couldn’t stand to take a shower, either Danny or Sebastian would start a bath for me which always ends up with me feeling much better. After a while of splashing around in the bath like a child, Sebastian came in to help me get ready for my pt session. He made sure I had something to eat first and promised me that he would take me outside once Lara leaves which made me feel much happier because I missed the outdoors. Couple minutes later she arrived and my entire persona changed towards her, I should stop hating her so much but what can I do when she was one of those persons who was constantly giving me hopes?

“ hi jaxon how are you today?” She asked and I glanced at the clock to see it was eight thirty on a Saturday.

“ y-you’re t-too e-early.” I hissed and she held her hands up playfully and chuckled. Her dimpled smile making me feel a little better within myself. What the hell was wrong with me? My emotions were all over the place and quite Frankly I’ve had enough of myself lately I’m even starting to annoy myself with my new found attitude.

“ ok we are going to start off with some stretches, come on little Jaxon let me help you off the bed and on this mat.” Once I got on a comfortable position on the mat, we started stretching which was doing wonders to my legs. She even gave me a massage which had me falling asleep because it felt so good and that’s how a pissed off sebastian found us.

“ Lara could you excuse us for a minute?” Lara smiled and nodded her head, then told me that she would be back.

“ so she can give you massages and not me?” He asked and I raised an eyebrow at him because I was confused.

“ o-of c-course y-you c-can g-give m-me m-massages s-seb.” He shook his head and sat down beside me.

“ I told you before I don’t want anyone touching what’s mine. She should be helping you get back on your feet, not giving you a bodily massage which you seem to enjoy a lot.” I sighed and lie down on the floor then covered my eyes with my hand.

“ I d-don’t k-know i-if I l-like y-you t-this w-way.” I said and he grunted and pulled my hand away from my face.

“ and I told you not to hide those eyes from me. Stick to excercise only and if you are badly in need of a massage, I’ll gladly give it to you.” He walked out and Lara returned with a playful smile on her face.

“ he got jealous right? That was so funny. But he should know that massages helps in your case as well so there’s no need to get jealous I’m only doing my job.” Sebastian came back and was determine to help with my exercises and it was clear that he was still mad at what took place earlier. I don’t care though, since I was good at ignoring people so that’s what I ended up doing.

Lara taught me some single leg squats which was difficult at first because it took a lot of energy out of me. Then we went on to me lying down with my knees bent under a huge ball between them which was a bit comfortable. We did a lot of different exercises and right now I was tired as hell.

“ ok so for our last session of the day, I want you to try and see if you can stand up with our help.” I nodded my head and Sebastian wipes away the sweat that was coating my forehead. Danny had just joined us so now I have three people annoying me. They each held on to me as firmly as they could, then pulled me up off the floor. I lost balance at first but then Danny caught me and made sure I was ok.

“ ok with our help we will be helping you to move your feet little by little. I know it will be difficult at first but this is what you need to in order to get you better.” I nodded my head and with their help, I started walking but not on my own, How I wish I was walking on my own again.

Three months later

( Sebastian)

We took turns helping Jaxon and I could see he was trying for his sake. I could feel a sense of determination coming from him as Lara came to help him weeks after weeks. It’s now three months in and his pt session as been going great so far. He is even walking on his own but only a few steps and then he would fell on the ground. At least it’s happening, at least he got the help that he needed and that will go a long way.

“ what are you thinking about?” I asked as I wheeled him through the town. I decided to take him out for some fresh air since he has been cooped up in the house for so long.

“ I-I’m j-just t-thinking a-about m-my d-dad.” He replied and I sighed. He has been talking a about his parents quite often and even Danny tried getting his mind off them but it seems as if it wasn’t working.

“ why do you keep on thinking about the people who got you this way in the first place?” I almost yelled at him but I had to fight myself to tone it down a bit.

“ t-they a-are s-still m-my p-parents a-and I f-forgave t-them a l-long t-time a-ago.” He whispered and I felt my heart broke for him. He loved his parents so much that he was willing to overlook what happened so he could be with them.

“ they have somehow brainwashed you why you are like this. No one would ever talk this way if it’s not for that reason.” I mumbled out as I came to a halt at a park bench. We were now at the park since it’s a nice sunny day. It’s Sunday and most families are here so I could see why jaxon was thinking about his family.

“ I-I s-still w-want t-to k-kill m-myself t-though.” He said out of no where and my heart started beating fast. It’s like he didn’t realize what he said because his eyes went wide for a second before he looked away from me.

“ what the hell jax? I thought you got over that already. You aren’t going to do such thing and to make sure you don’t I’m assigning you to a counselor so you can talk about your problem. It’s full time you let me take care of you and starting now, I will make sure you are ok one way or another.”

Back at home I was talking to my parents about what jaxon said and kept on saying and they were shocked. They never knew he was suicidal and I only found out when we were playing twenty questions.

“ so many bad things is happening to Jax, that poor boy. Now he has to resort to Pt’s and counselors to fix him.” I shook my head and sighed.

“ he’s not broken mom, he just needs a lot of support right now. I mean his parents did that to him with no remorse at all so what else were they doing to him to cause him to want to commit suicide?” Mom sighed and looked down at her hands while dad got up and said he was going to go and get something strong to drink.

“ we need to move him away from here soon, there’s too much bad memories here for him to stay.” Mom said with tears in her eyes and I could see how much all of this was affecting her. Dad soon returned with a glass filled with vodka and something else, then sat down beside us on the couch.

“ I’m going to call Hannah and see if she could do an at home session with him. I’ll pay for it of course so you don’t need to worry about anything else apart from making sure that boy is ok. Remember money is not an issue, just say the word and your wish will be granted.” I nodded my head and thanked them then left the living room and decided to go check on Jaxon. He was fast asleep in bed and I sat down beside him and started playing with his beautiful brown hair.

“ what would I do without you in my life? You don’t know how much you mean to me. I’m going to make sure you are ok and well taken care of and no one is going to get in the way again. I’ll spoil you and make you so happy you’ll forget about that suicidal thoughts of yours. Mark my words jaxon, from now on you’ll be the happiest person on earth ill make sure of it.” I said and I leaned down and kissed him on his forehead. I need to pay a visit to his mom, I’m planning on asking her a lot of questions and so help me god if I don’t like any of them I’ll make her a living hell. I’ll even visit his dad in jail because I need answers. No parents would ever treat their child the way they treated jaxon without a solid reason. And even if there was a reason, it shouldn’t be taken into consideration at all. I’m going to be there for him, let him see the light at the end of the tunnel. Let him know that he doesn’t have to live his life in sadness anymore, that I was going to be there for him whether he likes it or not.