I never loved you.
1602 Words
Ximena’ POV
Standing for a long time was not what I thought I would be doing; it was one of the most things I hated about this job. It’s been three weeks since I started working here and I have never seen the man who had given me that ride my first day here. I hoped that one day I would meet him again and say thank you for being a lifesaver that day
I made my way out of the hotel walking to the station to get on a bus going home, I stood by the station hoping I would catch the last bus but guess was unlucky tonight as I waited> I held on to the handle of my tote bag feeling the cool breeze hit my soft skin as I looked around for a cab while still at the station when a grey Mercedes Benz pulled over. I stepped back as I focused looking around, the window rolled downed and the voice of the man came calling me
“Late again?” He asked me and I bent down to look at who it was talking to me, I looked in the car and it was the man from three weeks ago.
“Hello?” He cheerfully greeted me smiling at me, he had dark short hair, brushed back, and his face well shaven.
“You are the gentleman from before?’’ I said smiling at him and he nodded his head
“Want a ride?” He asked me leaning over to talk to me
“Well am okay…. I will wait for a bus” I replied to him looking to where I was expecting the bus to come from
“Oh, come on! The bus is not coming, the last bus passed over 30 minutes ago” he said insisting that I go with him, I sighed heavily looking out.
“Please I insist,” he said to me and I exhaled heavily before I opened the door to the car getting in the car before I buckled up
“Thanks a lot!” I said to him and he nodded his head as he drove, “Where’s home?” he asked me and I gave him the address to where I was staying
“You never told me your name last time we met,” I said to him as he focused on driving
“Rowan! But you can call me Owan” He said,
“Nice to meet you Owan and Thank you so much for the ride,” I said to him
“Ximena Wait!” he said as he stopped me from stepping out of the car
“Can I see you again?” He nervously asked me and I nodded my head with a smile on my face
“I am off this weekend?” I said to him and he smiled
“That’s great, I can pick you up Saturday afternoon?” He asked me waiting for my response
“Of course, we can meet Saturday,” I said to him and he smiled widely, “Can I have your number?” he asked me, I got his phone and typed it on his screen saving my number as Mena
“Thanks a lot! I will send you a text just now” He said to me “Have a good night” I said to him as I finally got out of the car
“Have a goodnight Ximena” he replied as I made my way to the house.
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Present Day
I didn’t know how I slept but I woke up later in the afternoon. I still wanted to cry more but aunt Lizzie was not one to let me. I dragged myself out of bed, checked my phone hoping that maybe Rowan had called but he didn’t. I stepped out going to the living room and found Jacinta with Aunt sitting talking about something. As soon as she saw me, she flinched standing up coming towards me.
“Oh, baby! I heard what happened” she said pulling me in an embrace, I put my head on her shoulder as I tried to stay strong.
“Am so sorry” she whispered in my ears; I nodded my head before breaking the hug.
“What are you doing here? I thought you were doing another shift to cover other fees” I said going to get some water from the fridge
“Well, auntie called to let me know so I decided to come” she explained coming where I was standing.
“You shouldn’t have… That money was important, you need to make as much as you can” I explained to her going to sit on the couch.
“Obviously not as important as my best friend needing me.” She said coming to sit next to me.
“Mena, you’re my sister and you matter more than those bucks. So why don’t you tell me what happened? She said sitting next to me
“Well turns out he is another Gregory,” I said trying to fight back my tears as I played with my fingers, Gregory was her ex-boyfriend whom she caught having s*x with someone else
“Wow!” was all she said sitting back and focused on the wall in front of us
“I really thought he was the one,” I said before I sniffed wiping my tears.
“Well, his not. And that’s his loss not knowing what his lost” she said holding my hand as I whimpered silently. Jacinta and I grow up together, I met her two weeks after I was dumped by mother from there onwards we became friends, we wanted the same things in life. I wanted to be a neurosurgeon and her a dermatologist
“I need to talk to him, At least just let him tell me what I did wrong,” I said standing up from the couch and Jacinta held me back
“Mena! It won’t help in any way; it will just hurt you more” she said trying to stop me but all I was looking for were answers.
“I just need to know what went wrong; I need….” I said before breaking down in tears and she pulled me close to her
“Shush! You will be fine!” She said holding me tight in her arms, “I will accompany you but not like this” She said as I nodded my head.
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I stood at Rowan’s car as I saw him coming towards me, I had asked Jacinta to stand at a distance as I needed to handle everything myself.
“Ximena what are you doing here?” he asked me as he approached me, his left hand in his trousers pocket and his right hand he had his car keys.
“Why?” I said trying to stay strong.
“Be more specific?” he said looking at me, as I blinked back my tears as I scoffed
“Rowan!” I called his name my voice breaking.
“What is it Ximena? Did you really think I would love you? Come on look at yourself? It was fun that I won’t deny it” He said as he looked at me from my head to toes
“I think it’s time for me to move on.” He said walking away to his car, “Owan this is not you; we were fine this morning. You even wanted…/” I said trying to hold his hand but before I could touch him, he moved it
“Listen here! I wanted you to see what you saw right there! And am glad that you did, because that woman is the one, I know. You are here embarrassing me so typical of you Latinos” He said to me as he walked up to me
“I enjoyed the s*x, now get out of my sight! Don’t ever show your face to me, my family was right about dating out of my race, it just gets boring” He said to me as tears fell from my eyes.
“You jerk!” Jacinta yelled at him as I stood there failing to understand what was going on with us
“Come on baby!” She said coming to hold her
“You are an asshole and sure as hell don’t deserve someone like her, one day you will miss her and she won’t be there then you will realize that you were an asshole. Mark my words” Jacinta said to him as she helped me walk away.
I sat at the back of the cab wondering what was happening to us, I needed to forget everything/ But how was I going to do that?
“Can you take me to any club?” I asked Jacinta who looked at me surprised by my sudden change of behavior
“Ximena! You are not thinking straight. Why don’t we go home and rest then? /….” She wanted to change my mind but I was focused on just going to have a drink and dance myself to sleep
“Then what Jacey? Sleeping won't help. Let me just have a beer or two then we can go home” I said to her and she nodded her head agreeing that she would let me
“But I am not letting you out of my sight!” She warned and I closed my eyes looking away from her, if only I had taken a different path to forget about what just happened with Rowan, I wouldn’t have any regrets. But I made a choice that I need to live with for the rest of my life.
I entered the club and walked p to the counter as I made myself comfortable, Jacinta sat next to me without saying anything. "Two beers please," I said to the bartender who turned and got me my drinks
"Enjoy!" He said leaving us after he opened he poured in my glass, I got my glass and started drinking its contents. I felt the cold bitter drink go down my throat as I gulped it down. I desperately wanted to forget about Rowan and alcohol was the only way.
"Hey take it easy," Jacinta said as I finished grabbing the other glass from her as she looked at me pitifully.
"Another one!" I said after emptying the second glass,
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