Tears of Vengeance

The Truth And His Aching Heart

The next day,I woke up with a terrible pain in my stomach.A broken hand and a hurting abdomen.Just great!

I opened my eyes and pressed my hands on my lower abdomen.It was so painful.When I was about to get up,I realized that there was something wet and sticky between my legs.Not today please!

I have begun to menstruate.My menstruations were very irregular and very painful.

I went to the bathroom and cleaned myself.

I need to change the sheets.I didn't know where the sheets are or where the laundry room is.

I slowly walked outside my room and luckily there was a maid passing by my room."Hey." I called her.

"Yes, miss?" She asked as she came towards me.

"Can you change my bedsheets,I-um-" I was hesitant.

"Yes,miss.Please wait a second.I will bring the sheets." She said as she walked away.I sat on the ground and pressed my abdomen.It was so painful.

The maid arrived and changed the sheets."Miss,do you need anything else?" She asked before leaving.

"I have some stained clothes in the bathroom.Can you wash them too?" I asked.

"Of course,miss." She said and went to my bathroom.She took the clothes and left the room.I hopped onto the bed and laid on my side.It was really very painful.I had no appetite to eat.

An hour later.A maid came and asked,"Miss,do you want to have breakfast?"

"No,thank you." I replied like a dead person.

"Master Vernon wants you to eat." She said again.

"Please,go and let me rest." I said.She quickly apologized and left.I heard he left for work due to some emergency.I hope he never returns.

I slept the whole day.The environment was cold and silent.My door was slightly open so I could see who walks by my room.The pale orange lamp was on.I kept the light very dark.

It was almost 10 pm.

My eyes were filled with tears.My heavy eye lids were falling.I had a fever and my whole body was burning.

I closed my eyes and hoped that I could fall asleep again but something made me open my eyes.I heard voices from outside the room.

"Did she have her breakfast?" Luke asked someone.

"No,she said she doesn't want to eat." A maid replied.

"Why didn't you inform me? Goddamn it!" His dominant voice was very dangerous.I could feel his anger just by hearing his voice.

"What about the rest of the meals?" He asked angrily.

"She was sleeping and she requested to not be disturbed." She replied with fear.

"Useless!I will deal with you later!" He said arrogantly.

I frowned as I saw him through the slight gap between the door and the wall.

The orange lamp shone on him.He looked brilliant in the dull light.He was wearing a white shirt and the first two buttons were undone.

"Lucia?" He called me slowly,in fear of waking me up.His voice was so gentle and soothing.Nothing like the way he was talking with the maid.His plain forehead turned into a frown as he saw me.I could see the concern on his face.

"Lucia..." He called out very slowly.I could barely hear his gravelly voice.He gently stroke my hair with his warm hands.I looked at him with a frown.He leaned a bit towards me,"What happened,Lucia?" He asked with hint of buried concern in his tone.

"Nothing.I am just menstruating." I replied very slowly.

"Why didn't you tell someone?" He asked in a light manner.His voice changed in a second.Just like Alex's voice.

"Is it painful?" He asked as he touched my abdomen.His warm palms eased the pain.I nodded as tears fell down.He gently wiped my tears and pulled me to sit up.

"You have to eat and take medicines,okay?" He said.I looked down and said nothing.

"Do you want something else?" He asked as he put his hand on my cheek.I shook my head.He leaned closer and placed a small kiss on my cheek.The feeling of his lips on my cheek was fervent and hot blooded.It was mixed with a feeling of voluptuousness.

For the first time,his affection felt comforting and compassionate.

I laid down and hugged the soft pillow beside me.A while later,I felt someone entering the room.I opened my eyes and saw Luke entering the room with a huge tray.

He placed the tray on my bed,"Get up,Lucia.You have to eat." He said.I was about to get up with the help of my left hand which I forgot was broken.I pressurized the hand on the bed to get up but lost balance due to the pain of the broken fingers.Luke caught me immediately so I won't fall."Thank you." I said as I moved the duvet and drank the cup of warm soup.Luke moved the duvet off my body and placed a heating pad over my lower abdomen.I rested my back on the headboard.Luke just sat in front of me and studied every action of mine.

I placed the mug on the tray."Take these." Luke said as he opened a few medicines and handed me.I took the medicine with a mouthful of water.Luke went outside and handed the tray to a maid.

I could feel the fever wearing off and my abdominal pain was decreasing.

I laid down and pulled the duvet over my heating body.He came back to the room and sat beside me.He turned off the lights."Go to sleep." He whispered like a dream.He gently stroke his long,warm fingers through my head and massaged my aching head.I placed my hand on his leg and fell asleep.

-

Luke wasn't beside me.He left early.I sighed in relief.It was just 10 am.I slowly got up and freshed up.I got out of my room to have breakfast.I walked towards the stairs as something caught my attention.I looked front and saw Luke coming out of his room.He looked handsome and really attractive.No woman could refuse his charms.As I said the first time I saw him,there was something in him which I could not understand.Something which attracted me.Some sort of magnetic force.I was vulnerable in front of him.He looked devilishly handsome in his black suit.His silky,black hair was more hypnotizing.I quickly looked away and tried to ignore him and walked downstairs.He caught me from behind and asked,"How are you feeling today?"

''Just fine." I replied and took a deep breath out of nervousness.He let go of me and I walked towards the table.

He sat beside me.I rolled my eyes and buried the urge to slap him.

"I am going to work.You need to eat properly.All the meals.Okay?" He asked.I nodded.He touched my forehead and said,"You still have fever." He got up and brought a paracetamol."Take it after finishing your breakfast." He said.

"Yes..." I said slowly.

"Is there anything else I can do?" He asked.

"No,thank you.You've done enough." I replied.He already did enough by destroying my life.Nothing will make it up for that.

"How is the hand?" He asked.

"Slightly painful." I replied.

"It's going to be fine soon." He said and stood up,"I will leave now." He said and kissed my wounded hand before leaving.

It was very touching.When he kissed my hand, something rose in me and I got emotional.

Then,his absence made me feel a bit disappointed.

This was forbidden.Love was not allowed between us.He is my greatest enemy.The only reason I am staying here is to avenge Alex,the man I loved.

-

I stayed inside the room,the whole day.I played some video games but I was bored.It was 7 pm.Extremely dark outside.The rain started to pour heavily but Luke didn't arrive yet.It made me slightly concerned but I tried to suppress whatever I was feeling.

I looked outside the window.The rain was heavy,really heavy.I looked out to see whether Luke arrived or not.

"What are you doing?" The voice startled me.I turned around immediately.I always forget to close my door.

"Just watching the rain..." I trailed off and looked outside again.I couldn't let him understand what I was feeling because it's not right.It's forbidden.Love is forbidden between us.The only thing which was allowed is hatred.

He didn't take his eyes off of me.His somber gaze was alluring, hypnotizing and tempting.He sat beside me and watched the rain crashed into the cold ground.The thunder roared loudly as the lightning bolt flashed across the sky.

"Do you like rain?" He asked slowly.His voice felt so indistinct and vague.Every word he spoke, electrocuted me like the lightning.The electricity went out.Every place around us turned dark,pitch black.I looked at him and his eyes met mine.

I looked into his gloomy,deep eyes.It felt like there was a boundless ocean of agony within his beautiful eyes.He never lets anyone understand it.He never lets anyone understand his desires and needs.When I looked into his eyes,I didn't see my enemy.What I saw was a lonely man who carried a heavy rock in his heart.No one to care for him,no one to love him.His eyes were enticing and irresistible.His thick eye lashes hit his lower eye lids every time he blinked.He was disguised with wealth,power and establishment.Everyone saw how happy he was but no one ever realised that how lonely and tired he was.

I broke off the eye contact as soon as the electricity came back.I didn't look at him but I realised that he was smiling because he knew that he succeeded.

"Come down for dinner." He said and left the room.

As soon as he left the room,the environment became cold and lonely.I shook off the feeling and walked downstairs.

I sat on the chair in front of him.For some unknown reason,my heart started to beat faster as I saw him.Everything made it more difficult for me to breathe.I was feeling nervous and trepidatious.It was just the table which separated us like a million miles.I chewed onto the food slowly.It was going down my throat.I took a deep breath and drank a mouthful of water.It was obvious that he knew what was going on with me.

After we were done having dinner.The electricity went out again.Every where was darkness.Luke sat on the couch and closed his eyes.

"Kelly!" He called a maid."Bring me some coffee." He ordered.He turned to me and asked,"Do you want some coffee?" I nodded and sat beside him.

"An espresso for her." He said to the maid.

"How do you know what I drink?" I asked out of curiousity.

"I know you more than you know yourself." He said as he closed his eyes and leaned on the couch.

"What's up with the electricity?" I asked.

"There is some problems in the generator so the electricity won't come tonight." He said with his eyes closed.

"You don't look like a Russian or your accent doesn't say much about you." I said,trying to make small talk with him.

"I am American." He said with his eyes focused on the black coffee.I choked on my coffee and coughed.

He said he is American.

I was dumbfounded.I wanted to ask him why but no words came out of my mouth.

"Then why do you work with the Russians?" I finally said it.

''My father used to work in the U.S Military.When I was 18,there was a war between the Russians and us.My father was an undercover so he used to pass the informations to us.When the previous Russian General learned that he is an undercover,he ordered to bring my father in one piece so he could punish him personally..." He continued as I placed my hand below my chin.

"When he returned back to our headquarter,General Walker denied to keep him under any special protection.He was taken by the Russian General.At first,he was given a death sentence but then they made a deal.It was to give the information of the U.S Military to the Russians.At first,my father disagreed because he was not a betrayer but the general threatened to kill our family.When he was left with no choice,he finally gave up and agreed.That's why Walker got angry and sent an entire troop to kill our family.My mother was staying somewhere else so they failed to find her.Your little friends killed my sister as my father was under the protection of the Russians,they couldn't do anything to him." He said and took a sip of the coffee.I could feel his sadness.His mother was all he had left and she also left him a few days ago.He never told anyone about his agony.

This is why he killed Alex.Whatever the reason was,he shouldn't have killed him.Whatever he did,he was still the man I loved.He was still the man I would've married but now he's gone.

I took a sip of the espresso.It burned my heart.I could hear the clouds roaring,just like Luke's heart.

I placed my hand on his hand,"You didn't deserve what happened to you." I whispered.He looked at me.His face had no expressions but I could understand the hidden feelings behind them.

He leaned towards me and removed some hair from my face.He touched my cheeks and pulled me into a hug.

Even in this cold environment,his embrace made me feel warm.Even though he was my enemy,I had this unknown emotion towards him.He embraced me for a long time.I understand,I completely understand that he needed to get out whatever was inside him but I will definitely avenge my Alex.

All of a sudden,he let go of me."Go to sleep now." He said and smiled.I nodded and headed back to sleep.

I laid down and covered my body with the duvet.I closed my eyes and I almost fell asleep.I felt a presence in my room.I did not dare to open my eyes.He whispered something in my ear,"Ты только мой" His hot breath ran through my neck and I shivered as he kissed my cheek.

I did not understand what he said but it was something in Russian.

[Translation:You are only mine.]