Just Pretend

chapter 6

Nicolas...

"So, how long will they be crying for?" I asked Alexander as we both watched the sister's hug it out.

He raised his shoulders up and pulled out a cigar. "I seriously don't know man, let them have their moment. They sure as hell need it, " Alexander said as he stared at them.

Who would have known that Sam and Bethenny would be sister's? I think fate is playing it's part, I was still shocked that Sam was Bank's daughter, how?

Why didn't she go to him and demanded her rights? Didn't her mother tell her that it was her that help Bank's in building his empire? She had every right to go ask for her mother's share, s**t, if it wasn't for her grandfather's money. Bank's would have never been this rich, the a**hole scammed his own wife, cheated on her, then left her to struggle with three girls to raise on her own.

I was getting irritated. I went over and stay down next to Sam, "Why?" I asked curiously.

She looked at me as all three sister's were circled around her in a bear hug. "Please Nicolas, not now. I'll tell you everything you need to know later, I promise, " she whispered softly as Bethenny laid her head on Sam's shoulder.

Amanda was hugging Bethenny while Abby was hugging Sam, rubbing my face harshly, I stood up.

I wanted to hurt Bank's, how could he do this to them? "Maybe we should go back & rest at the hotel, you girls can spend more time there and talk if you want, " I said as I held out my hand for Sam to hold.

God I was falling into deep with her.

She took my hand and I pulled her up, the rest of the sister's walked hand in hand while Sam held onto mine.

"You feeling better?" I questioned, she laid her head on my arm.

"Yea, just tired and sleepy, " she whispered softly.

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Making our way through the hotel lobby, I spotted father, but I didn't stop. I just kept walking, lost in Sam's sweet aroma.

We reached our room in no time, the girls followed right behind us as we entered the room.

Looking back at the girls, I spoke."You all can chat or sleep, whichever you girls want." Looking at Sam, I sighed. "You want anything?" I questioned her.

"No, where are you going to spend the night?" She asked as she walked over to me.

She looked exhausted and sad at the same time, her hair was a mess, but she still looked beautiful.

"My dad own the place, I'm sure I can find a room or I'll sleep in the girls room next door. Don't worry about me, please try to get some rest. Night beautiful, " I said before leaving.

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Samantha...

Ugh, my heart! Maybe it's a crush?

Keep it strict and don't fall for him, why is he like this? Couldn't he be a pain in the butt, but no, he had to be sweet, hot, sexy, Omg I'm drooling.

I didn't know how this will end, it's pretend Sam. Not like he will fall for you, I followed him out. "Nicolas?" I yelled as he unlocked the door to girls room

"Yea, "he replied.

I walked over to him and hugged him, I don't know why, but I needed to hug him. "Thank you for understanding, " I whispered as he pulled me in closer to him.

What are you doing Sam? This will only lead to your heart breaking in the end.

"You knew who he was and you knew he could have helped you, but you didn't ask. Why Sam, he's your dad." He stated.

His arm's wouldn't let go of my body.

I didn't know what hurts the most, being in his arms or thinking about my so-called dad. "I didn't wanted to be a charity case Nicolas, I really hate him for what he did to mom. How could I go and ask money from him? I know you'll say he's my dad and I have every right, but I don't. Mom left him for a reason, I would have disregarded mom's hard effort if I just went and asked him money as if I was a beggar. You can say my pride is above all, I will never ask a dime from him as long as I live, " I declared as I pulled back.

His arms were still around my waist that made me feel self conscious about myself. I wouldn't say I was "fat" nor was I "skinny".

These labels that this world created for us brainwashed our hearts and souls, I felt good about myself but somewhere in my mind there would be a voice saying that I could look better.

I hated myself sometimes for thinking what others see me as, the eye judges before anything and that was the hard truth. "Sam, what's wrong?" He asked, I looked up into his eye's.

Those dreamy eyes.

Smiling, I shook my thoughts away. "Nothing, just lost in what you think about me." I confessed.

"Well, I think you're strong and beautiful. How I wished I met you in different circumstances, would you have said yes in dating a man like me?" He questioned curiously.

Rolling my eyes to what he said, his hands squeezed a bit tighter on my waist. "I mean it Sam, let's say you didn't know who I really was and I approached you in my suit & tie. Would you have said yes?" He asked.

To be honest, no, I wouldn't have. I would have been intimidated by his good looks. See, I told you the eye judges before anything else.

"No Nicolas, I would have thought you were joking. I would turn you down in a heartbeat, " I stated firmly.

His hands loosened around my waist, "What I love about you is your honesty and those eye's of yours that always have a hint of doubt. Guess my plan it to take that doubt away for good, I'm glad Abby or was it Amanda hit my car that day. If it wasnt for them, I wouldn't have never gotten to know you, " he whispered while leaning against the wall.

"After all this is over, will you still be my friend Nicolas?" I questioned as I walked over to my room.

Looking over towards him, "Til the end Sam, " he whispered as I walked in with a smile on my face.

My heart raced as I walked over to Bethenny who was tucking in Abby and Amanda. "They have so many questions that they want answered." She said while brushing Abby's hair away from her face.

"I'll let them know, come here and sit. I want to get to know you."

She walked over with a smile, we stepped out onto the balcony, sitting on the bench swing.

She laid her head on my shoulder while crying, "Where did you guys disappeared? How? Dad searched for you until he gave up hope."

"He hurt my mom so bad Bethenny, you have no idea how much pain she went through. Being the oldest was hard, I knew who he was, where he lived, but I didn't want to see him." I whispered lowly as tears made their way to my eye's.

"Do you blame my mom for ruining your life?" She asked in fear.

I hugged her tightly, "God no, it wasn't her fault. It was dad's fault, he knew he was married, but still did what he did? Please erase that silly idea in your head. It was never your mother's, nor your fault, but his only. Mom knew he was cheating on her, she didn't know why. She thought it was her fault that he cheated, that she didn't give him what he wanted, but I figured it out as time went by, that it was his and only his fault for destroying our lives." I grip her hand tightly. "Please Bethenny, you have to promise me that you won't tell him about us, I really don't want him to know anything about me. If I did, then I would have knocked on his door. Promise me you won't, please." I begged as I held her.

She frowned, "But why? He really isn't bad Sam, he made a mistake. Please, just let him know you're ok." She stated as she pulled away.

I knew she was going to tell him so I just lied to her.

"I will tell him when I'm ready, but you have to promise me that you'll let me do it when I want to do so, ok!"

She smiled happily, "Ok, I promise, but you also have to promise me that you will eventually tell him when you feel that you're ready. But what if the twins want to see dad, then what? Would you let them?" She questioned while staring at me.

So many things were running through my mind, would I let the girls see dad if they wished too?

Hell no, I mean...ugh...

"Let's take one step at a time, I think they're still processing that fact that you're our sister." I stated with a giggle.

She laughed as she wiped her tears away, "He's not all bad, I mean, he did break my heart, but he's still dad Sam. Please don't make the girls hate him like you do."

Tears fell as she said that, "I don't hate him, I just hated what he did to mom that's all. You have no idea how much pain she went through, she struggled by herself. I witnessed every day how hurt she was, then she got sick and money was an issue for us. I would see him living the life as we went through hell. Every burden was on my shoulders as I watched her slip away from me, that pain still aches in me everyday." I whispered as I cried my heart out.

I miss mom so much, I needed to visit her when I got back.

Tears were never-ending as Bethenny watched, she pulled her body against mines and cried along with me.

"I'm sorry Sam", She whispered quietly.

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Nicolas....

"Where's Sam?" I questioned as the girls came down. Bethenny was holding on to the twins as she stood before me. "She didn't get enough sleep last night so I told her to sleep for a bit, but I know she won't. Maybe you should go check on her while I'll take the girls out with tats." She said as Alex came by and stood besides them.

I didn't know if I should let the girls go with them.

"Don't worry man, I'll take care of the girl's. You go and check on Sam, guess they stayed up all night crying." Alex whispered as he took in Bethenny's red, tried eye's.

"You girls will be ok?" I questioned the twins as they nodded their heads.

I left them and went up to see Sam, by the looks of Bethenny eye's. I knew Sam wouldn't be any better.

I walked into the room, the bed was empty. I looked over to the balcony and found her sitting there, staring at nothing. "Did you forget something? Bethenny?" She questioned as she? turned around.

My heart-felt a pang of pain as I took in her appearance, her eyes were so red.

She weakly smiled, "Morning, " she softly said as she stood up and walked into the room.

"You look tired, did you sleep?" I asked as she made her way over to the bed. "Long night you can say, I'll try to get some sleep now, " she whispered as she pulled the cover away.

"You're not going to sleep are you?" I questioned as she hid her face from me. She crawled up on the bed and pulled the covers on her, facing the other side so I couldn't see her tears.

Didn't know what I was doing until I was laying next to her on the other side. "You can leave Nicolas, I don't need you to be here. I can take care of myself." She angrily spoke.

Ignoring her, I laid there waiting for her to turn which she did after a couple of minutes. Her eye's held so much pain and sadness, "There's a line Nicolas and your crossing it, " she stated as she sat up.

I tugged her arm and pulled her back down, her head laid on my chest as I nuzzled my nose into her hair.

"Friends look out for each other Sam, so let me be a good friend, " I whispered.

I felt her tears on my shirt, I never was a fan of silence but this was good.

"Thank....you, " she choked out.

"Til the end Sam."

"Til the end Nicolas."

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