LOVES NOT IN HER DICTIONARY

SOLILOQUY

In as much as, I am pleased with the reconciliation between I and Togui. Sometimes I feel as if it was a mistake! I feel he is using it as an excuse to pry on my privacy! I am a grown assed man! that not withstanding, with offsprings, not forgetting a f*****g wife! for crying out loud. I need not report my s****l encounters not my partners to him?

To think that, I was elated it was him calling and believed it was the perfect timing? he snorts. Since I was contemplating getting in touch with him at that very moment for the meaning of my premonition. just for him to pull this stunt!.

I must say, I am disabled as to how that old man always makes means, to be a pain in my flesh! Haaaaaa! releasing an exasperated sigh. Did I make the right decision or am I kidding myself? But come to think about it, he did say something about my dream......right? 'he questions with a deep reminisce outlook. he scanned his previous interactions with the elder in the back drop of his brain.'

Yes! That old sneaky guy did really comment on my dream, That too without me contributing to his awareness. which does not surprise me one bit! 'he thought with a shrug of his right shoulder.' With reference to his prowess and all I have seen with these naked eyes of my own.' nodding' That is why am always in an ambivalent state, when he does and speak questionably. I trust him but sometimes I can't help but to think the other way! it is well.

And what at all in hell's name did he even throw up this time? meeeeeeeeeeeewwwtch! ' a lengthy slurp escaped his teeth with an extra roll angrily, as continued his soliloquy.' Why would I not have a tough time bringing back all he said? when a ll he does is speak in parables, which he very well knows; makes me sick. 'he lost concentration for a while.' Daaah!? he shouted in anguish in his head.' How I wish, I could say this to his face! whenever he initiates his double coated speeches. ' huffing'. if I persist on this path? I am not going to be in any way possible to break own what he said.

No matter how thick layered my desire is to remain in criticism of him? My answers will not be derived from it. Instead of holding on to that old falling hinge? I will hold that of for now, then focus on the basic issue at hand, to later return to berate him at a fitting moment. I have faith something will poop up soon. ' Hhmmmmmm! His resolution was now set on picking the pieces one by one to get to the roots.

Let's see! so first, he asked whom I last lay with before my departure? when was Jenn. I can't be any more pleased than I am! right now , that this conversation is with myself and not with the old creep! ' he pondered with a lace of harmless venom.' As he wiped his hand on his military styled trimmed hair forth and back in serious thoughts. Did I actually hear " beloved princess"? more of a question than answer. I have a strong conviction, I also heard " portal" aaaand....aaaand what? 'he dragged the conjunction'. for my sanity sake aargh! now bitting on his pointing fingers nail, spaced out perking at the pieces of his discussion with Togui, like a bird beaking at food to pick the finest relevant pieces for nourishment..... aaaand yeah! He finitely also said " Return". What has jennifer got to do with portal? and what kind of portal might that be? is jennifer in any kind of trouble? I mean she is not the type to go seeking chaos in anyway yet there could be a " BUT!". Sincerely I pray she isn't in any form of danger, whiles I am away here, whare I can't do nothing to help. Not exempting "Return" of what of whom? as I could forget the echoes of that old man's voice in my darn head! he growls. Furthermore he also hinted my dream slightly.

Damn spiteful Togui! will he loose his life by telling me up front solutions? ooooh! 'he cries pitifully.' Come on! the gods of my land and ancestral stool, please help me for I am battered. ' he whispered solemnly under his breath wretchedly; throwing his head back weakly, shutting his eyes to continue his tormenting arduous task of piecing together bits of clues left him.

He shoots! upright! with a body full of energy, as if he had just taking an adrenaline shot. ' he exclaimed in a stretched awakened manner " Holy crap!" As the old mans last assignment returned resounding to his memory unedited. An epoch- making statement that had faded from him moments after hearing. The are truly merciful! they heard the plea of their son.

" Dzè agba gba nè wo bor nè do nyonu vi sia gbô, nè na bia gbé aa tso fodo nuti. Alè kæ o hè va yi ha, nè na , na manya. Elabèna azolia mè etor bor bue nyè ge wa la oo! " ↔️ " Try your possible best to reach out to that particular female and inquire about her possible conception. How ever it goes then you let me know. Because the journey is not going to be that of a sail through calm waters".

ooooh my God! abruptly runs on his lips in a totally messed up thinking and feeling. A ll emotions humanly possible enclosed him in a wink. Howbeit, non was he able to express due to the flightiness of their form. Topped with all the crazy acceptable, unacceptable imaginary thoughts intertwined with numerous questions whirling in his head.

"Does that mean Jennifer is carrying my

child? Not just any child, but ' ENYONAM'? How can that be? No! Or? Could I be right? or over exaggerating the meaning to all these middled sketches? I hope that old man is not playing on my emotions, trying to trick me into doing something I would regret.This is Jenn he is implying!

Sincerely, in critical dissertation? I don't know jennifer to be a careless person. when it it came to getting giddy on bed. She is the more conscious one! even though we tend to loose ourselves in each other. She never missed to prompt me to wear protection, when mini me is all riled up ready to slither into her paradise. For the reward of her encapsulating harmonic symphony, in the form of mournful music. which is yet to fail at making my spirit levitate, after meaningful stressed time of mood setting foreplay. She would always make me pull out! "ouch!" 'he hisses out loud in recall of the agony of having to redraw at the climax of his passion.' I would rather not; if only allowed. Or she would take her contraceptive after her inability to dissuade me from spilling in her. When I cornily sweet talk her, I wouldn't to her agreement.

Always a wrong move on her part; we both know am unable to hold my end of the bargain many at times. Sometimes I thinks she just lets me have my way with an alternative at hand. I mean who would decide to kill the fulfillment at peak of excitement? c*****g an eye brow naughtily splashed with a wicked smirk. With these last few lines of his reflections he felt an uneasiness, a foreboding of some sort. He was sure that it has to do with the last statement. There was a pause in the tracks of his mind , clarity finally came....'CON-TRA-CEP-TIVE' as in 'MORNING AFTERPILL' was the word unsettling him.

Clarity did surface alright! not alone, but along with a flashback of where? How? when? the letters contained in the word 'C-O-N-T-R-A-C-E-P-T-I-V-E', came to play in his current resolutions.

The eve of his departure about three months ago, his sexcapades with Jennifer. He committed a flaw of omission ... yes! he did. That memory replayed in his mind with vivid flashes until when his woman queried him for something. He didn't put on a barrier on top of that? " I poured in her, damn!" wide eyes now.

"what did you do baby?"

"BabyJ! what's the matter? are you kk? did I hurt you?"

"where is the rubber?"

"s**t! Am sorry babe...it didn't occur to me earlier, as if it ever did?" she rejoined

"you know, I wouldn't do anything to hurt you purposely right? the situation at home, the travel? all the frenzy? crazy stuff going on in y life right now made me lose my senses awhile back. Most importantly I missed you so dearly! I wanted you so bad, I could not hold back a milli second. truth is I am going to be missing you painfully for a stretched while you know? I...I...just

She didn't allow me complete my explanation, the rest of my time before my departure was pure bliss with flesh in flesh. No more questions asked not restrictions. She was supposed to get a morning after pill later. And the Jennifer I know, will do what she says she'd do. So what happened? This day has been one hell of an exhausted eldritch one! Starting from the 30mins nap that felt like a whole 24hrs, the eerie dream; TOGUI'S clues that almost drove me nuts and yet I am still at sea about Jenn, Return! Portal! Princess! ...... blaaaaaah! blaaaaaah! blaaaaaah! he muffled out.

For now? I am too used up to place anything. I am going for a cold refreshing shower, to calm me down this instant. oooh! how I wish the cold water could quench the raging heat from the fire of my volcanic thoughts in my head before they erupt. Then ponder over all the jumbled up situation within the next two days. I will then decide what to do. Hither to, what did the old man say? To talk to the female, I laid with before my exit out of my country. Then that's exactly what I will do but after, I have been able to put together the right words. I sincerely don't want to agitate Jenn thus if she is really pregnant! That old man had some weird mad ways of acquiring information , which I have grown to appreciate him for, as annoying as he is. But for the all new perv side? I am not sure what to do with it yet. he sneered

I have this uneasy feeling this task is going to hurt Jennifer. which I would rather do without because she is very precious to me. But I have also grown to respect Togui's wisdom in this short time we have co-existed peacefully. However when he sprouts surprises at me in questionable ways? I just don't know what to make of him! Sometimes I'd want to disobey him but I can't put my fate through such cruel test! cause I don't want to withness the outcome. What wouldn't I give for Jennifer to be carrying my child. he smiled.

Be careful what you wish for because it might just come true! But what would you give to attain what you desire?

"Hello!"

"Hi!"

" I am doctor Asare, from the 37millitary Hospital Accra. Am I speaking with madam Jennifer Kumedro?

" Yes! and how may I help you?"

"The results of your laboratory test pertaining to your health condition is ready. would you want it delivered to your residence or you'd prefer to come to the hospital? And if you opt for the former then please provide us with an address. it seems we omitted that detail on last visit. thanks!"

" No need for the latter, I will pass by tommorow to deal with that." Jennifer's face lit up! finally, she is going to put that sheepish looking doctor in his place! But you couldn't take your eyes off his abs tho!? ' her conscience berated her, Before she knew it? She blurted out'. " what has his abs got to do with his face any way? my babys abs are more sultry, besides I'd say it am occupational bonus!" as if she was talking to an actual person, rolling her eyes.