LOVES NOT IN HER DICTIONARY

Dying Moment.

There are many pieces to the puzzle as to whom I have burgeoned into today.

My name was not randomly chosen but by the circumstances surrounding my birth did I obtain my nomenclature. As narrated by the only man I had absolute conviction loved me without barriers and felt my pain to the core whenever I was hurt! 'OLD SOLDIER' as I affectionately called my Father. If being there for a loved one unadulteratedly in all given conditions of this wicked world was ever a person, that personality would have been my father.

Old Soldier's Narrative:

You had a senior sibling, a female for that matter whose name was 'ENYONAM' fully written 'MAWU ENYONAM'. Meaning "God is good for me" and was the apple of my eyes, just as you are for me and have come to know it was a transfer of affection from your predecessor( your eldest sister)to you and to make it very clear dear! I would have loved you the same even if you weren't her incarnation or look alike. I Know deep down within, you appreciated me so much as you were growing up because I never ceased to show for you, trust me I would do it all over again if asked to or not!

I loved 'Enyonam' unconditionally to an extent, I spoilt her with all she asked for only if it was within my means or endeavored to make it happen even if it wasn't and would lose my appetite upon returning from work to meet her in tears over anything. You my angel also have a striking resemblance to her in most features and mannerism. Most! because those that had the rare opportunity to know her before her untimely demise, would mistaken you for her and question us in ambivalence with comparison of feature in our native tongue and be like:

"Efo(enquirer) - Daavi, Ew) ab3 am3 mi 3kp3 l3 si wu am3 k3l3.. aloo! 3yaa y3 aaa..Nyaka 3dzo?

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"Mother it seems your other child had more ass than this child or is she the same.. what happened?" A high percentage of Ghanaian men appreciated a reasonable full rounded back side of females and would fail at nothing to notice, which was one of Enyonam's spot light features.

"Mother- Aawoo m3ny3 3y3 ooo! 3n) via y3: won't) n3 nya nyaaa hoho".

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"No she is not the same child but her sibling, you already know what happened".

"oooh! k3 me blu afo kluæ! Ga k3 n3 fo æ?" ↔️ "oooh! then I nearly missed them up! But I hope you doing good tho?"

"Mawu 3y3 ny3 am3ta kpola!" with a mild smile plane on her fixture. ↔️ "God is the caretaker of humans".

Enyonam! was described as an epitome of a true African beauty, at a young age she exhibited promising features many men would kill for. More so had matured men asking to take full responsibility of her until she was at a ripe age for marriage so they could take her as their wife. Whom were turned down by I and her mother to their disappoinment. This kind of arrangement was nothing out of the clouds but we refused the offer to enable her make full use of her rights to choose who she wanted to settle with without Obstacles. A dream which never came to fruition as she was unjustly plucked green.

She had a slender waist, meaningfully round ass, hips that can be compared to the modern day Barbie doll yet with extra flesh,(this could be attested to by all who have had the rare pleasure to behold an African woman in all their fullness of beauty) she had straight but slightly bowed legs just as your legs, shinny chocolate smooth skin as that of the world known Ghanaian high quality Cocoa product 'GOLDEN TREE KINGSBITE CHOCOLATE'.

A round fleshy face with a perfect small captivating kissable lips not far fetched from what you own and sharp eyes of brown color that reflected light in a twinkly way to seem as miniature stars. Further more Enyonam was down to earth , respectful and industrious, should I say it? just as you my love.

Forgive me if i am comparing you but, reflecting now whiles I gaze upon you, give me this euphoric feeling, it's as tho she never departed but is the body in my presence. All these are some remarkable characteristics of females from the 'EWE' tribe which am glad to know confidently you posses. He says with a comforting smile,followed swiftly by an assured sigh

"Enyonam ñ3 fô"? ↔️

("Enyonam hope you good?")

"m3 d3 kuku æ!"↔️

("yes please, I am good.")

"N3 b3 ya trô dæ, n3 na kô enû babla ma h3 l3 m3 gb3 na wo".↔️.

("when you done and about to go home take that package behind you with you")

"M3 d3 kuku yoo!"↔️

(" yes please")

"M3 d3 kuku akpè loo!".↔️

( " please! thank you")

"M3 so akpè oooo 3vi !"↔️

(" No need for thanks child !")

Enyonam never went on an errand and returned with exactly what she sort to get. Not because she was a kleptomaniac, but because she was loved and adored by all and sundry who already knew her or set eyes on her for the very first time and were compelled to get her attention. There was always extra of what she set out to get and others she didn't purchase. She was showered with gifts from both strangers and family friends alike. Infact she was loved by many either for her striking beauty or demeanor yet met an untimely painful end by the hands of her step mother out of jealousy through the means of dark magic.

On the faithful day of her sudden departure into eternal bliss. she had made one of her routine visits to her my work place. As you already aware of, i was a dietitian in the army and helped with the cure of patients with healthy meals at 37 military hospital in Accra. She was on her way home, basking in the sun high above her head while she enjoyed the view of swaying half scotched leave on the huge tall trees along the path which had a border of golden colour from reflecting light of off the burning sun and was grateful for the occasional breeze that'd blew to refresh and calm the heat the sun made her feel within. How did I know this? She once confessed her joys as well as her hustle on her trips home from my place of occupation but refused it was a stress but refreshment. Hahaha! Enyo had her own ideas and ways.... I don't want to say in resemblance to you, yet it is in place to.

"Adjeeii!" she exclaimed! out of pain, falling to the bare earth with a heavy thud! Heeving! out of breath clawing at her chest as it tightened suffocating her!

Few meters away from her destination Enyonam was chanced upon by one of her admirers short of breath. He carried her home and after ample efforts to stabilize her condition with unorthodox means to no avail, she was rushed to the emergency ward of the hospital I worked.

The doctors on duty during that time and day rushed to her bed side. Infact any doctor who knew Enyonam at the 37 military hospital more so heard of her condition, furthermore knew where she was run to help treat her.

In a short while, it was a swamp of doctors working around the clock against all odds to the best of their knowledge and expertise to stabilize her. Anyone present that solemn day would have mistaken the scene to that of a high profile personality in a critical condition receiving first aid in an attempt to salvage their life ahead of admission. The doctors worked tirelessly until she was able to voice out few words to answer them, as to what happened plus a last wish and promise to the only person she was fighting with all her might to hold on to life for but proved futile in the end....Old Soldier! her beloved father. (Pain was evident on his face and in his voice).

In a faint struggling coarse- dry voice, Enyonam told the doctors when she got to where she was found almost unconscious and out of breath.she felt plunked at the back of her head with the likeness of what felt as a lumber of wood. which caused a blur in her vision, rendered her legs numb and put her out of breath; with this much said with enormous efforts from her she began to slip away again, bringing the doctors back on their toes trying to save her but before she finally gave up the ghost ,she asked for her father. (His eyes were soaked with him struggling to keep the tears from streaming down his face) She pleaded for me! who had been there all the while but she didn't notice because in truth, she was far gone from this place. The flesh was weak but the spirit was willing because Enyonam knew if she left without comforting her father (Me), I would loose myself at her expense. Just planted there without the slightest clue as to how I can save her finished me in an unimaginable way.

As i took the few steps from the foot of the bed to the head post on shaky legs with a light head and blood shot red eyes, i felt as though my heart was being torn out of my chest excruciatingly in bits. I unsteadily reached the head post and bent awhile to take my ears close to Enyonams lips to hear what she wanted to let me know..... that was when fear shot through me as dozens of iced arrows at once. How I got there before her request?

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"when I heard my baby was back on the hospital premises yet had not popped in to wriggle around my desk in my office, I wondered who or what was preventing her, till my colleague concluded his report after badging into my office!

"Enyonam was rushed into the hospital by your wife in a critical condition!" He blurted out, out of breath for running to come inform me.

within the first impasse of receiving the information I was taken aback by a hesitant wave of surprise as well as shock as to what was really in Development. Because she just departed not long after one of her usual visits ....aaaaannd..I mean she went about playing with some of my colleagues who had nothing more than adoration for her! I must confess but not to be a snitch on brothers tho! soldiers are notorious for womanizing on top of that I must say, some of the young recruits would give anything to be with my baby. Some of them did thier duty time in my office whenever she was around just to catch a close up glimpse of her whiles the extra balled ones ventured conversation with her and boy! I became constrictingly excessively protective over her when those vultures were present seeking out a loop hole. (the irony...ha!?)

A while ago she was busting with life, energy, healthy for that matter! what for christ sake! may have occurred enabling things escalate so abruptly? or this was one of those pranks we pulled on each other within the work environment to destress due to our strict modus of operandi.

I must admit being in the military has it own perks and one must strive to maintain balance by releasing pressure. which we did by pulling stunts on each other, we also role played some of our parades, chant war songs(JAMAH).

To add to this, my princesses drop by's became one of the activities I must confess we anticipated!

Her presence brought life to the forlorn zombie sons of pharaoh who were under strict command. The sun that brighten our stressed full days in the professional environment. smiles sarcastically

It was unethical in many instances, in consideration of army rules yet was always a pleasure to have her bubbling around consistently. Of course we had sports but sincerely all our activities involved rigorous training likely to sports...it was sports simple!

It took brief seconds of time lapse to contemplate the possibility as much as fallibility of the scenario playing in my head to realise my colleague could not crack such an expensive joke. yes! because his life would be damned for such an unpardonable mistake pertaining to my baby!

Instantly! I jumped onto my feet's, taking off at the speed of light to the emergency ward where she was being attended to, bumping into anything and anybody in my way toppling medical equipments in transit to various wards for diagnosis and treatment of patients on admission. My chest was on fire from the excessive energy I was exerting to reach my baby girl in time. If there was a possibility to teleport with drastic repercussions I wouldn't have given it an atom of thoughts to embrace the the chance to be where she was in split beep.

Back stage of my mind, I prayed fervently also wished what I had heard was nothing close to the truth whiles in speed motion. I was told enyonam was battling between life and death, infact she was already lost but some of our colleagues were knocking heads and breaking sweat together to bring her back....

As I took the sharp bend to the entrance of the ward she was in, I stopped abruptly in my tracks! beholding my heart beat laying on the bed like a vegetable but peching with hands lifelessly on her sides! Drew all the air out of my lungs as if magic, weakness overtook my whole body immediately, from the apex of my head to the tip of my toes felt as though a bucket of iced cold water was dumped on me freezing me in the spot for a brief impasse. I took slow steps on wobbly legs taking in the sight in my presence till I reached the foot of the bed she lay on, vibrating in anguish. What broke me most was the fact that she couldn't register my presence which I also didn't notice until she begged for me to be summoned!

..... As I bent in close to listen to Enyonam, I was no longer myself but a shadow ready to fade with her! What the hell happened? who did this to the essence of my life! Somebody needs to start talking instantly! I was ready to bring down a whole kingdom if the perpetrator was in it, to bring them to justice!

"Baby girl... what is wrong with you? Please talk to daddy" who touched you?" I asked her. I was raging storm within just waiting for a name or some description of sort. But I didn't get any instead I heard her last words.

She mustered all the strength left in her lungs and in a ruff shaky whisper tone she said..

"thank you for the unlimited love you showed me in many ways father. For being there for me always ,ordering my steps, holding my hands and lifting me up when I decided to stay down and for protecting me. I was never able to express my heart felt gratitude as a proud daughter, I thought, I was always going to be with you daddy. I couldn't have had a better parent than what I had in you and though it may seem as if I am living you on a bad note but please do not mourn me. l promise you if I was to return to this earth, for the unreserved love you showered me, I will return to you and your household. Take heart and consolation in my promise of return. I will come back to you father. I love you sooooo much daaaa...da.. dy". (Chest arched, a deep audible sounds out of the act of swallowing a huge lump with extreme pain escaped her with that said,

Enyonam took her last breath!