IDOL

Chap-19

Taking off the mask, i breathed in the chilly air of USA. I took a sit on the waiting area, waiting for my bags to arrive. My mind pondered back to the past days. After i arrived in Korea, i went straight to Sirius dorm and packed my all things up and left. I came back to my previous apartment which was renovated after i moved out. The day i came back in Korea, my phone was blowing up with hate messages, tweets and calls from their fans. I don't know how they found my number, but it was hell. I remember one fan told me to get lost as she loved Seo-joon. I just rolled my eyes and blocked her number. I had to deactivate my i********: and other accounts. Within 3 hours, i was done with this, so i broke my sim and bought a new one. It was too much. Not every tweet and messages were of hate, surprisingly, i received quite a good amount of love and support messages. I guess not everyone hated me or our relationship. Well it's all over now. Then after all this drama, i booked a flight to USA and after two days here i am with all my stuff.

I am not going to run away from my problems now. I am going to face them. With new goals and high spirits i came here.

Taking my bags, i got a call from Ashely.

"Hey, Hun. We are here. I am wearing a pink shirt." She said with a giggle.

She knew i hate pink. She was doing this to tease me.

"Ew. Ashley." I scrunched my nose with distaste, imagining her in bright pink shirt.

"Haha. Hey this way you will find us quickly. Think this way." She said,

I rolled my eyes and hung up the phone.

I saw people waiting for their guests. I turned my neck to left to find that awful pink shirt.

"Mama! Mama!"

I turned my head to right to where the sound came from. I saw a boy with pink face due to cold, running towards me with full speed with his arms open and a big smile on his chubby face.

I keeled down and opened my arms. His small body hit mine as i hugged him rightly. His small arms wrapped around my neck.

"Mama i miss you. I miss you so much. Mama" Brian kept saying this, breaking my shattered heart.

I felt my eyes water. I pulled back and kissed his head. I caressed his face with my hands and then kissed his cheek.

"I am sorry, baby. Mama took too long to come." I said, caressing his brown head.

"It's okay Mama. You are here. Promise me you won't leave now. I promise i will behave and be a good boy." He said, his smiley face turned into a upset one.

"Promise. Mama is not going anywhere without you." I said and hugged him once again, kissing his head.

He nodded his head and kissed my cheek, making me laugh.

"Hey!" I looked up to see Ashely and her family waiting for me.

I stood up and walked to hug her. I didn't tell her the full story what happened the past week and she didn't ask me either. She knew something happened and just gave me space which i respect.

"I missed you auntie!" A small body attached to my leg.

I looked to find a blond boy hugging my leg.

"Auntie is sorry. I missed you all." I said as i hugged him and kissed his head.

His name was Joe, he was Ashley and Asher's son. One year older than Brian.

"Hello dear. How are you holding up?." Asher asked me, pulling me in for a short hug.

I sighed and looked up at him.

"It's okay. We are here for you." He said and patted my head.

He considered me his little sister. He is a doctor too, we met when i was working under him. We bonded quickly and i was the one who set him and Ashley up. We have known each other for about 8 years.

I nodded my head, he grabbed my bags and started to walk ahead. I grabbed Brian's hand which was lifted in the air for me to grab it. Smiling down at him, we followed Asher.

"Mommy let's eat out!" Joe said to Ashely who narrowed her eyes at him.

"He is getting out of my hands day by day." She said as she looked back at me from the front seat.

I chuckled at her.

"Don't worry. Daddy will take you out today!" Asher said, ruffling Joes hair in lovely gesture.

Joe and Brian started to clap in happiness. Brian stayed close to me, i pulled him into my arms and caressed his back.

We ate our lunch while kids had their fun at the kids play side. After a while we went home and I entered the room which Ashley had it arranged for me. Brian tagged along inside and sat on my bed with his feet dangling from it. His grey looking at me with happiness. I smiled at him and then started unpacking. Brian was a mature kid at this age that it surprised me. Ashley used to tell me how mature he acts irrespective of his age, i didn't believed her. But now i can see. He took my clothes and folded them neatly and then passed to me. Even though i told him not need to these things. But he said i came from a long journey and i must be tired and if he helped the work will be finished soon and then i can rest.

For a minute i just stood there looking at him. Walking towards him, i picked him up and hugged him.

"Mama! Hehe" his giggled filled the room as i spin around with him in my arms.

After an hour of struggle, we were done. Brian got tired so i laid him on the bed and he was fast asleep.

After showering and changing clothes, i switched off the light and switched on one lamp so that when he wakes up he doesn't get scared. I walked down the stairs and found Ashley in the kitchen.

"Hey." I said, walking towards her.

"Hey. I made tea. Let's take it outside." She said, wearing a kind smile on her face.

Her blonde hair were tied up in a high pony tail they moved along with her.

"Yeah sure. Let me." I said and grabbed the trey which had two cups of tea.

She nodded with a smile and opened the mosquito net door which led to the backyard.

I put the trey on the wooden table and took a seat. I passed her cup and hold mine and took a sip of it.

We sat there drinking our tea, light breeze was present in the air.Finally a bit peace after so much hassle.

"Eun Aee. What happened?" She asked, her eyes showed concern and had a worried face.

I sighed and decided to tell her and finish the matter.

"Oh Eun Aee." She rushed to my side as tears started to fall once i finished telling her what happened back.

"I didn't do anything." I said in between sobs.

"I know. It's not your fault. Please don't cry." She kept rubbing my back trying to soothe me.

I hiccuped and pulled away. She wiped my tears off and kissed my head.

"I don't like seeing you like this. I wish i was there i would have kicked their asses. How dare they hurt my baby sister!" She said, making me chuckle at her.

"You will be fine. Truth is never hidden, it will come out and everything will be cleared and Seo-joon is a Jerk to lose you without putting up a fight. Don't worry." She said with a sigh and patted my head.

I nodded my head and wiped my face with my sleeve and smiled at her.

"I am blessed to have you. I don't know what i would have done without you." I said and hugged her back.

"Um, for that." She said with a teasing tone .

"What do you want?" I said with a chuckle.

"White sauce pasta which you make." She said with a wink.

I laughed at her. She didn't know how to cook and never have she cooked. Once Asher let her cook and later he promised he would never allow her to go into the kitchen. When Ashley and i used to live together in an apartment, i always cooked for both of us. When she got married, she used to beg me to make her something whenever i came over, not that Asher wasn't a good cook. She was used to my food.

Later that night, i showed Brian pictures of Nicole and Bong cha telling him that they are my good friends back in Korea. He made cute sounds whenever he liked some picture making me smile.

He was fast asleep right next to me but sleep didn't come to me. So i quietly walked out of the room after grabbing my coat. I opened the net door and walked towards the swinging chair. The backyard was lit up with lights which covered the whole boundary of the backyard.

Sighing, i looked up at the dark sky. Stars were shining bright against the black background.

I remembered Anthony when i look at Brian.

..........................................................Flashback...........................................................

I finished the drama which i was watching and looked at the time. It was 10pm. I was waiting for Anthony to come back home. Anthony and i had a one year long relationship. In about two months our anniversary was coming. I was excited about it as i have already planned what i will do to surprise him.

He won a case on which he has been working on for past two months. So he and his colleagues went outside to celebrate today. He was a prosecutor and not any ordinary one he was the best among the others in the country.

Which also brings death treats but he never once got scared and continued to serve.

I waited for a while but it was past 12 which made me worried.

I dialed his number and called him but his phone was switched off. I tried again and i got the same answer.

My mind went to bad situations that might happened to him. Shaking my head i called his colleague.

"Hello, This is Prosecutor Oliver." Oliver said.

"Hey, Oliver. Please can you give phone to Anthony, his phone is switched off." I said, bit my lip in stress.

"Hey Eun Aee. Anthony?. But he left a while ago." He said, there was loud noise behind him.

"Where are you guys?" I asked as it was difficult to hear to what he was saying.

"In a bar!" He shouted over the music

"Please ask around and look for him. I am getting worried" i felt my heart beating hard against my chest.

"Don't worry. I will track him down. Stay inside the house and lock it up okay!" He said and hung up.

I quickly closed off the windows and locked the doors.

I waited and waited but he never came. Through this time i went through a mild panic attack but got hold of myself.

"Eun Aee. I can't find him. Please don't come out. I am going to police station okay. And stay relax." Oliver informed me.

I cracked down and cried silently thinking something happened to him.

Only god knows how i spend the whole night in stress and during that my eyes wouldn't open anymore and i slept on the couch in the living room. I woke up the noise of loud bang, opening my eyes i quickly sat. I heard foot steps, i quickly stood up and turned around to find Anthony standing their with blood shot eyes, staring at me. His hair was a mess and so was his shirt.

"Oh my god. Anthony! What happened?" I could feel my heart in my throat as i took in his state.

I quickly rush towards his side and grabbed his arm but stopped when a strong smell hit me.

Alcohol.

"Anthony" i said, worried as i looked up at him.

He kept staring at me and said nothing.

I don't know what happened but i decided to comfort him first. So i hugged him close and put my nose in the crook of his neck.

I sighed and smelled his cologne but stiffened in his arms.

"Anthony, why do i smell a girl's perfume on you?" I asked and then look at his ruffled hair and creased shirt.

I felt like someone stabbed me in the heart.

His arms around me tighten as i was pulling away from him.

"Please listen to me." He begged looking at me desperately.

I felt my eyes moisten as i looked at him but nodded my head.

Grabbing my hand he led me into the living room and made me sit on couch and took a seat beside me.

"Listen to me first and then say okay." He said,

I only nodded my head and tried not to doubt him without knowing the truth first.

"After doing dinner, we all went to a bar. There i met Jessica, the one who i liked back." He said and stopped looking for my reaction.

"Please don't stop." I told him. I was trying to hold myself back.

He nodded his head and lowered his head.

"Me and Jessica talked for a while during which she brought me drink. It was drugged I didn't knew that, I don't know what was going on. She took me to her home and.." his voice broke and so did my heart

"What happened then Anthony?" I asked as his hands tightened around mine.

"I-Uh was still in the state of confusion what was going on when she kissed me. I tried stopping her but then f**k! I don't know what happened to me! I f****d her! I didn't know how this happened! f**k! " He said with cracking voice.

I kept sitting there with empty heart trying to think but my mind was only thinking one thing.

He cheated on you with his past lover.

I felt tears flowing down my face. Through my blurry eyes i could see him crying.

I pulled my hands from his grasp.

"I kept waiting for you all night! Worrying sick thinking something happened to you and you were. You were cheating on me." I yelled as tears kept flowing.

"Eun Aee. Please believe me! Please. You know i love you! I am ashamed of what happened." He sniffed, tried to grab my hands but i stood up moving away from him.

"I need space. I am leaving. And don't follow me!" I said and turned around and run upstairs to pack my things.

He kept calling me and followed me in the room.

"Please stop. Please. We always clear misunderstanding by sitting and talking. Now don't walk away." He said as he stood in my doorway.

"There is no misunderstanding here. Even if she drugged you, you couldn't stop her!? Or what you thought that slut was me?." I shouted as angry tears kept coming.

He kept silent with his head low just listening to me.

"Do you still have feelings for her?. I asked

"No!" He answered immediately.

"Then why didn't you stop her?. I asked, we both knew the answer to that but we both were not ready to accept it.

That he didn't forget her totally.

"I don't want to talk right now. Leave." I told him harshly as i continue to pack my things.

"Please Eun Aee!" He said, his eyes mositen with tears.

"Please Anthony. If you kept forcing me then i might do something that we both might regret." I said and zipped up my bag.

I picked my car key and coat and walked out as he stepped aside. He kept following me without saying anything. When i was about to get in the car, i looked back at him.

He was in pain as much as i was. But he brought it upon himself.

"Don't follow me and go wash up, you reek of her." That's the last thing i said to him and drive away.

I looked back through the side mirror and found him down on his knees on the ground with his head in his hands.

I felt my heart breaking at the sight, i wanted to run back to his arms. But i stopped myself from doing so, i and he both needed some time alone to fix this c***k between us. I sniffed and wiped my face.

I stayed with Ashley for a few days. I told her what happened, first she was really angry at Anthony but later she reminded me about how much he loved me. Asher told me after two days, that Anthony has been calling him from the day i came here and check up on me at least five times a day.

Asher gave me insight into what i was doing wrong and told me that i left the space to be filled be by someone such as Jessica. She will hold the place knowing i left it empty.

So the next day, here i was standing in front of our house. It was actually his house, he asked me to move in three months ago. Smiling, i opened the door and walked in.

Putting the car key into it's place, i walked in the living room.

My eyes couldn't believe what i was seeing. Jessica was sitting there close to Anthony who reading a document in his hands.

"What the hell are you doing here!?" I asked, walking near them.

Startled they both stood up from the couch. Jessica started coughing as she wasn't expecting me to come back.

Anthony looked surprised and happy. He came towards me and hugged me.

"Thank goodness you are here. I missed you. I am sorry again." He said and kissed my cheek.

"What is she doing here?. The mess she created wasn't enough?. I asked, not pleased with her presence.

"Eun Aee." He said, holding my hands

I didn't wait for his reply as anger within me was hard to control.

Walking towards her, i grabbed her arm and dragged her along with me.

"Eun Aee!. Please listen to me. Wait!" She said, but kept walking.

Ignoring her and pushing the door open i pushed her out of our house.

"Eun Aee! Please clam down." I heard Anthony said from behind me.

"Get lost! I don't want to see your face ever again." I yelled at her and she looked to my right where Anthony stood with a upset face.

Pathetic.

"Eun Aee. Don't do this. She is pregnant." And the bomb was dropped on my head.

I stumbled back due to shock, my eyes widen as i looked at Anthony in disbelief.

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