love never fails

Chapter 1 : Birth So we all know every story beings at the first stages of life . my birth was not like any others everyone was expecting me to be white but i was black. Also my first couple of years at life was hard for my mom because my father left when I was born. He never wanted to be in my life and left my mother broke. mom over time healed. when I was on my mom found a guy well she knew him a little bit. And now he's my stepdad. He's been there since day one unlike my father. My father is a cruel man he abandoned me. Now let's skip a head because not everything is sun shines in rainbows so I'm going to talk about what happened to me .When I was 5 years old I molested , abused . I feel like everything was ripped off on me and I knew what it was because my parents taught me at a very young age. Now through my teenage years I still have those memories of when he touched me of when I had nothing left of when I couldn't be a child. all my life I have felt like I was a burden to my family. life is very hard for me at the age of five because I had speech problems. life what is life well no one really knows you just love it you don't know what's going to happen. But at the time I didn't know he was my step father I thought he was my real father. So when I found out at the age of 6 years old he crushed me. I've been bullied and shine my whole life I feel like no one gets me it's really hard. People try to help me but is that really going to help of how much I've been through. No one really knows how hard it is until you walk in your shoes. My middle school years were not great either I was bullied all of Middle School. year 6th grade was covid year. 7th grade wasn't great either people made fun of the way I loved. we had to go to the restaurant place called The capron center and people believe me very badly. I was cheated on in seventh grade I felt like no one got me. 8th grade things got a little better but not much. I started dating this one person and he was the love of my life and when we broke up it crushed me. Because now every time I love a person I had to think about what we could have been. I don't have really much after this because when I started high School this year I thought it was great I mean it is great. But I never thought how much harder would be. Because now I don't know what I want to do with my life I'm struggling. I know I'm only in 9th grade but I got to tell my story. Chapter 2 : Depression All my life I've struggled with many things I never really described it as depression it was sudden urges for sadness. this storyline is about my best friend a girl who just wants to be heard. So this chapter is all about my best friend and our depression together we fight to face battles but simply still find sadness in the loss of the world. My best friend tries to find out how life is but simply has urges for sadness he cuts herself all the time because she don't know how to express herself. This is the best friend speaking all my life I've been with my friend Isabel that's the other one that was telling me other part of the street well this is my part of the story. I've been bullied all my life just like her she helped me get through the most toughest time. especially when I lost my father I was only an elementary but it was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I wouldn't missed him die and if I didn't have my best friend Isabel right by my side I probably would have died as well. Are Middle School years weren't the best I wasn't the brightest child either. I guess I get that from my mother well which mother am I talking about. I'm talking about my sister because now she adopted me officially because my mother is a c***k addict. Mother left me at birth my father was always there but when he died it was like a part of me left because I didn't have a mother. I was only 12 at the time so I didn't really remember much but I remember him dying wiggly it was like the hardest thing that I've ever had to face. And of course my c***k addict mother decided to come back in my life when he died. What makes it even harder is he died when it was only 7 days or 5 days after my birthday and I was like losing my birthday. And then a couple of months after that my brother died as well and it was like a lost two two important people that are left dearly. Now that I'm facing high School it's like the terror of me and the nightmare has finally become. I've always been not the brightest little child but I never knew facing high school would be the hardest thing because I had to worry about what life would come next. I'm facing it without the two people I love is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. But good thing I have my best friend Isabel Right by My side. She's been there since first grade so she seen it all heard it all. I know I'm feeling a lot of my classes but place Isabel is here to help me we go to the counselor almost every day because we don't know how to talk about her problems. Depression is something simply to get out of your head it's a hard thing to do with. I thought about killing myself multiple times but Isabel was there to help me. I would not do that to her because she's already been through that enough. Because she witnessed her other friend I don't really know her die right in front of her she could herself right in front of her and I don't want to do that to her again. But we always joke around saying if you die first I'm dying with you but is that really a hysteric and hypothetical here though. we've been through the rough times but always remember Love never fails it takes a lot for love to fail you just have to find it. And an Isabel our Love never dies we share these memories together. She's like my sister if she died I would die too. Chapter 3 : Wishes All my life I wish to see my father this is Isabel. Well today you're going to hear her side of the story and I want to hear much of it because I never met him. But I know exactly what he would say to me. let's just say we're calling him Lucifer because he's cruel. This is Lucifer I know I've made a lot of mistakes and I have a lot of making up to do for Isabel's life. She won't even let me try to make an impact in her life I don't blame her though but she's being a little b***h. I know I left her mother broke. I know she's been hurting. But at least you can do is answer my calls. This is Isabel the narrator and plays a big role in all of this well considering it is my story. Let me just add something I did not pick up your calls cuz you called me restricted I'm not surprised possession that you can keep a secret. Now back to Lucifer. And she never even seem to visit me in Virginia she thinks I'm going to drive down there to see that little brat. Chapter 4 : Death I told you he does not have a big role cuz I've never met my father what a cruel man. Enough enough for that let's talk about death. Everyone goes to death. Everyone faces it. You just have to live with it. I know grief is harder for some people but it's a terrible thing. I never really understand grief for the longest time but when I felt it when my family started dying it was hard. I wouldn't really put myself out there I would put myself in a world in my head that I would not have no one. I would space everyone out. I would cry. I think I took it the hardest to when my cousin died. He got run over by a family member but it was an accident. I had lost every side of me because me and him and our other cousin JJ we were all three months apart. I could remember us being the Three musketeers but when the youngest LJ died it was hard . Now me and JJ have a very love-hate relationship. I think no one really knows how to express death especially losing your child. I think this ties into depression and sadness that no one really knows how to experience. Know one really knows what someone is going through. chapter 5: School School has always been terrible for me I've been bullying my whole life. Middle School was the worst year of my life people who believe me harass me make me when I kill myself. High School has got worse like all I want to do is scream in my room is cry. Like the other day I got accused of sexually harassing this girl and sexually abusing which I did none of that. all I did was put my hand on the chair and actually touched her thigh. She said I had touched her boobs and her thigh and said oh yeah you like that that's going to make you c*m . Which I did none of that and I never believe me the principles to not believe me so I got ISS for 2 days and it was terrible. and I had told them that I was molested when I was a little kid so why would I do that to someone else I would never want someone else to feel the pain life out. Everyday I live in that pain it hurts like hell and no one gets it I feel like I'm in this world that no one gets me. I would never want to go back to school and never want to be in that s**t hole again. I've been criticized so much and I'm done feeling like I'm trapped. I want to get out I want to get out. nobody gets me . nobody understands me. nobody listens to me. nobody cares about me. nobody wants me. and most of all nobody sees me. School has not always been the best for me .