my thoughts

they say what you go through in life happens for a reason, it makes you stronger and a better person. but how much do they expect one person to go through before they break down. the second day we met we was alone and ended up having s*x unprotected. you say you want me because you love me but is it just because you are lonely and think your in love because you are tired of being single.I have this thing I don't know what to call it I guess psych powers. I can feel when something isn't right if I'm with a guy in a relationship so I test them and see if they stay the same or if I bring there true colors out. I understand I'm a baggage I come with alot for anyone to be able to handle but don't lie to me and tell me we will be forever. don't tell me that everything will be ok because I know its not. I don't ask much all I ask is if you can't handle me or if I'm to much to let me know don't play mind games by trying to buy my love with the things I want. all I ask is for the truth, a relationship is all about trust,honesty and being loyal to each other. as I lay here in my thoughts I get deeper in my dark place that will last for a week.

to be continued....