Chapter-4 Help Me Please!

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Arohi I made coffee for him just as he liked. One and half spoon sugar and lots of coffee or he would throw it in my face. He did this on third day after our wedding. My hands trembled as I walked back to the room where I spent my night. Yesterday he mumbled a lot in his sleep. Collecting enough strength I walked to his bed. He was sleeping on his stomach mumbling things. I got much closer to him. And caressed his arms. He eased and as I turned to go back to sleep I felt my food come to my mouth when he caught my wrist. "Don't leave me. " He begged and his hold tightened. My heart fell and I sat beneath his bed. " Please don't go Sanya. " Sanya? Who is she now? And then I felt the hurdles between us. There are lot of it but biggest one is mystery to unravel. " I don't know your past. I just understand you." I thought but I quoted it too. Sitting there beneath his bed, my mind replayed all his curses he threw at me, harsh glares and deeds that would offend anyone. I woke up before him and went to follow his rules. He made rules for me. What after what. I couldn't see myself any other thing than his slave. Bound slave. I married this devil who is so soft Inside. Just sell these things made him so hard to crack to reach his heart. My legs felt heavy as I felt my heart heavy with grief. I nervously walked towards him. He was wearing his tie in front of the mirror with his back to me. His fast working hand slowed as he saw my reflection in the mirror. 'where the hell were you? I want my room clean. ' or ' I think you are making yourself so comfortable here, don't you? ' I didn't heard anything. I waited and waited but nothing came from him. I kept the coffee in the table and got to clean the room. I was making the bed when he took the coffee and went without cursing me. Breakfast. He mostly ate in his office. I made him Aloo Paratha today and I knew he wouldn't touch that. He never ate the food I made for him but wanted me make it for him everyday. Except that he drink the coffee or throw that in my face. I think that's why he would drink it and curse me for not getting the taste he preferred or it was his ways to break me. I don't know. I took an hour to clean his room and rushed to other room. Seeing computer and books in the shelf placed neatly my heart ached. I wanted to study enough, do something big and earn respect. That dream remained dream now. I had nothing else to do after cleaning up. Just to wait for him and let him rape me brutally. I am coward. I couldn't stand up for me. I never did and never will. I concluded and tears fell down my hand. I looked at that drop and laughed at myself. "You can do this only. You were, is and always will be weak. " I came out of thoughts when Kamla maa called me urgently. I saw bad news in her face. What happened now? " Arohi, Arun .. Arun. Talk to him. " She handed me her phone. " Didi, mother vomited blood now. She is unconscious didi. I don't have money and doctors are not checking her didi. What should I do? " He was crying on the other side and I couldn't calm him. That day he came asking for help when Dev misunderstood me. He saw paleness of my face. He understood here too things were not good for me. We people can read each other. He wanted me to leave Dev and go with him but I was married to him. I refused. " I am coming. " I whispered. What help I will be for him. I had no money. He told me the address and I heard his comforted voice. He always said that I would do anything for anyone. And now he thought I would save his mother. I have no money. What would I do? Nothing came other than Dev but why would he help me. Still my hand reflexively went to the landline and I called him. I would try anything to save her. He wasn't picking up the call. He must be in any important meeting, I concluded and decided to atleast go to them. I took my purse and put all the meagre amount I had in it. I took a taxi and reached the address. " Arun? Where is she? " I asked him and I saw his tears. He mostly kept himself from crying but this time was difficult. " She is dying. " He whispered softly gulping the pain. I reached out to him and held his hand. He was one younger still much longer than me. We both were thin though. Poverty and problems ate us when we even didn't had enough to fill our stomach. I hugged him hardly and patted his back saying, " But we will not let her die." I knew what was coming. She was far from saving because we didn't had enough to save her. We loved her and it could never save her from cancer. That day when she understood what she kind of thing it was, she smiled sadly and said, "we all have to go one day, it's OK if it's early for me." It wouldn't be okay until you are dying happily. And she would never die happily. She would not see his son marry and earn a good life. She had very less time. Arun hugged me harder seeking the warmth and comfort. Atleast that I was capable of. "Everyone is leaving me. You never talk to me and she don't have strength to talk. I couldn't save her. No one loves us on this earth. I am alone Di. We are alone. " We are alone. " Ma love you. " I patted him as he hummed. " I too love you. " " That's what I expected from you b***h! " My sobbing stopped and my heart came to my mouth. The voice was familiar and the speaker was my husband standing in his glory before me. I walked towards him, scared." Di. " Arun called me urgently. Ignoring him I reached to him. His hands sprang out of his pocket and caught my arm. " How dare you hug him when I already warned you?! " He snarled pressing my arm. " You are hurting me. Please leave me." I begged him. He gritted his teeth and swirled me holding my waist that I stood pressed into him. He walked us to Arun. "If I ever find you around her, you will not be fine anymore. " " Leave her. " He sprang into him and grabbed his hand trying to pull him off me. But Dev tossed him in a flick with his spare hand. I alarmed, called Arun. He was on the floor and assured me as I called him. " I am fine Didi. Just leave him. He is-" "Shut up! You moth! Didi? I mean is that what your lover call you? Two slums to match each other. " He smirked still holding me. " You are moron! You beat her. You-" " Arun. " I stopped him as he was again running towards Dev. " You go and take care of Ma. This is my personal matter. " " Love. " " He is my brother. " I declared to him. He stared me for long and I didn't saw any mercy in his eyes. He would do anything if he wanted something so much. I remember how my brother was hurt when he argued him for not selling me to him. I wasn't home to watch them but I saw my notorious brother shouting and cursing him. That's how I, in the first place knew where my fate was taking me. To the Devil. "Stop all this. You are my f*****g wife and I can't afford her in someone's shoulder saying I-f*****g-love-you. That won't be good for either of you. " " Arun's mother is suffering from cancer. Please help us. I will pay you back each penny working somewhere. " I simply said to him. " Is this mother in law love? And why would I spend on him? " He said as he pulled me towards the exit. " Let me meet her. " I begged him and tried to get away from him. But he was so strong to fight. " You would work for me whole life baby. " He breathed as he threw me inside his luxury car." And without any salary, " He added sitting beside me and closing the door of the car. " You are not human." I understood him and still I said it. He fake laughed and said, " I am not Man and I am not human. But You know very well what I am capable of." No one might know that better than me. "She used to wash my wounds and bandage them after my father was done beating me. She used to wipe my tears and I couldn't wipe hers. I had two sibling for name shake but Arun took the real responsibility of brother. I remember how he pushed my father when he was.." I stopped and looked out of the window. There was silence but something pierced me. His gaze was piercing me. I knew he was gazing me but I didn't wanted to show my deep griefs. They were wounds which would never heal. I wondered if he too will wound me that way. He was hurting me but I had hold myself. "You will never step out of the house again." He said coldly. "I have no where else to go." I had no friends at school or at college. My family never let anyone to be friends with me. No girls and boys wanted to be friend with the girl whose brother was a bully and laid eyes on any girl. There was that handsome boy who was just talking to me about studies when my brother spotted us. I don't know what he did to him but next day he gave me disgusted look and never talked to me. I kept begging him to talk to me and he just ignored me like I was some leech. I laughed at myself. My head turned and I saw him confused. He would be thinking me mad. I was mad. Mad for being of no use other than being someone's tool. "Are you insane?! " " Just fed up of being disgusting. " *************
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