1. FROM THE TWENTY-SECOND TO THE
TWENTY-SEVENTH OF JULYBut things are not what they seem. A responsive love for Edward
Springrove had made its appearance in Cytherea's bosom with all the
fascinating attributes of a first experience, not succeeding to or
displacing other emotions, as in older hearts, but taking up
entirely new ground; as when gazing just after sunset at the pale
blue sky we see a star come into existence where nothing was
before.
His parting words, 'Don't forget me,' she repeated to herself a
hundred times, and though she thought their import was probably
commonplace, she could not help toying with them,—looking at them
from all points, and investing them with meanings of love and
faithfulness,—ostensibly entertaining such meanings only as fables
wherewith to pass the time, yet in her heart admitting, for
detached instants, a possibility of their deeper truth. And thus,
for hours after he had left her, her reason flirted with her fancy
as a kitten will sport with a dove, pleasantly and smoothly through
easy attitudes, but disclosing its cruel and unyielding nature at
crises.
To turn now to the more material media through which this story
moves, it so happened that the very next morning brought round a
circumstance which, slight in itself, took up a relevant and
important position between the past and the future of the persons
herein concerned.
At breakfast time, just as Cytherea had again seen the postman
pass without bringing her an answer to the advertisement, as she
had fully expected he would do, Owen entered the room.
'Well,' he said, kissing her, 'you have not been alarmed, of
course. Springrove told you what I had done, and you found there
was no train?'
'Yes, it was all clear. But what is the lameness owing to?'
'I don't know—nothing. It has quite gone off now… Cytherea, I
hope you like Springrove. Springrove's a nice fellow, you
know.'
'Yes. I think he is, except that—'
'It happened just to the purpose that I should meet him there,
didn't it? And when I reached the station and learnt that I could
not get on by train my foot seemed better. I started off to walk
home, and went about five miles along a path beside the railway. It
then struck me that I might not be fit for anything to-day if I
walked and aggravated the bothering foot, so I looked for a place
to sleep at. There was no available village or inn, and I
eventually got the keeper of a gate-house, where a lane crossed the
line, to take me in.'
They proceeded with their breakfast. Owen yawned.
'You didn't get much sleep at the gate-house last night, I'm
afraid, Owen,' said his sister.
'To tell the truth, I didn't. I was in such very close and
narrow quarters. Those gate-houses are such small places, and the
man had only his own bed to offer me. Ah, by-the-bye, Cythie, I
have such an extraordinary thing to tell you in connection with
this man!—by Jove, I had nearly forgotten it! But I'll go straight
on. As I was saying, he had only his own bed to offer me, but I
could not afford to be fastidious, and as he had a hearty manner,
though a very queer one, I agreed to accept it, and he made a rough
pallet for himself on the floor close beside me. Well, I could not
sleep for my life, and I wished I had not stayed there, though I
was so tired. For one thing, there were the luggage trains rattling
by at my elbow the early part of the night. But worse than this, he
talked continually in his sleep, and occasionally struck out with
his limbs at something or another, knocking against the post of the
bedstead and making it tremble. My condition was altogether so
unsatisfactory that at last I awoke him, and asked him what he had
been dreaming about for the previous hour, for I could get no sleep
at all. He begged my pardon for disturbing me, but a name I had
casually let fall that evening had led him to think of another
stranger he had once had visit him, who had also accidentally
mentioned the same name, and some very strange incidents connected
with that meeting. The affair had occurred years and years ago; but
what I had said had made him think and dream about it as if it were
but yesterday. What was the word? I said. "Cytherea," he said. What
was the story? I asked then. He then told me that when he was a
young man in London he borrowed a few pounds to add to a few he had
saved up, and opened a little inn at Hammersmith. One evening,
after the inn had been open about a couple of months, every idler
in the neighbourhood ran off to Westminster. The Houses of
Parliament were on fire.
'Not a soul remained in his parlour besides himself, and he
began picking up the pipes and glasses his customers had hastily
relinquished. At length a young lady about seventeen or eighteen
came in. She asked if a woman was there waiting for herself—Miss
Jane Taylor. He said no; asked the young lady if she would wait,
and showed her into the small inner room. There was a glass-pane in
the partition dividing this room from the bar to enable the
landlord to see if his visitors, who sat there, wanted anything. A
curious awkwardness and melancholy about the behaviour of the girl
who called, caused my informant to look frequently at her through
the partition. She seemed weary of her life, and sat with her face
buried in her hands, evidently quite out of her element in such a
house. Then a woman much older came in and greeted Miss Taylor by
name. The man distinctly heard the following words pass between
them:—
'"Why have you not brought him?"
'"He is ill; he is not likely to live through the night."
'At this announcement from the elderly woman, the young lady
fell to the floor in a swoon, apparently overcome by the news. The
landlord ran in and lifted her up. Well, do what they would they
could not for a long time bring her back to consciousness, and
began to be much alarmed. "Who is she?" the innkeeper said to the
other woman. "I know her," the other said, with deep meaning in her
tone. The elderly and young woman seemed allied, and yet
strangers.
'She now showed signs of life, and it struck him (he was plainly
of an inquisitive turn), that in her half-bewildered state he might
get some information from her. He stooped over her, put his mouth
to her ear, and said sharply, "What's your name?" "To catch a woman
napping is difficult, even when she's half dead; but I did it,"
says the gatekeeper. When he asked her her name, she said
immediately—
'"Cytherea"—and stopped suddenly.'
'My own name!' said Cytherea.
'Yes—your name. Well, the gateman thought at the time it might
be equally with Jane a name she had invented for the occasion, that
they might not trace her; but I think it was truth unconsciously
uttered, for she added directly afterwards: "O, what have I said!"
and was quite overcome again—this time with fright. Her vexation
that the woman now doubted the genuineness of her other name was
very much greater than that the innkeeper did, and it is evident
that to blind the woman was her main object. He also learnt from
words the elderly woman casually dropped, that meetings of the same
kind had been held before, and that the falseness of the soi-disant
Miss Jane Taylor's name had never been suspected by this dependent
or confederate till then.
'She recovered, rested there for an hour, and first sending off
her companion peremptorily (which was another odd thing), she left
the house, offering the landlord all the money she had to say
nothing about the circumstance. He has never seen her since,
according to his own account. I said to him again and again, "Did
you find any more particulars afterwards?" "Not a syllable," he
said. O, he should never hear any more of that! too many years had
passed since it happened. "At any rate, you found out her surname?"
I said. "Well, well, that's my secret," he went on. "Perhaps I
should never have been in this part of the world if it hadn't been
for that. I failed as a publican, you know." I imagine the
situation of gateman was given him and his debts paid off as a
bribe to silence; but I can't say. "Ah, yes!" he said, with a long
breath. "I have never heard that name mentioned since that time
till to-night, and then there instantly rose to my eyes the vision
of that young lady lying in a fainting fit." He then stopped
talking and fell asleep. Telling the story must have relieved him
as it did the Ancient Mariner, for he did not move a muscle or make
another sound for the remainder of the night. Now isn't that an odd
story?'
'It is indeed,' Cytherea murmured. 'Very, very strange.'
'Why should she have said your most uncommon name?' continued
Owen. 'The man was evidently truthful, for there was not motive
sufficient for his invention of such a tale, and he could not have
done it either.'
Cytherea looked long at her brother. 'Don't you recognize
anything else in connection with the story?' she said.
'What?' he asked.
'Do you remember what poor papa once let drop—that Cytherea was
the name of his first sweetheart in Bloomsbury, who so mysteriously
renounced him? A sort of intuition tells me that this was the same
woman.'
'O no—not likely,' said her brother sceptically.
'How not likely, Owen? There's not another woman of the name in
England. In what year used papa to say the event took place?'
'Eighteen hundred and thirty-five.'
'And when were the Houses of Parliament burnt?—stop, I can tell
you.' She searched their little stock of books for a list of dates,
and found one in an old school history.
'The Houses of Parliament were burnt down in the evening of the
sixteenth of October, eighteen hundred and thirty-four.'
'Nearly a year and a quarter before she met father,' remarked
Owen.
They were silent. 'If papa had been alive, what a wonderful
absorbing interest this story would have had for him,' said
Cytherea by-and-by. 'And how strangely knowledge comes to us. We
might have searched for a clue to her secret half the world over,
and never found one. If we had really had any motive for trying to
discover more of the sad history than papa told us, we should have
gone to Bloomsbury; but not caring to do so, we go two hundred
miles in the opposite direction, and there find information waiting
to be told us. What could have been the secret, Owen?'
'Heaven knows. But our having heard a little more of her in this
way (if she is the same woman) is a mere coincidence after all—a
family story to tell our friends if we ever have any. But we shall
never know any more of the episode now—trust our fates for
that.'
Cytherea sat silently thinking.
'There was no answer this morning to your advertisement,
Cytherea?' he continued.
'None.'
'I could see that by your looks when I came in.'
'Fancy not getting a single one,' she said sadly. 'Surely there
must be people somewhere who want governesses?'
'Yes; but those who want them, and can afford to have them, get
them mostly by friends' recommendations; whilst those who want
them, and can't afford to have them, make use of their poor
relations.'
'What shall I do?'
'Never mind it. Go on living with me. Don't let the difficulty
trouble your mind so; you think about it all day. I can keep you,
Cythie, in a plain way of living. Twenty-five shillings a week do
not amount to much truly; but then many mechanics have no more, and
we live quite as sparingly as journeymen mechanics… It is a meagre
narrow life we are drifting into,' he added gloomily, 'but it is a
degree more tolerable than the worrying sensation of all the world
being ashamed of you, which we experienced at Hocbridge.'
'I couldn't go back there again,' she said.
'Nor I. O, I don't regret our course for a moment. We did quite
right in dropping out of the world.' The sneering tones of the
remark were almost too laboured to be real. 'Besides,' he
continued, 'something better for me is sure to turn up soon. I wish
my engagement here was a permanent one instead of for only two
months. It may, certainly, be for a longer time, but all is
uncertain.'
'I wish I could get something to do; and I must too,' she said
firmly. 'Suppose, as is very probable, you are not wanted after the
beginning of October—the time Mr. Gradfield mentioned—what should
we do if I were dependent on you only throughout the winter?'
They pondered on numerous schemes by which a young lady might be
supposed to earn a decent livelihood—more or less convenient and
feasible in imagination, but relinquished them all until
advertising had been once more tried, this time taking lower
ground. Cytherea was vexed at her temerity in having represented to
the world that so inexperienced a being as herself was a qualified
governess; and had a fancy that this presumption of hers might be
one reason why no ladies applied. The new and humbler attempt
appeared in the following form:—
'NURSERY GOVERNESS OR USEFUL COMPANION. A young person wishes to
hear of a situation in either of the above capacities. Salary very
moderate. She is a good needle-woman—Address G., 3 Cross Street,
Budmouth.'
In the evening they went to post the letter, and then walked up
and down the Parade for a while. Soon they met Springrove, said a
few words to him, and passed on. Owen noticed that his sister's
face had become crimson. Rather oddly they met Springrove again in
a few minutes. This time the three walked a little way together,
Edward ostensibly talking to Owen, though with a single thought to
the reception of his words by the maiden at the farther side, upon
whom his gaze was mostly resting, and who was attentively
listening—looking fixedly upon the pavement the while. It has been
said that men love with their eyes; women with their ears.
As Owen and himself were little more than acquaintances as yet,
and as Springrove was wanting in the assurance of many men of his
age, it now became necessary to wish his friends good-evening, or
to find a reason for continuing near Cytherea by saying some nice
new thing. He thought of a new thing; he proposed a pull across the
bay. This was assented to. They went to the pier; stepped into one
of the gaily painted boats moored alongside and sheered off.
Cytherea sat in the stern steering.
They rowed that evening; the next came, and with it the
necessity of rowing again. Then the next, and the next, Cytherea
always sitting in the stern with the tiller ropes in her hand. The
curves of her figure welded with those of the fragile boat in
perfect continuation, as she girlishly yielded herself to its
heaving and sinking, seeming to form with it an organic whole.
Then Owen was inclined to test his skill in paddling a canoe.
Edward did not like canoes, and the issue was, that, having seen
Owen on board, Springrove proposed to pull off after him with a
pair of sculls; but not considering himself sufficiently
accomplished to do finished rowing before a parade full of
promenaders when there was a little swell on, and with the rudder
unshipped in addition, he begged that Cytherea might come with him
and steer as before. She stepped in, and they floated along in the
wake of her brother. Thus passed the fifth evening on the
water.
But the sympathetic pair were thrown into still closer
companionship, and much more exclusive connection.