a very hurtful story I feel love with someone deep in my heart but she left me

Khani ki suruwat hui march me mujhe yaha ake dedh sal ho gay the samne ek ladki rehti thi uska bhi work frome home tha o apne kam me rehti mujhe notice karti rehti thi par mai dhyan nahi deta meri duniya sirf zym joging game office work jab free time rahe to new new disdh khane ke liye banan bas aise hi chal rahi thi o jab bhi help mangti kar deta kuchh hota kar deta respect karta uski mai jab samne se ati to sir jhuka ke side dedeta kahi kabhi notice karta tha mujhe dekhti thi aise hi dedh sal bit gay fir mai uspe jyda dhyan nahi deta par kuchh time bad usne ek activity strart ki jab mai ata ho balcony me baithe ke bat kari jaise mai ata to uth ke chali jati baki log rhte khade usse koi problame nahi hota fir jab mai ata andar door ke pass baithe rehti apne desk pe jaise mujhe dekhti door ko lat mar deti kuchh din tak mai ignore kiya fir mera dhyan jane laga kyu aisa kar rahi hai ye mai itna recpect karta hu balcony me khadi hoke kisi se bat kari to mai andar chala ata raste pe ati sir niche karke side deta fir bhi aise behve kyu kar rahi hai mere sath mai sochne laga socha puchunga aisa kyu kar rahe ho kuchh problame hai to btay ek din uske ghar mehman aay to mere se ake boli sam ke time karib 7 baje ki mai aoke ghar me baith ke kam kar lu maine kaha kar lo fir o aai aur kam karne lagi mujhse bate karne lagi maine socha isko uncomfortable feel na ho is liye mai bola ap kam karo mai ata hu fir mai 1 ghante ke liye bahar chala gaya fie aya to o baithi thi uske bad mai kichen me gaya khana pakane laga boli mai jati maine bola thik hai aur o chali gai fir dusre din apne behan ke bachhe ko lake aai boli ki mere room me bahot shor ho raha hai aur bachha so nahi pa rha hai to mai yaha sula du bola thik hai sula do usne sula diya thodi der bad bachha utha rone laga to mai leke gaya to o hi daur ke aai aur bachhe ko leke gai mehman chale gay fir uska vahi suru huwa mujhe dekh ke door band karna mujhe dekh ke bhagna to maine socha aaj puchh hi leta hu bar bar sochne ki wjah se mere dil me thodi attchement aa gait hi to maine usse puchh hi liya apko kuchh problame hai kya mujhse aise kyu kar rahe ho to boli nai aisa kuchh nahi hai to fir thik hai kuhh hai to bata do boli kuchh nahi aur thodi der bad office chali gai fir dusre din bhi vaisa kiya to maine puchh hi liya kya problem hai aur dekhne ke liye use raksha bandhan diya bandh do kuchh prblame hai to boli bad me bandhungi aur nahi bandhi aur mai vaha se chala gya to usne mujhe google pay pe msg why are u beheve lik that mujhe apna no do bat karne gi ki mujh in sab dhage pe bharosa nahi hai ye sab pe belve nahi akrti mai bola thi hai mat bandho aur mai samjh gaya aur mai aya ghar pe to tehl rahi thi aur boli thik hai lao bandh deti hu aur usse ek ganh bandh diya boli dost nahi reh sakte maine sirf aivi diya hai sirf dekhne ke liye mere dil me aisa kuchh nahi hai fir bad me usse w******p pe msg kiya ki mujhe driving licence banana hai to maine kha chalane ata hai ya fir aive to boli thoda ata hai amine kaha thik hai fir chalo dikhao sam ke time leke gya shikhane ko aur shikhane laga dhire dhire dusre din o rast se ja rahi thi mai udhar se aa raha tha usne mujhe isara kiya maine jan bujh ke avoid kiya fir return aya aur puchha koi hai apke life me kisi se bat kar rahe ho to boli nahi hai koi fir gaya usko leke ghumane ke liye raste me bola ache se baitho to jor se hug ki boli bhai mat bano fir return aya aur fir puchha koi to hoga apke life me to boli mujhe time pass type ka relation nahi chahiye permanent chaiye maine kaha mai permanent hi hu aur ghar aa gay 4 5 din beet gay shikahte ghumte fir maine kaha tumare sath rehta hu to bahot achha lagtahai sukun milta hai mujhe to boli achha mujhe bhi achha lagta hai au do din beet gaya fir boli ab nahi aungi maine bola aisa kya ho gaya galti kar di maine bata ke ki muhe sukun milta hai tumhare sath fir maine kaha I need a hug aur usse hug kiya fir leke aya aur dusre din nahi ja rahi thi to mai udas tha msg aya uska kyu udas ho maine kaha achha nahi lag raha adat ho gai mujhe chalo na jate hai fir aai o fir fir hugnkiya usne muhe bhi hug kiya kis kiya fir raste me ate huye garden pe bite ki kan kata mujhe bahot achha lagaya ki kisi ka sath mila mujhe dusre din usse office jana tha maine kaha mai chhod dunga boli thik hai usse dusre din office leke gaya raste me usne mujhe hug kiye gal pe kiss kiye garden pe cut kiye kan kate mai bahot khush tha fir usse drop karke wapas aya puchha kab aoge boli sham ko 8.30 tak aa jaungi bola thik hai mera kam me man nahi lag raha tha jaise taise karke maine sham kiya aur 7:30 ko hi pahoch gaya jaha usne bulya tha jab 8:30 huwa call kiya to boli abhi to office me hu mai kya bat kar rahe ho tum to bole the itna time aoge nahi late hoga bola thik hai fir 1:30 ghnate aur wait kiya o aai aur ekdam change bike pe dur hoke baithi bola maine kya huwa fir kuchh bhi mai bolta uska ulta jawab deti maine bola kyu kar rahi ho subah to thik thi kisi ne kuchh kaha kya ho kya gaya hai tumko boli kuchh nahi aur bike sikhane laga fir mai job hi kuchh kehta ulta jawab deti to mujhe bura lagne laga mai chup ho gaya boli gai maine kaha chup ho jao kyu kar rahe ho aisa mujhe gussa ane laga to maine kaha chalo ghar pe fir boli bike chala ke er round aur ghumne lagi fir ulta boli mai gusse se bike se utar gaya aur baig niche fek diya bola chalo ghar pata nahi tumko kya huwa hai jabse aay ho subah achhi thi ab change ho gai ho kuchh bhi bol raha u ulta jwab de rahi ho mujhee gussa aa gya aur ladkiya aise hi hoti hai ab nahi bat karunga aisa bolte huve usko ghar pe laya ek din bat nahi ki o kisi se phone pe bate kar rahi thi mere hi bare me maine suna fir mai samjh chukka tha mai ab attached ho gaya hu nahi reh paunga iske bina to dusre din gaya aur sorry bola uchi awaj me bat karne ke liye aur fir ache se ghumne firne lage starting me subah uthate hi iska good morning ka msg ata adat ho gai mujhe fir main eek bar aur puchha koi hai tumhara to boli nahi hai maine bola 4 bar puchhne ke bad ekdam bindas ho gaya mai aur khudko free kar diya maine din bittate gay mai bahot attached ho gay bahot o bhi ho gaithi aur bolne lagi mai bhi attached hu fir boli telegram pe ek banda tha jo mujse bate karta uska mind bahot achha tha o chala gya bolke ki meri shadi hone wali hai ek ladki bahot garib hai aur mai use shadikar rha hu aisa boli aur o chla gya ek story ye sunai fir 15 din bad bolti hai ki mai kahu agar mera koi hai to maine bola ab kyu aisa bol rhahe ho pucha tha tumko maine pehle boli mera ek commit hai kisi ke sath o yaha nahi rehta maine bola mujhe nahi sunna agar insan ko pain ho rha hai aur tum do medicine lao ek jehar ho aur dura pain kilar tummujhe batao nahi aur maine pain killer ki jagah jear wali goli kha liye aur jehar ka asar ho gay mujhe tab mujhe tum bologe ki jeahr tha kyu khay to koi fayda hai uska ab kyu bol rahe meri personal life kisi ke sath share nahi karti maine kaha char bar puchha tha ab nahi sunna mjhe dhokhe me kyu rakha mujhe fir tumne mai bhi attached hogai hu mujhe par bata rahi hu aisa hai maine bola nahi sunna fir kuchh do mahine tak mujhe laga jhuth bol rahi hai din aur bite mai uski care karne laga jab office jati subah subah uthke uske liye chay nasta ban deta le jake khilata usko aur fir usko office chhodta pura din tumhare bina achha nahi lagta fir rat ko jata pic karta leke ghar ata fir rat ka khana bhi bana ke rakta aaygi thak ke to khake so jaygi thodi der mujhse bat karne ke bad roj ka ruting ho gaya mera fir ek din office nahi ja rhai thi to maine puchha gya huwa to usne nahi bataya aur ek fraind se chat kar rahi thi to maine dekh liya ki usse period hai aaj is liye nahi gayi mai bhag ke medical gaya vaha se uske liye ek pad choclte aur hot water bag leke aya fir pani garam kiya use diya usak massage kiya pair me pet me pith pe har 10 minat pe jata jab lagta usse pain hota huga aur pani garam karta fir kadha banya uske liye o bhi pilya usse is time bahot pain hota hai us din usse kuchh pain nai huwa pura din beetne ke bad kehti hai dikhava mat kar bahot hurt huwa mujhe mai udas ho gaya fir chala aya fir mai uske bina reh nahi pata fir kuchh din gujar gai kehti mai usse pyar nahi karti hu par commit kiya hai majbur hu usse karna padega tumse pyar karti hu tumse karna chahti hu pehle kyu nahi mile o mera sirf ek dost hai mai usse dost samjjti hu bas maine kaha thik hai jabtak ho ache se pyar se raho ad m mai dekh lunga mera mai tumse payar karta hu tumahare bina nahi reh sakta mai ek pal bhi mujhe tum chahiye ek din isi bat ke liye pyar karti aur dusre din sam bat bolta mai to ulta pulta bolke jhagde karke side hat jati mai rota rehta rat bhar balony me baith ke sochta rehta kya karu ki ye mere se ache se bevhe kare samjhegi ek din use ehsah hoga fir o samjh chuki thi mai mai ek pal bhi usk bina nahi reh sakta ek locket leke aya bola ye mai hu ise smbhal ke rakna to aur pyar se use pehna diya bola utarna mat usne turant utar diye aur bacho ke same mujhe dene lagi jao dedo jiske liye leke aay ho mujhe hurt huwa liya aur samne fek diya bolne lagi mujhe o pasand tha mujhe vahi chahiye leke aao nahi to bat nahi karungi puri jindai sam ke 7 baj rahe the jake dhudne lga paglo kit trah ki nahi milega to bat nahi karegi dhudta gya andhera ho gya nahi mila mere hath tak cut gay udhar jane ke wajah se aur fir boli aa jao fir mai aa gaya fir ham normal ho gay fir pyar se rehne lage jab bhi use koi problame hota mujhe lagta mujhe ho rha hai bhag ke medical jata dawa lata khilata bolti jabardasti kyu