I stare at the back of Luis’ head as he prostrates himself in front of me. I raise his head and embrace him. I touch his back to massage him. He shivers, but I keep on running my hands along his back, hoping that I am calming him down.
It works well with Gerald, every time he is too afraid of our father. He says he needs to man up and we both have no idea what our father means by that. We only have each other as we try to fill up whatever the other is missing.
When he wraps his arms around my body and pushes me towards the kitchen cabinets I know that it is working, so I continue rubbing his back.
“Luis,” I start. “You don’t need to marry me to monopolize my attention.”
His arms tighten around me, so I continue, “I love you very much. You are my first in everything. And in every minut
