Abused and Broken

Chapter 2

*Ember*  

As I walk to school, I start to think back over the last few years of my life. Dad left our pack, the pack I was born into, where I had friends, where I had family. We left because he couldn't risk Alpha John finding out what he had done, what he was currently doing. It was bad enough Alpha John was starting to realize the heavy drinking. Dad kept it together pretty well until the drinking started getting to his brain and while he had mom around to help make excuses for him. Once she was gone things got worse, real fast. I still remember that terrible night. The night mom died. She had an idea something was going on when I started to act differently.I blame myself. I should have been better at pretending that I was fine. Maybe she would not have come home that early. Maybe she wouldn't have found out.

Mom was at work when dad came up to the room, he was drunk again. I guess since I remind him of her he thought I was her. He walks up and sits on the bed. 

"Hey baby come here let me love you"

" Dad I'm not mom, I am Ember your daughter" 

"Shh it's okay just let me smell you"

He grabs me hard and brings me to his lap, pushing his face in the crook of my neck inhaling deeply, and rips off my shirt.

" You don't smell as good as her, but she isn't here, you will have to do"

He starts kissing on my neck and I shudder in disgust. I try to push him away.

" You little b***h, you need to know that when a male comes for you, you lose your choice!"

He smacks me hard across the face, knocking me to the floor, and starts kicking me. 

Next thing I know someone is bursting through the door. As I am falling deep into darkness.

" I knew it! I knew you were hurting our little girl. How could you do this, Thomas! I am going to get the Alpha!"

I don't know exactly what happened next. I heard fighting, things breaking, and growls.  When I woke up, I was told we were attacked by rogues. I know the truth though. It was my father. He ripped her apart. He killed her. He killed his mate. The one person that he was supposed to love. 

That day something broke inside of not only me but him. The beatings came often and harder for less and less reasons. That was about the time Alpha started catching on. Dad would lock me away every time a bruise was able to be seen. I went from a little girl who was always out, helping and having fun and laughing at the girl who was never around. When John started asking questions, dad made me pack up and we ran.

    When I get to school it's still too early for class but I walk inside and head to my locker. I am always here early so I can avoid people and the other wolves that go here. I have to keep to myself, if anyone finds out dad will kill them just like he did mom. 

I open my locker and pull out my spray that hides my scent from all other wolves,

"Stop using that s**t!" My wolf Willow yells in my head.

"No, we have to use this"

"No, you don't. It isn't fair" she whines

I block her out and make sure to spray myself and place it in my bag so I can reapply it when I need to. I walk to my first class. Ms.White always leaves her room unlocked, so I go in and find my desk. I decide to lay my head down for a bit. I slowly drift off to sleep with the sound of "Just a Dream" playing in my ear.

*Blaze*

Here we are another day. It will be the same as the day before it and the day before that. I understand it is important to go to school but to be honest what's more important is being the next Alpha, to do what I need to find my Luna, my mate, the one person who I can love and who can be loved by me. The one who will help me run the pack and just be my other half. 

I know it sounds weird, big bad Alpha like me wanting to find love. Most wolves are mated after their first shift and have some idea who they might be mated to before that. The moon Goddess does this so that we have our mate to grow into adulthood. Early on we are drawn to each other, being best friends. Then after the shift, things change. You become more. All of my packmates have found their mates. I am the future Alpha, and yet I have not found mine. I should be out trying to find mine, but now I am stuck here in school, on my father's orders.

I sigh as I walk into Ms.Whites. I start to walk to my seat when something hits me. It smells weird, but it has Haze, my wolf, stirring inside begging me to find it. I sniff the air trying to follow it. It smells like a mix of vanilla and maybe something floral? I can't place it. It's mixed with something that wasn't meant to be there, something weird. I am now walking past all the talking students. When I see someone in the back of the room with her hood up and head down... Is she asleep? I start to reach towards her. I want to see her, Haze does too. We need to see her to figure out why we are being pulled here. The scent is confusing but looking into her eyes should tell us why. I reach my hand out to tap her when someone drops a book. I turn at the noise. The next thing that hits me is the wafting of the scent as she runs out the door. Everyone starts to laugh, calling her weirdo, and I have no idea why this makes me so angry.