Abused and Broken

Chapter 7

* Ember*

The whole ride to his pack house we were silent. I wanted to speak to say something, I didn't know if I was allowed. With the hem on the sleeve to his hoodie, it smelled like him and was oddly comforted by that fact. I didn't understand why. Just like I didn't understand why it seemed like I had a choice to go with him, I knew I really didn't have one... I am sure that all this is just some sick trick to make me think that I can trust him, just so he can hurt me.

"He isn't like that, he cares didn't you see what he did to dad?" Willow is trying to convince me but too bad for her I can hear the fear in her own words that I am right.

"yea because you know him or his wolf all that well, you have known them just as long as I have." I remind her. 

Blaze's voice breaks through my thoughts.

"Mark clear out the main areas of the house would you? Just get everyone in an area where they won't bombard her when we walk up to her room. I don't think a crowd is going to do her any good. She can meet the pack when she is ready." Mark said something I really couldn't hear before Blaze spoke again.

" Thanks man" then he disconnects the call.

A few minutes later we pull up to the biggest house, no house isn't the word, this is a mansion. It's a beautiful plantation style mansion. It reminds me of Tara from Gone With the Wind. As I am sitting there with my mouth wide open in surprise, Blaze turns off the car and turns to me.

"Hey so, umm, I can show you to your room or if you want I can have Angie, Mark the guy who came with me tonight's mate show you.It is your choice, Really" He says it so soft and what almost sounds like hope, it almost seems real. I want him to take me even though I am unsure what will happen. I don't want to have to meet anyone else or be asked a question.

"Can you show me please? If it's not an issue" I hear my own voice and it's small and shaky. I look up at him and I see those ice blue eyes light up as a smile creeps across his face. I instantly look down back to my lap. 

"Yes I most definitely can." and with that he gets out the car and walks over and opens my car door, offering me a hand to help me out. I hesitantly take his hand, it is surprisingly soft and the skin contact makes my hand tingle.

I follow him up to the house, he opens the door and we walk in. I see that the main foyer has been cleared just like asked. As we make our way up the stairs my body aches and my sore legs become weak and wobbly. I must have made some kind of noise, beacuse from behind me, I hear Blaze

"are you okay? Does it hurt too much to walk?"

I turn to answer him and my legs completely give out. All I can do is close my eyes and brace for the pain of falling half way down a flight of stairs. But the pain never comes. I open my eyes to find myself safely in his arms. He caught me before I could tumble to the ground. Tingles ignite throughout my body, I can feel his head lean down as if to smell my hair. I really hope that isn't what he is doing, it probably smells so gross. He speaks into my ear.

"If it is okay with you, can I carry you? It might hurt less if I do"

I almost didn’t hear him, my head was swimming. I can't manage to use my words, so I nod my head. In a second he is bending down and swooping my knees up, gently picking me up and continues to keep walking me to I guess what will be my new room. He opens the door and leaves it open as he walks and sets me down on the bed. Without saying a word he walks to what I figure out is the bathroom and starts the bath. 

"There is a bath running for you, I have some clothes you can change into...." He pauses and rubs the back of his neck with a shy smile on his face.'' They are my clothes, we weren't exactly prepared and we didn't know what size you are. They are just sweats that you can adjust and a shirt... but we will get you some of your own when you feel up to it. Or I can send someone to get you some. Anyway not the point right now." he chuckles to himself, he is kinda cute when he rambles." take a bath, relax a bit, I will get you something to eat and bring it up when you are done. Maybe I can join you and we can talk a bit?"

I nod my head, he now has a wide smile as he turns to walk out of the room. He shuts the door behind him and I get up and walk to the bathroom. Holy s**t it's as big as my whole house. I swear the bath tub is not a bath tub, it's a hot tub big enough for six people, and not tiny people either. I am careful to avoid the mirror. I really don't want to look at myself. I peel off my clothes and step into the bath. I see that he has left body wash, shampoo and everything I need on the side of the tub. As i sink into the tub, it becomes very clear I have some open areas from my dad tonight. I wonder how many of these will scar. Ugh... more ugly marks to add to my already ugly self, great. At this point I wonder why the hell he brought me here. He can't possibly actually want me. Maybe he just wants a play thing just like dad, I guess that is kind of what I am good for. Maybe he knows that and just thinks my dad broke me in for him. I start to cry. There is no point in hiding my tears or holding them back. At this point I've left one person who loved me for another who will just love me the same. I saw the damage he did to dad. Then he called me his, it's only a matter of time before I get punished for letting someone else touch me, no matter how i couldn't actually fight him off. I can't live like this anymore...but I guess I don't really have a choice right now.