Chapter 18Jack I checked him out and we both knew it. I checked him out and we both knew it. The way I felt half-panicked about doing that made it more than clear how deep I was with this thing, with him. And how f*****g wrong it was. He was a kid. He had a perfectly fine boy of his age in the house who he was physically close to which I knew could lead to being even closer. I needed to let the boys be and just…Ugh. The news of River and Ben’s engagement was wonderful. They were good people, and from what Ben had told me about their past, I was so happy to hear they’d overcome the obstacles. The kittens were cute, too. The way they joked about being dads now was endearing as f**k. I felt odd around them though. Not the kittens, but the happy couples around me. It hit me Friday night