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"You should have gave up when you still could " .. I rose up from the ground spitting blood .. I stand up straighter .. knees buckling.. face aching .. but I stand up .. He barks a laugh " so stubborn huh" I bring my fists in front of me ready to hit again .. With a swift move he twists my wrists dropping me again to the muddy ground.. I swear I heard a bone c***k in my navel .. I stifle a cry .. " c'mon Eleanor! Get up !" He yells at my face .. I can't.. I can't.. I'm aching everywhere .. "Kael ! Enough !" A very feminine voice called from the other side of the fighting ring .. Lilith.. She runs to me .. " I'm fine .." I breathe .. Her sweet dark brown eyes soften then her face twists to a promise of murder for her brother .. " you both are f*****g mad.. how could you hit a girl like that ! .. and you " turning back to me " you'll get us into trouble !" " she asked for it .. " She glances at me for a moment longer.. " c'mon Elean let's clean you up .. we have work today " she drops her gaze to the floor..i stood up knowing exactly what she means .. a job of shame .. " don't let them get under your skin ladies.. and if you need help just shout my name " he winks at me .. " prick " I hiss at him .. He laughs " learn to protect that pretty face of yours " Lilith groans and snatches my arm .. dragging me out of the ring .. Our walk back home so full of unspoken words .. lilith and kael are both like brothers to me .. we were raised up together in a house of whores.. We are orphans.. one of the ladies took us and raised us .. we worked there as children.. we clean dishes .. dirty laundry.. but now.. now that we grown up .. things changed .. lilith grew up to be a soft beauty .. brown hair with matching brown eyes .. soft pale skin .. a thin frame .. she's like a blooming flower in a field of rocks .. she's pretty and sweet .. her brother .. well kael is being himself.. he was bullied and laughed at and abused for being raised in house of w****s .. he's a strong male .. a very tough one .. he gained honor in the fighting ring .. he never loses a fist to fist fight .. never .. he's got piercing emerald eyes .. golden skin ..brown shoulder length hair .. They're very similar.. it's very obvious that they're siblings .. but for me .. I'm nothing like them .. I'm nothing like everyone.. They call me the wicked beauty .. Well I gained a title at least .. I have a strong body thanks to Kael .. I'm so disturbingly tall to be a soft girl .. Long legs .. but that's not the matter .. It's all about my sharp golden eyes .. And my snow white hair .. The owner of the house dyed my hair black for several times .. but it doesn't last .. So I'm always wearing a cloak .. Or I get my ass kicked.. We serve in the house the king' s men .. some lords .. some wasted manwhores.. We dance for them .. we serve them drinks as much as they want .. but now that I'm 18 years old not actually 18 but my birthday is tomorrow which is winter solstice .. I'll be asked for more .. My name is Eleanor .. with no family name .. just Eleanor daughter of the house of pleasure..i belong to nowhere "Girls ! You're late .. " Mage the owner's wife a fat ugly creature that cheats on her man but she saved us from starving to death .. She gets us ready for the night .. " the showers are ready get in and I'll bring you some clean clothes for both of you .. " She sizes me up from head to two .. cringing at my look .. " were you sleeping with pigs or what ?!" I'm not allowed to respond to that . So I shut up .. She storms to me standing a few inches from me .. I can smell that disgusting perfume of hers .. cinnamon.. I hate cinnamon.. I try not to gag .. She stands on her toes to reach my hood .. She snatches it .. and clicks her tongue. " we need to dye your hair again !" Her voice piercing my ears .. " and look at you ! .. did you get yourself into a fight with that i***t again !?" I shake my head .. I stare at Lilith.. hands clutching her simple velvet soft pink dress.. chewing on her lip . I stare down at myself.. dirty ripped leather pants .. black boots .. a wool shirt .. A red cloak. Mage pushes me into the bathroom .. Then drags lilith behind me .. " you dye her hair .. then you both clean yourself .. you have one hour " She slams the door .. Lilith opens her mouth and laughs... She falls to the ground clutching her belly .. " what is it ?" I get the urge to laugh .. " she .. she looks like a mushroom in that dress .." She kept on giggling even after dyeing my hair .. and during the shower I always let lilith clean my back .. She scrubs my back softly with a clothe . She slides her finger across my back .. she always does it .. and every time she asks about it .. about the huge scar .. three long slices .. as if a beast ran his claws on my back .. other small slices on my arms .. Where I got that big scar .. I don't know .. Is it a birth mark ? .. it might be .. Mage got me every kind of herbs and treatments to hide those scars but everything failed .. " underneath that beautiful body lies a scarred devil " that's what she once said .. I was 5 years old when Mage saved me from the streets .. from being sold as a slave... 2 years later .. she saved Lilith and Kael .. Both of them younger than me .. Mage and her husband never stood a chance to get pregnant because of her disease.. I guess that's why she saved us .. and fed us .. I'll always respect her .. I'll always be grateful for her .. but I'll never concider her as my mother.. I've never called her mother .. And never will . Until I find my own . " why do you keep hurting yourself Eleanor ?" Lilith asked while cleaning my brused face .. I avoid looking at her face .. Knowing very well that she's still staring at my eyes .. " I know you asked Kael for training but .. everytime you get bruised .. you're a girl Eleanor " I stand up quickly.. " I'm nothing like you Lilith .. and .. and being a girl doesn't mean that I should never train ! .. you saw what they so to women here .. this kingdom.. those wicked men .. they hit women .. they treat us like dogs .. " I stop myself .. I listen closely if anyone was near and heard me .. I clear my throat .. " Lilith .. we're grown up now .. and being in a place like this one .. it's not in our advantage .. " She frowns a flood of emotions flashed on her face ..eyes glassy " Lilith .. I will get us out of here .. I promised you .. you .. me and Kael .. we will make it out .. I saved some money from serving wine a few days ago .. " I kneel down before her ..i take her small hands in mine .. she's shaking and cold .. Lowering my voice .. " I've heard that beautiful town houses are being sold in the northern borders .. There will be snow .. huge mountains.. running rivers small villages.. they say that another life lies there .. we will go there Lilith " Her eyes are watery now .. Her voice is more quit to be a whisper .. " Eleanor .. it's not that easy and you know it .. " She shakes her head and stands up .. " Eleanor listen .." She storms out of the bathroom .. I breathe slowly to keep my rage inside .. Breathe .. just breathe .. everything is fine .. I take the clothes Mage left for us .. A black dress that covers my entire body.. arms.. chest .. similar to those I wear .. always to cover my body.. always to stay away from being noticed .. And a fresh clean red cloak Even though I dyed my hair .. but nothing can change my eye color.. I stare at the mirror in front of me .. I drop the hood back .. To stare at the creature glancing back at me .. eyes wider than they should be .. sharp like a cat .. cheekbones high.. tight jaw line .. full red lips ... and disturbingly straight white teeth .. That dress is so dark that I can't make out the outline of my body under the cloak.. tight on the arms and chest and neck and a long loose simple skirt ... I wear black boots under it that reach my knees . I comb my hair to a simple braid .. I put my hood back on .. only a glimpse of golden eyes flash under it .. " Eleanor!" Mage's voice shrieks from the other room .. I storm out .. The house is already filling with men .. music playing .. and women dancing .. My blood boils everytime I see this .. " Eleanor!" I turn to the voice .. Lydsandra .. I smile at her sweet voice.. She holds to me a couple of cups filled to the top with red blood wine .. " hey do me a favour and give these to those men at the corner " I take the cups.. I turn to the corner and see two men seated there .. hoods on.. i couldn't see there faces in the dim candle light.. As I approach to their table.. one of them whispers to the other .. and he turns immediately my way .. I only glimpse a pair of beautiful weird shade of blue eyes.. " there you go gentlemen " I put both cups .. and turn to leave .. The place is buzzing with people and music .. Where's Lilith by the way .. I shouldn't have pushed her that way .. " hey! Collin you're participating in the games tomorrow right !?" I turn to find a bunch of men seated around a table they don't look like citizens.. " yeah! Sure and I'll be the King's knight " a thin blonde man shouts back .. eyes green glittering with excitement.. The group explodes into laughter .. " Eleanor.. you okay ?" Lysandra came back .. she takes a seat beside me on a fluffy couch .. " have you seen Lilith ?" " I ... I'm not sure but last time I saw her she was dancing and.." " dancing!?" I stand up quickly.. " what do you mean ?" She shrugs.." Mage asked her to dance tonight for the kings men .. and then she simply disappeared.." No no no no.. please not this not Lilith .. I run to the second floor .. pushing drunk men and women out of my way ... Find .. find her .. I start banging on doors .. some we're open .. I run inside to find men and women cuddling some fucking.. they shout to my face .. What's wrong with me .. Lilith.. Lilith.. Someone takes me by the arm .. Mage .. she's furious .. she yells and shouts to my face but I hear nothing of her words ... I push her aside .. She falls down .. and i don't bother to help her .. I walk to the last room unchecked.. Kicking the door with every strength left In me .. I gasp quick enough to hear my lungs stretching to receive air .. One .. two .. three .. Three soldiers .. And Lilith.. She's crying .. She's scared.. My head can't seem to stop aching and spinning .. I see red .. Elean? .. Elean wake up my child ? Soft female voice called .. Whose voice is this .. I turn around me .. ELEANOR ! RUN MY CHILD ! RUN! A male's voice now . . I'm hallucinating.. I'm too hot .. I'm not okay .. I think I'm falling to the ground .. " Elean!.. someone help her !" A bliding light flashes through my eyes .. I blink and blink.. The stranger's weird eyes are looking at me from above .. I blink again and I'm swallowed by darkness .