Loving the Doctor

Chapter 4 - Seeing a former student

Chapter 4 – Seeing a former student

Jessica Holding

POV

Here I am in the ER because my daughter broke her arm on the first day of school. Of all the things that had happened today, honestly this was the one that broke my heart the most my little girl was surely crying out in pain. All of the things rushing through my mind had me on edge, I just wanted to see Anna, I wanted to make sure she was okay, the lawyer in me wanted to sue them for all they’re worth, the mother in me was worried about what Adam’s family might do with this information when they find out she got hurt while in my care. All these things were running through my mind as I made my way to the hospital.

Rushing into the hospital, I asked the nurse where Anna was, she told me she was in room across the hall.

I ran to her room to make sure she was okay, but my little girl was all smiles. She was smiling at the elderly nurse talking to her. They were talking about a new cartoon she was into and how everyone at school had the new backpack.

Her teacher called me into the hallway to speak about what happened. She then proceeded to explain to me how Anna tried to jump on the jungle gym while it was wet from yesterday's rain. All that was going through my mind was how the hell did my daughter get to the jungle gym. Where were they when she was climbing the damn thing? I did not voice my thoughts no; the teacher then informs me she needs to head back to the school, and she hopes Anna gets well soon. She is acting like Anna had the damn flu, she got hurt in her care and she acted like it was Anna’s fault.

It took every single cell in my body not go off on her. I could not understand how this had happened. Was it the school or was it Anna running off on her own. I knew my daughter I know it is not something she would do when she’s in new places she’s usually shy and it takes her a while to get to know people.

I lean against the wall out in the hallway and take a deep breath to calm myself. I just was having a hard time coping with everything that has happened today. It was becoming overwhelming; I could barely catch my breath today. I was in over my head. Two months back and one day kicked my ass. The first day of seeing the man I have loved since I was five years old and knew he was the one for me. Damon has always told me he would make me his wife. I would be his women since I was five years old, our parents used to laugh it off, but I always knew he would be my husband one day, he always made promises to provide a better life for us once he became a doctor. He wanted to be a doctor so he could provide for me. Damon always looked up to his uncle, he was an EMT, Damon wanted to be one as well, but he changed his mind so he could provide for us.

I closed my eyes; I could feel a headache coming in. I was having one of those days. I was honestly so drained from today I could not take anymore. I feel like I must have been a serial killer in my past life to get this bad karma in one day.

I walked back into the room Anna was still chatting happily with the nurse. The woman introduced herself as nurse Nash, her name was Sasha Nash, her surname was Nash, she has been a nurse for a really long time, it explains why she was so good with Anna.

Once I am sure Anna is okay, I go to the cafeteria to grab me a coffee. I walk out of the hospital. I did not smoke but with the way my day is going I would do anything for a smoke.

Two nurses were standing off on the side smoking. I took a sip of my coffee, sighing. Seeing Damon has been something else. He looked so good, there is no way he would be interested in me. I knew that. I was a mom; I was not the teenager he fell in love with all those years ago. I have not seen Damon in almost twelve years. The last time I saw him we made a promise to be faithful to each other. I promised Damon I would come back to Chicago; I would come back, and we would get married and build our future together.

I’ve secrets that could come back to haunt me. I did not want to be the reason to cause Damon pain, but I was not ready, I could not come back to him, we did not have cell phones back then. Everything is so much easier now than it was back then…

And then there was Adam… One drunken night and one of the greatest gifts later, I betrayed the man I love, I have never stopped loving Damon. I did not care that Adam cheated or that he never tried to sleep with me. I could not care less what he wanted to stick his d**k into. All I cared about was Damon and Dianna. I would never trade my daughter for anything but at the same time I wish I did not have to betray Damon. I remember the look in his eyes this morning when he saw Anna, the hurt, pain, and anger. He hated me, he hated me for what I did. I know I hurt him, my mistakes hurt him, it broke his heart. All Damon ever did was love me. He was there for the darkest days of my life. He held me when my father died. He wiped my tears away. He has always been there for me through the good times and the tough times. He was a good man. Without Damon I knew I would not be a lawyer today. He encouraged me to follow my dreams. He told me I could be whatever I wanted. He promised me the world and I broke his heart instead.

"You know he has the biggest c**k I've ever seen. But damn he is a selfish lover. This morning, he takes me into the storage room. I give him the best blow of his life and afterwards he winks at me and leaves. Like what about my needs?" one of the nurses complained

I do not even know why I am listening to their conversation; oh, I do not know maybe because it is not as pathetic as my own thoughts. I was still pining over my ex, funny how my ex-husband is never even a thought in my mind, it is funny how when I found out Adam was cheating on me while I was pregnant, I felt relieved, I was happy he did not care for me. I did not want him to love me.

"You're lucky you're blonde, I heard he doesn't go near brunettes. He will not even look my way." the brunette complains.

I try to ignore their conversation; it was a private conversation. But I just could not help myself. I wanted to hear more.

"He might be thirty but God Dammit Dr King is so damn fine." the blonde says in a dreamy tone.

My head snaps to them. There is no way. There is no way in hell. There is no way they are speaking about Damon. They cannot be speaking about Damon. I know Damon better than anyone else. It cannot be my Damon. There has to be another Dr King at this hospital. One being Damon has never been a selfish lover, two being Damon was never a screw it and leave it kind of guy. Damon is one of the best men I have ever come across. He would have moved the ends of the earth for me if I asked him too. Damon was a good guy. The guy they are describing is not him. It cannot be.

"We all know Damon King is one of the hottest doctors in this place, but the man has issues. I have seen him in a bar last month with his brothers he only looked at the blondes. He tilts his glass at her, and she came running. I wanted ride the Damon King express so badly I nearly dyed my hair last year before I got married. If I were not married right now, I would have dyed my hair blonde and slap make-up on my face and walk up to him in a bar, so he does not recognise me. I want to experience what he is like in bed. I bet he likes it fast and hard." the brunette nurse complained

That confused me, did she or did she not want Damon? Hearing them speak about him as if he were a piece of meat reminded me of high school where all the girls were all over him and his brothers. The King brothers looked nothing like their fathers they looked like their mother’s father. I only know this because I saw pictures of him, he died years before Damon was born.

Oh, and then it hit me like a freaking freight train. I cannot believe this was the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with. He promised me the world and to hear he does not even look at brunettes which I obviously was. Was I that repulsive that he hates all brunettes now?

Had I hurt Damon so badly that he turned into someone his not? Or was this him all along and I am trying to take the blame for something that had nothing to do with me. My heart kept telling me this was not Damon, but my brain kept telling me he is just like Adam and if we had gotten married, he would have been the same. I was losing my mind.

Somehow deep down I knew Damon would never do that to me, but I still had that doubt in the back of my mind. That is when I realized Adam had screwed with my head. I did not realize he did until this moment. Even from New York he is still able to f**k with my head. He just f*****g wormed his way into my head.

I roll my eyes and make my way back to my daughter's room. They had given her a semi-private room. She was waiting for her cast. They were running tests and doing an X-ray.

"Professor Holding" Someone calls out.

I turn to see my former student from New York.

I smile and walk up to him. "Winston." I give him a hug.

He was one of my top students three years ago.

"How have you been?" he asks me.

I smile brightly. "I'm good. How are you doing?" I ask him

He smiles. "I'm good. How's Anna?" he asks.

All of my students loved Anna on days I couldn't get a sitter because Adam slept with them, I had to bring her to work with me.

"She's good. She got into a little accident at school. So, she needs to get a cast broken arm" I cringe slightly. It sounded painful I could not imagine how much pain Anna would have been in until they brought her here.

"Oh, shame man. I hope she is okay." he says sincerely.

Winston was a good kid, a good student.

"She's okay... So, are you married? Dating someone, or got a child?" I ask him teasingly

There was a bet going around campus that Winston would be married to his work and not a woman. He got the best grades and never gave the women in class a single look. A lot of the men in my class would always make fun of the way he would act around women. He would always ask for me to change partners if it was a woman to a male student. So, I stopped pairing him with women. I did not know if he was shy or if he just did not like being paired with them.

"I'm married actually, I'm actually here to pick her up." he smiles

He looked genuinely happy. I was genuinely happy for him.

I will not lie and say that did not come as a complete shock to me, because it actually through me for a loop. "Congratulations Winston. I am so happy for you" I say smiling brightly

Winston was the type of student who handed in assignments two days after I handed them out. He got straight A's on all on my tests and pop quizzes. He was a bright student. I knew he would make a great lawyer one day.

He nods smiling brightly.

The brunette nurse from outside walks up to us and hugs him.

"Honey, I want you to meet my old law professor. Professor Holding this is my wife Presley." he introduced us.

I smile but took in the woman in front of me, she was raving on and on about how Damon would not notice her when she had a husband as good as Winston.

I would give anything for a man to look at me the way he looks at her. The way Damon used to look at me.

I plaster a fake smile on my face "Please call me Jessica. I'm not your professor anymore Winston." I say, feeling a little guilty that I am ignoring her. But she somehow made me jealous and being so close to Damon.

Winston nods he gives his wife a kiss in the cheek and asks her "Ready to go?"

She smiles and nods. "It was nice meeting you." she says

I nod. I give her a tight smile. "You too."

She walks off.

"It was great running into you. How long are you in Chicago for?" he asks

"Oh, actually live in Chicago now. I am from here originally. I was feeling home sick, and I decided to move back her over the summer." I lie through my teeth.

I came back for Damon.

He smiles and nods. "Then we should have dinner some time. I have a few cases I would love to pick your brain on" he says

I nod. "Of course, anytime."

"See you around." he hugs me one last time before walking away.

I smile as I watch him walk away. I always knew Winston had a bright future ahead of him, he has made me proud. Married and has made a name for himself, I wonder at which law firm he practices. I always imagined him starting his own law firm.

I turn to go to Anna's room when I spot him. He looks at me his lips pulled into a thin line. He shakes his head and stalks off.

What was that all about? Has he been watching me the entire time? How long was he standing there before he walked away?