We have a wonderful time at the beach. As always. The sun heats up the surface, allowing us to stay a little longer without catching a cold. Loraine turns into a child when she is in the water, she can play for hours in there. What is striking is that these last weeks she always avoids being held intimately by me. No s*x in the water like before, I can't even touch her breasts. She still kisses me lightly, but that's all there is to it for me. This is mentally exhausting me immensely, I long for her like crazy, it's been weeks since I last had i*********e with her. My body is screaming to be satisfied by her, but the attraction seems far from mutual. I know she didn't have s*x all the time she was with me in the hospital. But unlike her usual behavior, she doesn't approach me either. O