Forgotten

Chapter 14

Today is the day, I’m going to go to his apartment. I’m so nervous. The whole day I’ve had butterflies bussing around in my stomach. It’s Friday, so I will be going home with Liara. I’ll get ready there and then I Jacin will come and get me as soon as he gets of from work. I’m going to cook for him so we will be going grocery shopping. I couldn’t wait for the school bell to ring anymore. Yes I’m excited, nervous and completely terrified. We decided…well I decided that it would better if he wasn’t seen at the school just in case it somehow gets back to my father that a guy on a bike is picking me up. I’m not ready to explain that, but I did promise Jacin that at some point I would introduce him to my father. Maybe when I’m done with High school and have more of a say for myself. I know it’s pathetic that I’m scared to tell my father about the guy I love…and yes I do love him. I haven’t told him yet due to the fact that he is older than me. I’m scared of being rejected by him because I might be moving to fast. I’ve thought of times to tell him, but I keep chickening out. I know this must be real love, if it wasn’t real I would be so nervous about telling him. It means so much to me, he means so much to me. I hope that once I tell my father and he sees just how much I love him he would allow us to be together. I also know that it’s just wishful thinking on my side. The bell rang so I jumped up having already packed up most of my things, I threw it in my bag and rushed out of the school waiting for Liara at her car. She came strolling to her car and I felt frustrated at the slow pace she was taking. We didn’t have the last period together, she was talking to some people while I felt like my skeleton was trying to jump out of my skin. When she saw me she unlocked the car for me and I get in so long while she finished her conversation.

“Sorry I was talking to this cute new boy in my class. Honestly cute doesn’t even start to describe him. I’m hoping that he’ll ask me out and now that I’m not hanging with you so much I have time for a guy, maybe we can even double date…don’t worry I’ll swear him to secrecy” I instantly felt like a horrible friend. On the one side I felt bad because I was dragging her along with me all the time, so much so that she possibly felt like she didn’t have time for boys because I didn’t have time for boys. Then there is the other possibility that I am now not spending enough time with her and she is feeling neglected. See I am a horrible friend.

“The two of us should have a girl day soon. We can do some facial and binge on amazingly, but totally healthy food and watch silly romances till we laugh ourselves to sleep.” I offered. She looked over at me before she focused on the road again.

“Silly girl I didn’t mean anything by it. I do not feel neglected and I enjoyed our time together. I guess I’m a bit jealous. Seeing you and Jacin has made me wonder if I should be in a committed relationship. I’ve always kissed and told you everything, but I’ve never felt the need to just see one guy.” I felt a little bit better now that she explained what she meant, but I still think we should see more of each other.

“Alright, but still we need a girls night to gossip about boys. We’ve never done that before, because I’ve never had a boy to gossip about.” She just laughed at me, but I will make a point of doing this with her. We got to her house and we went straight to her room where I have been hoarding clothes. It would be suspicious if I packed clothes everyday. I choose a velvet dark blue t-shirt crop top with high waist blue jeans and ankle black velvet boots.

“Just so that you know I’m going to start wearing some of your clothes, I feel it is only fair since it is taking more than half of my closet space.” I didn’t mind at all we are about the same size I’m just more blessed in the breast department.

“I don’t mind ar all go crazy.” I told her as I got dressed. I took out my hair band and quickly straightened my hair before re-applying my make up. I needed to look cute today since it is our month anniversary. I put in some hoop earring. I sat on the bed and talked with Liara while I waited for Jacin. When I heard his bike I jumped up and raced to the front door, way to eager. Playing calm and collected is just not my thing. He had parked and was on his way to the door when I rushed to him, jumping in his arms.

“Happy anni…” He tried saying, but I crashed my lips against his. His kisses are addicting. It feels like such a long time since we kissed .

“I take it that you missed me.” He said laughing at me as we broke the kiss. I hit his arm play fully.

“You missed me too admit it!” I said looking up at him.

“I really missed you. Days feel longer without you and nights feel endless.” I blushed. He can be so romantic when he wants to be. The words ‘I love you’ just wants to slip out of my mouth.

“Love birds, you need to get going before my parents get home. They are cool, but not so cool to hide this secret relationship from your parents.” Liara said standing by the door. I knew she was right so I took Jacin’s hand and started leading him to the bike. Knowing him, he would stay longer in the hopes of being caught. It irritates me.

We got on the bike and rushed off. I’ll never get tired of riding on the bike it’s so exciting. I don’t even care if my hair gets messed up. We drove to a supermarket that is near his apartment. It’s the same one where we ran into each other again. It’s our supermarket I guess. He pushed the trolley while I loaded it up. I took some olive oil, red bell peppers, yellow bell peppers, peas, carrots, mushrooms, broccoli, corn and chestnuts. Then I got some soy sauce, garlic, brown sugar, sesame oil, chicken broth and cornstarch. Lastly I got some green onions and sesame seeds.

“Is all that for one meal?” He asked concerned at the quantity I was loading in.

“Yes, but I’m not going to use all of it at least then you’ll have some vegetables in your fridge.” I’ve noticed that he isn’t the heartiest eater.

“Don’t worry I’ll make some dessert too.” I told him when I saw him still eyeing all the veggies. Next I got us some steak and then everything I’ll need to make a cake: flour, sugar, canola oil, eggs, milk, cocoa powder, baking powder, salt and vanilla essence. Then we went to check out.

“Why do we have two bottles of oil?” He asked holding the olive oil and the canola oil up for me to see, like I made a mistake.

“One is for cooking and one is for baking it’s different oils.” I told him as I took it out of his hand and placed it back down. He just shook his head. When it got to paying both of us took out or cards.

“I’m treating you, I’ll pay.” I told him, but he grabbed my card and gave his to the lady. He then handed mine back after he had paid. This was something else we fought about. He believes as the man in the relationship he needs to pay, but I feel like I drag him along with me so I need to pay. We have settle that we make turns to pay. I feel bad, since I know that he has a limited amount of money and everything I want to do is an extra expense for him, but I’ve never voiced my concerns. I don’t want to bring up money in this relationship since when we met it bothered him that I came from money. Which is also why I started to take Liara’s advice and started placing add space on her review blog. I got a few customers and with the help of Liara’s mother who is a lawyer she drew up a contract that makes them pay up front for a month. They need to sign a new contract every six months or there is a cheaper option that is for a year, but for that option to get the discount they needed to pay at least half the instalment. I even opened a separate bank account for my ‘business’. The whole purpose being to use my own money. I thought it might get Lyssa of my back when she sees that I don’t spend as much on the bank statements.

We finished up with our shopping and head over to his apartment. I was so excited. I felt like bouncing up and down as he pulled up at his place. He held the two helmets in one hand and held my hand in his other as he led me up to his apartment. He only let go of my hand when he started to unlock the door.

“Jacin…” Someone said from the door behind us. I turned to see a girl in barely any clothes. She was wearing sleepwear, but It was mostly lace.

“Oh you have company.” She sounded disappointed and I felt a sharp pang of jealousy. If she likes Jacin, I can’t imagine that I stand a chance. She is gorgeous with her long legs, great body, risky clothes and beautiful face. I’m only a high school student.

“Could you help me, my tap is doing that annoying dripping again.” She said leaning against the door her whole body on display. Does he often go over there when she is dressed like that? I wonder if anything has happened between them?

“Sorry I can’t tonight. This is my girlfriend Alysson, we are celebrating out month anniversary.” I blushed, but also felt so honored that he introduced me instead of talking like I wasn’t even here. He turned and unlocked the door not even sparing her a second glance. I loved it. I didn’t feel jealous anymore I really need to stop being so insecure.

We went inside and I immediately loved his place it was perfect. It wasn’t to big, but it had everything you needed. Big places are overrated.

“Your place is so perfect.” I gushed. I moved over to the kitchen, it was a great kitchen and I knew that I would love making food her. He took the backpack of his back and started to unpack everything I bought.

“Do you want me to put on some music?” I nodded as I started to sort everything out. He switched on the TV and put it on a music channel before coming back to me.

“Okay put me to work.” I was shocked he wanted to help me. I started to rinse the veggies and then I had him peeling them while I put the rest in his fridge, that was rather empty, he clearly eat even worse than she thought. He probably lives on things like cup of soup and noodles. She intends to change that. She would love to cook for him as often as she could.

I started dancing as I was frying all the yummy veggies together along with the garlic. Jacin came up from behind me. His arms circled around me, his thumbs stroking my exposed skin as it wound around me. I felt my stomach flutter. He then placed his head on my shoulder, whispering in my ear.

“It smells so great. I can’t wait to taste it.” He gave me goosebumps and thought I was sure I was ready for, naughty thoughts about tasting. My mouth felt dry. He started to laugh seeing as I had froze. He pulled away before I burned our dinner. I pulled it of the warm plate and move on to the sauce. In a bowl I whisked together the soy sauce, the brown sugar, sesame oil, chicken broth and cornstarch. He was sitting at the one bar chair watching me as I cooked. After mixing the sauce I poured it over the veggies and placed it on the warm plate again, stirring it all together, mixing it well. In another pan I started the steak that I had cut in tiny strips, I didn’t want the meat and veggies taste to merge together. I spiced it up and fried them nicely. Once they were done I add it to the veggies and lastly I garnished all of it with some onions and sesame seeds.

In between all of that I made chocolate flavoured cup a cake then I scooped all the cake out of the cups and mashed it all together. Between some cling wrap I rolled it out. Once it was nice at flat, I spread some caramel treat over it, then I rolled the cake up and cut it in circular slices. We then sat down to eat. Jacin kept singing my praises, he even moaned with his bites. He loved the veggies. Even though he was so cynical about it before.

“You should do cooking videos on your blog. I think people would love it and it would pull more attention to it, you could make replicas of food you reviewed.” It was a good idea, but there was no way I would be able to do that at home. I’m not allowed to cook there. At the end of the night we climbed out of his window and sat on the fire escape with hot chocolate that I made on the stove and looked out at the stars.

“I love you.” He whispered in my ear from behind. He was clear about his feelings. He didn’t say I think or I might. He said it as clear as day that he loves me. I turned around and looked at him.

“I love you too.” He placed his hand on my cheek as I reached up placing my lips against his. The kiss was soft and sweet. I loved everything about him. His touches, his smile and especially his kisses.

“Do you really need to go home? Can’t you stay.” I wanted more than anything to stay with him. This moment right here felt so right, so peaceful. I didn’t want to ruin this moment.

“I wish I could, but I can’t. I didn’t arrange it with my father.” I said sadly cuddling deeper into his arms.

“I can’t believe you let them rule your entire life like this, don’t you feel suffocated by it all. You are constantly worrying about them. And what they will say or do.” He was speaking the truth, but he forgets that I am still basically just a teenager. I’m basically reliant on them for my basic needs. They are also my only family.

“That is how family works. They worry about each other. They are just looking out for me, but please lets not talk about them, let’s just enjoy the time we still have together.”