I woke up in a mood worst that the one I went to bed with. I was angry and cranky although I suspect that the crankiness was as a result of not sleeping well which was as a result of Orel not being closed to me, two nights in a row and I am already feeling as if someone is going to attack me in my sleep and nobody will protect me. I know that I should at least try and put everything behind me and get Orel to sleep in his side of the bed this night but my pride would not allow it, if it means that I have to bring up the issue to Orel then I rather have sleepless nights until whenever he deems is right to return to his bed.
My mood was rubbing off on Dyane who came to help me get dressed, today I wore one of my finer gowns which not only send across the message that I didn’t want to tra
