CHAPTER 22: Rivalry
I refused to have dinner after what happened yesterday at the kitchen hall. Going back there makes me overthink and feel down. It reminds me of what Xander, my husband, said about me being boring to him. Am I clinging to him too much? Do I need to get reminded to wear more or wear less? Is there something wrong with me? Am I not good enough? This is one of the most depressing moments of my life. Sometimes no matter how you love yourself you can not stop to ask yourself about your value. As a woman, lover, and being a queen of a kingdom. It's just a simple word, but it can destroy you.
What makes me more depressed is that Xander did not sleep with me tonight. I waited for him to lay beside me and make things right but he never came. I hope he slept well in his office.
