My Teacher's Secret Touch

Chapter Seven - Avoiding Me?

"so... You cleaned up here Perfect. I was told by the campus nurse that I vomited.. " Hannah said as soon as we walked back into our dorm.

"yeah I did.. I was worried about you." I said truthfully.

She sighed and sat on her bed. I put her bag on the floor and helped her lay back a bit.

"I am sorry okay.. I knew that I probably gave you a fright. It will never happen again I promise."

"tell me what's going on.. For real." I said sitting at the corner of her bed.

She swallowed, "so my parents are crazy rich.. And that's all they care about. Money and making more money."

I nodded my head trying to add this up with everything she told me, "so, like they don't pay too much attention to you? "

She nodded her head, "they don't. I mean I guess I was just a distraction or a set back to their plans. Hence they send me as far away from them as they can. I'm originally from Cape Town you know."

My jaw was on the floor. From the best place to Pretoria.. I mean Pretoria wasn't bad but it wasn't Cape Town. I couldn't believe this was her life. I thought everything with her was just perfect and she was just being a spoilt brat for drinking too much. But it wasn't. It was an escape from her life. It was so sad...

I decided to share a bit part of me too since she was sharing some personal things about herself too, "I.. Well I didn't know that.. And my life is not so perfect as you call me.."

She closed her eyes and laughed a bit, "oh come on Perfect.. What's not perfect about your life? You're here being the smartest, I'm sure you have perfects parents who want what's best for you and are always there.."

"always there yes.... Wants what's best for us.. No.. Well my mother no... My dad definitely yes.. Look, all my life my father has been the only one working. My mother gave up her job to take care of us.. Me and Jason my brother.. And since then I have been living under her shadow and she's been pushing me to be who she wanted to be when growing up. I'm trying to live my life and hers at the same time.."

"so she's the strict one telling you what and what not to do?" she asked and I couldn't lie or even be over protective now. I slowly nodded my head a bit, "yes.. She is. I thought it would be less when I leave.. But it has become so much more. She can't even trust me to make the right decisions about life.. Even after everything she's been telling me. I mean if I wanted I could have went out to party all the time and lie to her, but I know what I want and it's not that, so I don't do it.. Not for her but for me.."

She kept quiet and just looked at me. I cleared my throat and tried to be more obvious about what I actually meant, "I'm saying this because you don't have to live your life to try and get your parent's attention.. You don't have to live your life for them.. You're your own person.. The best thing is that you have all the access to everything you want. So just use that to be a better person. Surprise them.. Don't be what they expect you to be, be your f*****g self and kill it... "

She swallowed.

I know she was listening and considering what I was saying. I smiled a bit, "when I was a little kid I always wanted to be a teacher, I could see myself changing lives of little kids.. Making sure that they know they can be anything they want to be.. Because I didn't have that.. I had my mother breathing down one thing on my throat... So tell me what has you waking up every morning...?"

She smiled, "I wanted to write.. That's kind of why I'm doing literature.. I always wanted to inspire people through my writing.."

That made me smile even more, "really? I love writing too and if you are studying this then it means you've written somethings before.."

She shyly nodded her head, "yeah I have.."

"wanna show me?"

She hid her face with her hands, "nooooooo... "

I laughed, "girl come on.. You have to give it to me."

She sighed, "okay.. But not tonight.. Maybe some other time though.."

I nodded my head, "alright.. I can't wait.. So for now you can sleep.. Right.."

"yes.."

I got up and saw two bottles of alcohol on her chest of drawers.. I didn't know much about alcohol so I didn't know how bad or strong they were.

I turned to look at her, I wanted to tell her not to drink them but she had her eyes closed.

God. What if I leave her here and she starts drinking alone or when I wake up she's not here..??

"you can take them.. And can you please come lay with me for a bit.." she said startling me. I looked at her and found her looking at me looking at her bottles.

"take it... And come lay with me. I don't think this will be an easy night."

I smiled, "I'll be right back."

Thank God she read my mind.

..

I was woken up by a knock the following day. I got up from Hannah's bed and went out to the kitchen. For a second I was confused as to why I was in her room and not mine, but I remembered when I saw the bottle of alcohol in the kitchen counter. Oh I was the now supportive roommate.

The knock took me back to what I was here for. I quickly went there, "heeey I'm coming.."

I opened the door to be met by Louis.

I furrowed my brows at him, "dude...? Hi? It's early.."

He sighed, "fuck.. Yes.. I'm sorry. I just got back from a concert and came here as soon as I heard someone say a lady here was hospitalized. I thought it was you?"

"me...? Why?"

He sighed, "I mean.. Now that I think about it it was stupid of me to think that you were in danger. You're the most careful person ever here. So what happened...?"

"when we went out to eat Hannah went out.. And she got back home in the morning.. She didn't look okay. They said it was alcohol poisoning.."

He groaned, "is she okay? Will she be okay?"

"she'll be okay. She'll take it easy on partying.."

"yeah I was going to suggest that.. So what are you doing today?"

Friday.. I only had one class and nothing after that. But since I neglected my books the past two days I didn't want to be disturbed by anything, I could already see myself sitting in Jessica's office reading and stealing a sight of here here and there. God I couldn't wait for later and see her. She made my heart feel different.. So in order to have that, I lied, "a whole lot hey.. You?"

"nothing much.. I was hoping to see you.. Maybe go out again.. " he said and I sighed, "umh I'm sorry. I gotta stay with Hannah after all my busy day coz she's not fully okay yet... You know."

He nodded his head, "alright.. I am glad that you're okay.. I guess I'll see you."

"yes you will Louis.." he stood there outside my door not leaving. I furrowed my brows at him. Doesn't 'I guess I'll see you' mean someone is about to leave? Or was I confused?

"is there anything else?" I asked when he still didn't move.

He smiled shyly, "I mean I ran here as soon as I heard that something was wrong.. And it's in the morning. If I had known your numbers I'd have called to check what happened.. So I'm feeling a bit stupid."

I laughed, "don't feel stupid. This is nice too.. I mean I am an early bird after all."

He nodded his head, "indeed you are.. Umh... Precious I'm asking for your numbers.. So that I can communicate with you on w******p or call you know..."

I wiped sleep off my face, "of f**k that's what you meant.. s**t sorry I'm still half asleep.. Yeah give me your phone.."

He took it out so quickly it made me laugh, he was acting like I was going to change my mind if he was taking his sweet time.

I wrote them on his phone and saved them then handed it back to him. He took it, took my hand also and kissed the back of it,"thanks.. Bye for real this time.." and he ran off.

I shook my head a bit before laughing. I checked time on my phone and Woooow was all I could say, he really must have been worried to come here at 5:30.

My phone in my hand went off finally waking me up. I sighed and went to meditate for 30 minutes. My Fridays always started like this.

At 6 am I started cleaning up and getting everything ready for my class. I talked to all the lecturers who were lecturing Hannah and she was expected in class on Monday.

I took my key and her key then went to her room at 7:30. She was now finished eating the breakfast I made for her. I gave her pills and she took them.

She smiled, "thank you."

"you're welcome. So I am a bad liar, so I'll just tell on myself, I took all the keys. I'll be back late but there's food and everything in here. I made sure of that."

She looked at me for a while, "you still don't trust me to stay in here do you?"

I shook my head, "no I don't... And this isn't only you on the line, it's me too and Professor Wright's job on the line because she didn't do this. If one mistake happens and you're not okay again then me and her will get it harder.. I can't risk that.. Not with her okay.."

She nodded her head,"alright.. I understand. Thanks again."

I went to kiss her forehead, "it's nothing really.. And I'm glad you aren't protesting coz that would have made me not to trust you worse."

She laughed, "oh God.. Good then. See you later."

I took my backpack, locked up and left to English class.

It was her again and I arrived there 15 minutes early. There was just one student in and he was sitting at the back corner. I went to her, "good morning Professor.."

She jumped a bit seeming startled, "Adams.. Morning." and then she went back to looking at the papers she was looking at.

"how are you professor?"

"good thanks.."

One answers again. What was wrong? Why was she being cold to me?

"are you okay Professor Wright?" I asked and she sighed, "I'm fine Adams.. Can you go to your sit before everyone gets in.. Please."

I nodded my head and did that. Something was really wrong with her and I was going to find out what it was.

I sat down and everyone started walking in. When it was time she stood up and started talking. She asked questions, I'd lift my hand up and she'd not point at me. She didn't even acknowledge my presence. She wasn't looking at me at all. I eventually stopped lifting my hand up.. Maybe she was mad at me, maybe me pushing her to not call Hannah's parents made her hate me. I mean she did say that she didn't like me coz of that.

My heart broke at the thought of that. I thought we were good. Now I messed all that up. f**k!

She asked questions again and no one lifted their hand up. I didn't also even though I knew the answers, I didn't want to be heartbroken more than I was if she didn't point me. Because I could still see that she wasn't even looking my way.

I just took my book and started writing what I should do.. Get airtime and call home later so I can talk to my little brother. I missed him and my dad. Maybe get games so that I can play with Hannah since our friendship was changing a bit.

I was startled when the students got up and I final did too. I put my things in my bag and decided to go ask her about later. I had a feeling she was going to chase me away the way she did yesterday.

"Professor..." I said and she didn't lift her head up to see who as talking, "yes?"

"I wanted to ask about later.. I want to know if I can still come and study in your office.."

"dont you have anything else to do Adams? "

I shook my head not following her but answered, "no.. I don't."

"it's Friday..." she said and I nodded my head understanding, "oh yeah.. I'll make it quick.. We can leave at 8 or something.."

All the students were out by now and it was just me and her.

She sighed and turned to look at me, "I mean it's a Friday Adams .. Some of us have things to do. Just because you stay cooped up in your room hiding from the world doesn't automatically mean I do also.. I have things to do with other people my age. A life outside of this... Got that?"

My heart... I got it loud and clear, worse with that tone she was using to spit it out. She was judging me and my boring life, like they all did.

I swallowed and nodded my head, "sure.. Sorry.." I then turned around to leave.

I heard her sigh, "Adams..."

I ignored her and kept walking towards the door.

"Precious..!! " she said a bit louder and I turned to look at her, "are you avoiding me Professor?"

She didn't respond and I sighed, "is there maybe anything wrong I did to you in the past day or two??"

She kept quiet still

I went on, "coz then if there is, I am sorry. If me cornering you about Hannah and her parents was wrong then I'm sorry.. I didn't know it would make you despise me this much... I guess I won't be bothering you again with studying in your office.. Thanks for the offer though. It was kind of you." then I tried to turn back around but a hand stopped me. God she was touching me!!

My eyesight was blury as f**k because of the tears that were threatening to escape.

"hey hey hey... Look at me..." she whispered behind me and I tried to pull away but couldn't. Her hold was strong on my hand.

I stood there facing away from her and closed my eyes.

"look... I didn't mean it like that. I didn't mean to come out like a bitch.. I'm sorry... I just... You won't understand."

I kept quiet and didn't say anything. I was done talking to her and I wanted myself out of there.

"Adams look at me."

I shook my head a bit. I couldn't do that. Not with teary eyes. She was going to think I was such a baby.

"Precious... Please." she whispered letting go of my hand.

I internally debated whether I should leave or not. I opened my eyes and my mouth a bit to try and return back the classy tears that were on my eyes.

"Precious... I'm sorry for what I said."

"it's okay.. I get it. You don't have to be sorry for how you feel. Have a good weekend with people who have a life Professor Wright." then I left her there without even looking at her.

I went straight to my dorm and I was so glad that I didn't meet anyone I knew personally who'd strike a conversation. Just some annoying people calling me "Perfect"

I locked the door when I got there and threw my bag on the floor..

"woooah.. What the f**k dude..!!"

I was startled by Hannah.. f**k she was here. She wasn't out on her parties and s**t.

"you're here.." I said.

"yeah.. You locked me in here.. Remember... And why are you back at 2.. Is it later already?" she said and I groaned.

My phone started ringing and I furrowed my brows at the unknown number. I calmed myself down to answer, "Hello...?"

'thank God.. Hey it's me...umh...Jessica.'

She didn't need to tell me who she was, her

voice told me all the way who it was and I hated how I loved the sound of it.

'please don't hang up.. Can you come to my office... Now..'

"I'm in my dorm.." I said.

'that was fast... But please come.. I'll drive you back...'

"I can't..."

She sighed, 'Precious...'

"no... I can't.."

'please... I really need to see you.'