My dear readers,
I know I have been MIA for quite some time and I deeply apologise for it. I needed some time away, not only to think about how I wanted the story of Grace and Trey to evolve, but for personal reasons.
Let me explain. December was a very stressful month for me. I was trying to finish all the work and due dates. I have been trying for promotion for a few months and it seems to be on a good way. I was glad to travel home for two days for Christmas, as I was working between the holidays too. Shortly after I arrived home, I found out that our beloved dog was having terrible seizures due to his illness, which ultimately led to him passing away. It was a hard blow for our family as he was part of it for an incredible fourteen years. RIP Hugo.
You can probably imagine that the Christmas kind of s*cked afterwards. Well, the surprises didn´t end there. On the morning of New Year´s Eve, I found out that I was pregnant. Unexpected and unplanned. To be completely honest with you, the first moment I was confused and scared, completely freaking out. I always wanted to be a mother, but nevertheless I was shocked to see the two stripes. Immediately, I was thinking about all the plans we had and how to alter them. I know that I should be thankful that we conceived without trying and I hope you won´t judge me. It took me a few days to come to terms with it, but thanks to the support I received from my partner, who was thrilled, I also started to look forward to it. I started to take vitamins, study about what I should or shouldn´t be doing, feeling happy and excited. Unfortunately, a few weeks later, I m*sscarried. I started to ble*d in the morning and had stomach pains. I rushed to the hospital, but it was already too late. I could feel it.
It was spontaneous, nothing I could do, as the doctor told me later, but I still blamed myself. My body for betraying me. I thought I had done something to trigger it. I was very emotional and it took me a few days and talks with my friends/family who had the same experience to realize that it wasn´t my fault and that eventually helped me to heal. I was left speechless when my doctor said that this happens to every second woman. I have never heard anyone talk about such an experience before and I think that is wrong. People can be so unconsiderate. It´s astonishing.
I want to take a second and tell all of the women out there who are struggling with the same, you are not alone.
What can I tell you? It was a sh*t show.
During the time I was pregnant, I observed pains in my stomach, a result of my long-term problems with my gallbladder. I decided for surgery, to have it removed. Thankfully, the surgery is next week and I have already been through all the necessary tests, consultation and am good to go.
I hope to be able to write after the surgery as I will be recovering at home. I don´t really have a date set for now, but will try my best to start updating as soon as possible. I will update you. I do hope you will stay with me and follow this story.
Thank you so much for your support!