THE BROKEN SOUL

CHAPTER 1

SEHER'S POV 

The first ray of sunshine, they say it brings peace, serenity and a breath of fresh in air in a person’s life. The first ray of sunshine symbolizes that darkness is not persistent, somedays it would end.

A cold rush of air passed by me, my darkish brown hairs blew with it rhythmically. The sudden hotness brought me back to reality, I looked at the hot coffee in my hands that was waiting for me. I blew a little before taking a sip.

I hated this morning time, despite the fresh cold breeze, the only time when these bustling street were filled with fewer people, I hated it because it was the only time when my mind had nothing to keep itself distracted from. This was the only time where it reminded how lost I really was in this world surrounded with so many people. I could light all around me but the darkness I had inside me was much more and to be honest I had gotten used to it. It was like I was just living for the sake of it else I felt purposeless. 

I was nothing like the girl I thought I would be when I would 25, I thought I would be wild, crazy, I would go on dates and a party animal. A chuckle left my mouth, I became the complete opposite, all I do is work, earn, eat and sleep. On the outside I was perfectly fine, I knew there were people who admired me for my dedication and passion while some were jealous of the success that I had achieved in such a short span of time. They thought I was the lucky one but only if they knew I felt so empty, my soul felt so broken and whose soul is broken they have nothing else to do in life, not distractions. 

When they go back home, they have someone waiting for them at home, they had friends they would go out on weekends with, I was all alone, there was no one for me to wait for me at home, no one to ask me why was I late or if had my dinner. So I just worked just to not let my loneliness get into my head. I was someone’s brave princess and I didn’t want anything that would make me call myself a failure. 

I had the position in my company which was like a milestone, I had it all name, reputation, heck I am a damn CEO of a globally recognized software company, Hailstack, a dream of many and I was living it. 

But all of it was just to make me feel that I wasn’t failing in my life other than that it made me feel nothing, I still have my cousins and uncle and aunt but I haven’t talked to them for almost a year, I love them to bits but I can’t talk to them for some reasons.   

They do have my number but I have told them not to call me unless it’s an emergency and even though I missed them I was thankful that they were all safe. 

My chain of thoughts broke when I heard my phone buzzing. Would be great if there is some urgent work on Saturday morning. I hate weekends anyways. 

With a hope, I opened my phone only to see a message from an unknown number. My eyebrow scrunched at the unfamiliar number. 

"open up your skype..." 

I shrugged it off and opened my skype only to get almost killed by the sudden surprise. My cousins, all of them were there right infront of me on the screen. God I missed them so freaking much. I haven’t heard or seen them for a year now. 

Keeping the coffee aside on the table I plopped on the couch with my laptop on my lap.

"when was the last time did you actually sleep" I didn’t know if they had a script or something but this was the first line they actually said and in unison. Crazy and weird people but my people.

“I have enough sleep to keep me healthy” lie, a complete lie, I had become insomniac and I couldn’t sleep without taking my pills.

"when are you coming back to India" Monisha Bhabhi (sister-in-law) asked excitedly, I felt my forehead creased up with lines as I bit my lips, I didn’t like upsetting them but there was no chance I was going back to india.

"sorry bhabhi it's not possible for now" I spoke nervously.

"see I told you Bhabhi this girl is so stubborn I knew she would say this" Samar bhai (elder brother) said faking anger making me chuckle but one glare from him had me shut up.

"oh c'mon Seher don't you miss us, it's already been 4 years we have seen you in person " Sneha di (elder sister) quivering voice had my heart all aching.

"no di it's not like that I do miss you , after losing everything I only have you guys" i replied, my eyes almost welled up.

"Stop it sneha you always do this to her" Nihit jiju (brother in law) interrupted her .

"jiju don't you dare say anything to her she is my di" I said in a fake bossy tone.

"as you say boss" and he played along raising his both hands in surrender.

“so back to the topic, seher I have already booked your tickets to India and you are coming to Dehradun. So, no more discussions and you are coming” Aadvik bhai said which helfd no room for discussion, god he is so dominating, if he wasn’t my brother I would have should him hell, I don’t like when people command me but then this was my brother, my family.

“Dehradun but why I mean what we gonna do there” I asked curiously as much as I remember none of our relatives lives there then what’s the reason.

“shaadi (wedding)” I froze, the f**k who is getting married.

“wait shadi but whose” I was left shocked.

“your brother’s” I looked at adi as he pointed a finger on himself and I looked at him in disbelief, this boy who can’t even decide what he wants to the next minute is getting married, tell me oh god that he is just joking.

"What Adi, you, how can you get married this early and this not your correct age you just graduated this year and you are still not settled in your life and how mamaji (mother's brother) and mamiji (mother's sister in law) got ready for this wedding and is this a love marriage did you threatened my mama- mami to elope with her , is this why everyone agreed and sam why didn't you tell me anything huh and wh—" i spat but was cut off by another familiar voice.

"Shut up, how much can someone speak, at least breath woman" Samar bhai cut me off and I took a sip of my black coffee looking at him with puppy eyes.

“But bhai you heard what he said” I said annoyed giving a glare to adi who was grinning like a fool, this i***t.   

"yeah I heard what he said and he didn't say anything wrong, it's your brother's wedding and that brother is ME, got it Dumbo" with that I sighed and everyone burst into fits laughter.

"hey stop laughing everyone or I'm gonna disconnect the call" I said irritatingly.

"Ok so it's final we will meet up in Dehradun finally". Sam said with excitement in her voice.

"ok" I said and then we talked for a while before I disconnected the call.

 It's been 4 years since I have seen my family but deep down there was a fear settling in my soul, I just wished nothing happens, I so wanted to deny them but I couldn’t have the heart to disappoint them and it’s just for two weeks that I would be gone.

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