Recuerdo De Amor Island 6: Paint My Love

Teaser "You will be her eyes from now on. Face the consequence of your reckless action or go to jail. We have enough of your behavior, now it causing shameful view from the public eye." galit na galit pahayag sa akin ni Dad. They are furious about what happened and I blame myself for it. I sighed. Kahit anung gawin ko, I have to do this. I did it to her and I regret it. I stole the most important sense in her life. Her eyesight. Looking at her from here at the window breaks my heart. I'm so guilty of what happened to her. Kung hindi lang sana ako nadala ng init ng katawan ko and focus on my driving. Hindi ko sana s'ya masagasaan that cause her blindness right now. "She's going to stay in the island hanggang sa humilom ang sugat sa loob ng kanyang maga mata para sya maoperahan uli. In duration of her healing, you will stay by her side and face her wrath against you. I already told your friends that you are not allowed to leave the island or talk to any damn woman who's willing to fvck by you. Your attention will be with her only or I will send you to jail without a second thought." Galit na pagpatuloy nito. I can't blame them. They are disappointed in me. Blaire gives me a punch when he found out. I guess I don't have a choice anymore but to change. "I will dad. That's the less I can do para mabawasan ang kasalanan ko sa kanya. I'm sorry for what happened. I regret it and I'm going to carry the guilt hanggang hindi n'ya ako mapatawad." Puno ng pagsisisi kong sabi kay Dad. My mom didn't speak to me anymore. Blaire always give a dagger eyes everything he saw me. My friends remain silent but I know they are disappointed too. "You better take this seriously Levi Blade or your mother will never speak with you forever." He harshly take a deep breath and get inside the room. I will dad. I guess this is my wake up call now. In very hard way too. **** 7 YEARS AGO "I want a child," I suddenly uttered to my cousin. Sa gulat nito napabuga n'ya ang iniinom na juice. May konting tubig na lumabas sa kanyang ilong at lumuluha ang kanyang mga mata dahil sa pagkasamid. Dali-dali itong kumuha ng tissue at pinahiran ang kanyang mukha. Namumula ito pagkatapos dahil sa nangyari at pagkahiya. Pinanlakihan niya ako ng kanyang mga mata. I remain still, hindi natinag sa reaksyon n'ya sa'kin. Nanatiling seryoso ang mukha ko na nakatingin sa kanya. For almost 18 years old teenager, it's ridiculous to say that words but for me, it wasn't. I'm determined to have a child, to have someone other than me and my cousin. I feel so alone living in the lifeless mansion. I know that having a child in such a young age is not ideal but I want a sunshine in my life after the darkness I experienced. And I know my cousin will not understand but she can't stop me. "What are you thinking? Ki bata bata mo pa iyan agad ang pumapasok sa isipan mo?" She scolded me and throwing glares in my direction but I remain unfazed. She sighed deeply at matiim akong tinitigan, "Look sis, I'm still here. I know it's hard your situation right now but having a child is not the answer of your loneliness. Focus on your study and have your own family in the right age and time." She advised softly ngunit umiling lang ako at puno ng determinasyon sa aking mga mata. Buo na talaga ang desisyon ko na magkaroon nang anak. "Whether you help me or not Pat, I will do it. I simple told you this so that you're aware of my decision." I said firmly with stubbornness in my voice. I look around the campus of Le Surrey University and search to the man that caught my attention and ideal for my plan. Found him! I saw the man I've been looking for. He is perfect for my plan. Alam ko na hindi ito maghahabol sa akin kapag may mangyari sa amin dahil sa reputasyon n'ya. I heard my cousin deeply sighed many times to digest my decision. Alam kong hindi madali para sa kanya ang narinig mula sa akin pero hindi n'ya alam ang feeling na nag-iisa ka na lang sa buhay. I lost my parents when I was 14 years old from car accident, caused by the drunk driver that hit them. My parents and the drunk driver died on the spot. Since I'm the only child, my grandmother took care of me. Nag-iisa n'ya rin na anak si Mama sa pagkadalaga kaya dalawa lang kami ang namuhay sa mansyon. It was hard leaving together since we mourned and I will keep mourning them. 2 years ago, I thought I found someone na maging sandigan ko habang buhay. We had been together for more than a year and half when I discovered that he only courted me because I am rich and to take my virginity oneday. He almost took my v-card though, I almost gave it to him but I stop, and felt not ready all the sudden. Glad I did, because weeks later I saw him with a girl, and his friends were teasing him for not taking my virginity yet. I broke at him that day too. To get my revenge, I humiliated him in front of his new girlfriend and friends. Threatened them to stay away from me or else I will make sure they will suffer from their idiocy. Nawala man ang magulang ko ngunit nanatili ang impluwensya nila lipunan. Last month, another devastated circumstance happened into my life. My grandmama passed away due to heart attack. It was so sudden that I didn't even realize she have heart failure. I feel like I've been punished becasue God was taking away the ones I love. Halos gumuho ang mundo ko sa nangyari, at pakiramdam ko ngayon ang pagkaroon ng anak lang ang makapagbabalik ng sigla sa buhay ko. "Zynna Ingrid De Guzman Bertarelli, are you listening to me?" Napalingon ako sa aking pinsan na inis na inis sa'kin ngayon. Umiling ako, I zoned out when I saw him. "Don't speak my full name, Patricia May Guanzon kung ayaw mo na malaman ng ultimate crush mo ang iyong sekreto." Birong totoo ko sa kanya. I don't want anyone to know my real surname. I used my mother surname since I knew how to write my name. Papa did not want his family to find us. "You wouldn't dare, Tsk! Sino ba kasi ang tinititigan mo d'yan!" she curiously asked while looking in the direction I was looking, I shrug and continue playing my food. "You don't want to know." I simply answered, ignoring her curious gaze on me. "Tell me!" she demand sabay kuha ng pagkain ko at ito ang kumain. "Zynna, tell me." Lumingon ulit ako sa kinaroroonan ng binata at itinuro s'ya sa pinsan ko. "Him. The blue eyes in the group." They are all good looking but for me, nakaangat ito sa kanila ngunit sikat din ang binata sa kanyang paglalaro sa mga babae na naghahabol rito, kaya nga tamang-tama s'ya sa plano ko. I heard my cousin gasped and start coughing. Nabulunan yata ito ng kinakain n'ya dahil sa sinabi ko. Namumula ito kaya agad ko ibinigay sa kanya ang tubig upang malunok n'ya ng maayos ang kanyang kinain. Tinapunan n'ya na naman ako ng matalim na tingin ngunit hindi ako nagpaapekto. "Are you crazy?" sigaw n'ya na ikinangiti ko lang. Few students look in our direction but we both ignore, my cousin still throwing me her sharp look. "You want him to be the father of you child? The Casanova? "Good thing right. He will never know that he have a child to me," I wickedly said. Napanganga ito sa sinabi ko. I mentally giggled on her reaction. " And I mean it, I will do it whether you help me or not Pat." She close her eyes to calm herself, alam kong nagpipigil lang ito na mag-rant sa'kin dahil nasa campus kami. She deeply sighed and open her eyes, looking directly to me. "You lost your mind but I will help you." Napangiti ako nang malapad sa aking narinig. "Thank you couz. Here's the plan..."