A family of her own

Chapter 2

Chapter 2Maddie’s pov

I loved my job. Being a teacher had always been one of my dreams growing up. The other was to be a wife and a mother. Today one of those dreams is gone. Hearing I can never have children ripped my heart out. I will never know what it feels like to have my baby kick me or hold my child in my arms.

My whole life revolves around children. My father always wanted grandbabies. He was a single dad raising after my mother died. Growing up without a mom was tough, but my dad more than made up for it. He was more then just a parent he was my protector and the one person I knew I could always count on.

At 23 being told you will never have a child is earth shattering. Why would any man want me now? I should just call in today, but I couldn’t do it to the kids. I loved them so much. We were short staffed as it is, so I had to be there. I just need to put all of this to the back of my mind.

The one that held my heart the most was this little girl Jaylah. She was a beautiful little girl. I found out from her gorgeous father that she too lost her mother. Maybe that’s why I feel so close to her. She told me yesterday she wished that I could be her mommy. I smiled at her and said that I would be honored to have a daughter like her. Now I will never get that chance.

I felt a fresh set of tears stream from my eyes. Once I pulled into the school, I fixed my face, and got myself together. You would think since I can’t have kids that being around them might bother me. I refuse to let it. I loved me job, so I couldn’t let my personal life taint it.

I walked in and the first person to run up to me was Jaylah. She gave me a hug as if she knew something was wrong with me. I smiled at her as I hugged her back. I would never know what it’ll be like to hug my own child, and that hurt. But I could be the best role model for a little girl that desperately needed that in her life.

Maybe we can heal each other. She needed me just as much as I needed her. But could I be a part of this little girl’s life, and not want to be near her sexy daddy? I mean one look at him, and I was weak in the knees. He was everything I dreamed of my future husband being.

Jaylah was exactly the daughter I always saw in my dreams. Maybe I didn’t need my own child. I just needed a family. I needed Jaylah, and her swoon worthy dad. If I could hand pick out my daughter, I would want her to be just like Jaylah. That little girl was so loving and thoughtful.

I could tell her father loved her very much and from what Jaylah says he’s a good man. They could be what holds me together. I sat here day dreaming of this ready-made family and forgot all about the bad news I got earlier. I actually had a smile on my face.