MILLIE I did not think I was going to survive it. I saw my life flash right through it all when I felt the cold knife slicing down the skin of my neck, and I felt myself dizzying up. In those final moments, I had so many wishes. But the biggest one was to meet my children at least once before I died. I did not usually care about seeing my parents— or even my real birth parents but at that point, I felt like I wanted to meet them at least once before I died. I wanted to give my best friend one last hug before I died. I needed to make peace with a lot of people. When I opened my eyes and I realised that I was awake, it was one of the only times that I truly appreciated that I was alive in my life. My body was still heavily bound to the chair and there was tenderness around my neck, but