The Sigma Wolf

Chapter 39 - Hurt

Susie

I stood up from my chair. “I am sorry, father, but I can't marry someone I don't love…” I said and walked away from there. I was done being overlooked and complacent. I was done being the gullible daughter who will do as they say because she is eager to please them and get some crumbs of affection.

I made my way into my bedroom. My mind is going haywire. Alan went behind me and forced this engagement on me through an alliance between packs. I felt sad, betrayed, used. It was as if all those years of love and friendship were nothing, meant nothing.

I bit my lower lip; then there was the issue of Ajax. I knew the Prince was called Ajax, and I believe I did joke about it with him, but he never told me straight to my face who he was… Good GODDESS! I allowed him to touch me intimately, without even knowing who he was; the implication of such a kind of relationship… I am mortified and stressed. I can't believe he will keep something as important as his status. It wouldn't have mattered to me; after all, high-rank or not, he is Ajax, my Ajax… but being a Prince comes with many obligations and compromises, and marriage is usually used to make alliances. He was never mine…

I am devastated, I feel lied to, mocked and even used. I was willing to give him everything. Thank Goddess, it didn't happen because I would have been giving myself to a complete stranger.

A stranger engaged to my sister… I am a f*****g laughingstock… I am pissed, furious and devastated. I have been used like a puppet by my parents, by Alan, by Ajax… but not anymore… From this day forward, I will look after myself, no matter what the status quo indicates.

A loud knock on my door broke my pity party, and I quickly wiped my tears and opened the door. “How dare you?” my mother barked. Your father has worked so hard for you to have this advantageous marriage, and you go around yelling you would not do it!” My mother belittled me.

“I won't because I'd rather be cast out than marry someone for other reasons than love…” I said, convinced that I was doing the right thing. “Besides, if you want an alliance so much, I am sure one of the twins will happily jump to the occasion…” I sighed, and my mother cackled,

“They asked for YOU. Don't you think your father and I offered them something better? But they refused. Somehow, Alan has his eyes set on you…” She raised her hands in exasperation.

“Well, I am not available for sale… MOTHER,” I punctuated each letter of the word mother.

“Alright, suit yourself. You will return to your classes… and behave towards the poor boy —the poor lunatic who thinks you are Luna's material… Be complacent or not. No matter what, either you cooperate, or your father will command you…” My mother threatened me, and tears rolled down my cheeks.

I stood up and straightened my back. I was done with this stupid conversation, situation, and everything. “Alright, Mother, do as you wish…” I sighed, and she gave me a soft smile,

“I know you will reconsider…” she sighed, and I bit my lower lip and lowered my eyes in submission. I was not submitting s**t, but if I wanted to run away from all of this f****d up situation, I would have to pretend until the right time.

My only choice was to pretend to be happy about all this. Then, when I come back to school, I will question Alan, and I will definitely have a rundown with Ajax. Ajax hurt me the most… and I need to face the pain of my broken heart in order to start mending it.

“Whatever… I am moving my flight… I will leave tomorrow.” I said, and my mother lifted her eyebrows,

“Suit yourself; just remember you will do as we say…” She patted my cheek threateningly, and I closed my eyes. At that precise moment, my phone rang, and I stared at the screen —it was Ajax.

Instead of answering the phone, I dismissed the call and turned my device off. I was too upset and hurt to deal with him right now. I am not sure when I will be ready to address all of this to him, but I am confident that I will not be a joke, not to him, not to anyone, for that matter.

The next day, I took a plane back home. I asked Uncle John to take me back, and without even saying goodbye to my parents, I traveled back to Highlands Pack, where Highlands U was located.

I made sure to take a cab, and I rushed away into my penthouse without being seen by Ajax. It was awful, but I haven't turned on my phone ever since, and I need to vent out all of this pain and frustration until I see him again.

I spent Saturday and Sunday cramped up in my room, my balcony door locked and the blackout curtains protecting me from him. I was in my cocoon of safety. I indulged in several pints of ice cream and pizza. Diana and Maggie were concerned because I was not saying a thing. I cried, then got upset, and then laughed… I was going crazy. This entire situation was crazy.

Monday arrived so soon, and I got ready for my first class. Of course, Mr. Costa's class had to happen today. I wanted to sip it, but we would get feedback on our projects, and I needed to show up. Today of all days, yes! I am that unlucky.

I went to the auditorium, praying not to run into Ajax. Of course, my prayers were never heard… The first person in front of the auditorium doors had to be him.

He looked at me and beamed. I schooled my face, and his smile quickly faltered. Then, because my day can't be any shittier, behind Ajax, I saw him, f*****g ALAN…

I will deal with one asshole at a time. I was not ready to deal with Ajax; the pain was too much, but Alan was a completely different story.

I walked toward Ajax, and he followed me with his eyes. I was sure he was expecting me to run into his arms, but instead, I sidestepped him and moved towards Alan.

Alan smiled and gave Ajax a half-smirk when he saw me walking towards him. “I guess you were informed of the big news!” Alan said, and I looked straight into his eyes. I squinted at him a little. I was furious.

“Future wife? Are you alright?” He said that out loud, earning a distant, powerful growl, most certainly from Ajax.

I bit my lip, and I couldn't hold it any longer. I stared at him, and suddenly, my body took control of me… SMACK!

The sound of a definite slap across his face filled the hallway. Everyone nearby stopped doing whatever they were doing, and a deafening silence filled the corridor.

“The f**k?” Alan growled, but I stood there looking into his eyes,

“Consider me dead for you…” I said, turning around and leaving him there. I didn't enter the auditorium like the coward I was; I ran away from there, hoping Ajax wouldn't chase after me…

Again, luck was not on my side.