I have been thinking of a way to apologize to Adam, I have to tell him what is wrong with me, that I feel bad that I am pushing him away from me, and how can I let him in and do not push him away.
Walking back and forth, trying to brainstorm the reasons why and how, because as I think about it more, I want to be his friend and I won't allow myself to stay away from him. In this short amount of time we have known each other, I fear he is will go away and leave me alone.
He is the only friend that actually wants to spend time with me, and now I sound pathetic. Nothing new, at all.
I am always pathetic and there's no argument there, I lick my lips as I try to focus on Adam. Adam is a very nice guy; he is funny, he is kind, he is... just amazing.
So, why can't I let him be my friend?
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