Chapter 11
He’s in love with me, Matthew thought as he leaned back onto the pillows and smiled up into Howie’s face as they broke the kiss. I could feel it in his kiss. And I love him. Could he feel it, too? Oh, God, what am I going to do?
Howie lay down beside him, nuzzling Matthew’s chest. Howie took a deep breath, as if he were going to say something.
Don’t say it, Matthew thought almost in a panic. Please, Howie, don’t say it. I won’t know what to do if you say it. If you say it, you’ll expect me to. If I say it out loud it’ll make it worse. Please don’t!
Thankfully, Howie said nothing. He just played idly with Matthew’s chest hairs and n*****s. Matthew relaxed.
So, here he was—in bed with a man and in love with him. As Matthew lay there trying to sort it out, he realized he’d all
