Rock Bottom

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Lisa's POV

"Awww!" I chuckled as my right foot accidentally hit the leg of my bedside table. Still giggling, I jump over my bed, stomach first not caring if I make any unnecessary noise that would probably wake up both my Mom and Dad. My parents are heavy sleepers especially Dad. Plus, my room is not that very close to where their rooms are.

"Bed..." I groaned as I reach for my pillow, hugging it very tight wishing I can crash it on my arms. If only I have that super strength, maybe it'll help me feel so much better.

My body started forming into a fetus position, cold seeping through my body proving that wearing a hanging off-shoulder and short shorts isn't a good idea. But then, I was in a club, what do you expect me to wear?

A loud grunt escaped my lips as my other hand reached for my temple.

"f*****g hurts," I groaned.

Yeah, Lisa, who told you to drink that much huh?

Turning my back a little, my eyes now focused on the ceiling. It was a little dark but the faint light coming from my open window is enough for my insides to feel heavier.

"f*****g i***t," I mumbled and before I knew it, tears started streaming down my cheeks. It was flowing like a faucet, I didn't even bother wiping the tears away.

One year, one f*****g year and now it's gone.

Am I that bad of a catch for him to cheat on me like that? And to a friend?

Before I knew it, I was sobbing like crazy, all the emotion I was keeping deep down for a week already came running like a truck. It's heavy, it's painful and moreover, it's stupidly real.

Was it that hard to tell me it's over?

Was I that clingy?

Fuck, was I that unworthy?

With a heavy heart, I reached for my phone which I had thrown on my bed earlier and went straight to my contacts.

The moment I saw my ex's name, I deleted it. I did the same to my friend's name or whatever w***e I should call her.

"Right, pictures," I mumbled. I went to my gallery and deleted every video and photos of us together. If I will move on, I need to do it the right way. No communication, no memories of him, no nothing.

Once I'm done, a long sigh escaped my lips.

I wish my friends were here.

A year ago, I headed back to Thailand leaving Rosie behind. Well, Samantha was back in Korea working for he brother’s company and right now, I wish I am with them because if they were here, I can clearly picture how Samantha will hunt down my ex and beat him to a pulp. Rosie may also look weak but she's sassy enough to stand beside me making sure I wasn't in any way at a disadvantage.

It has been a month since I last heard from Rosie though. I know she’s busy too and she probably have lots of stuff on her plate but, well, I only have a few friends to reach out with.

I reached for my phone and check on my contacts. Should I call her?

But she must be busy.

After wiping my tear-stained cheeks, I opened my i********: and checked my feed.

Oh right, my apps. I still have tons of pictures of him so I deleted them too. That prick doesn't deserve to be on my feed.

I was checking on my dm's my eyes landed on a familiar username.

Happykiddo94: Great *winks

I almost forgot about him. That guy from that famous band, whoever he is.

That was the last time we messaged each other. It has been a year.

I wonder how he had been?

Should I send him a message instead?

I mean, he doesn't really know me. It's better to talk to him that some of my friends here. I'm not even sure who my real friends here now. Aside from Samantha and Rosie, I refuse to trust anybody at this point. But a stranger will do, right? They say that it’s easier to express your emotions to someone you barely know, I can do that, right?

Before I even knew it, I was already typing.

Me: I know it's been a year overdue but chatting with you is still one of my lucky privileges, right? *Hopeful eyes

A minute...

Two...

five...

ten...

A long sigh escaped my lips before putting my phone down on my bed. Of course, he must be busy. Or he might not be using the account anymore. It's been a year. Who am I even kidding?

My eyes were already feeling heavy when I suddenly heard the sound of my phone beeping.

Happykiddo94: Of course, babe. If it's you. Btw, you actually got me with the Hopeful eyes *grins

My heart started beating like crazy, whether I was happy to be able to converse with him again or for an entirely different reason, I'm not even sure.

I started typing once again.

Me: Should I be flattered? :)

Happykiddo94: Nah, I should actually. So, how are you?

I bite my lower lip. Should I tell him? But I feel at ease whenever I converse with him, something I am confused myself since I don't even know who exactly he is. Though if I would be judging based on the situation, he's most probably Samantha's younger brother.

Me: Heartbroken? haha

As I read my own message, I don't know if I sound pathetic or what.

Happykiddo94: Wait, for real? Coz missy, if you are, it's okay. Want to tell me about it?

My heart leapt out off my chest. Seeing how concern he was makes my heart flutter and I don't know why but I feel like he was sincere it. Should I go for it?

Me: I don't know. Aren't you busy on some tour or something?

Happykiddo94: Well no. Don't worry, I have a lot of time. Fire away :)

After a minute of hesitating, I started typing all of my worries and every now and then I can't help but smile every time he tries to cheer me up.

Me: Thank you so much. You don't even know how much this conversation made me a thousand times better. *grinning

Happykiddo94: Hey, if ever you feel like you need to talk to someone, just beep me up. If I don't reply immediately, I will as soon as I am free. Don't ever think that you're alone babe,

His words made me feel at ease. I never knew words from a stranger can be so comforting.

Me: I'm so glad I decided to send you a message. If you ever want someone to talk to, I can also lend an ear. I know you're famous but don't worry, I don't give a damn. What you send on my IG leaves on my IG.

Happykiddo94: I know and I will too. Now go to sleep. You've cried enough. And remember, tomorrow when you wake up, smile coz there are a lot more things to be happy about.

Me: *kisses

With a smile on my lips, my eyes closed, my inside feeling lighter than it has ever been.

There are other things to be happy about. Right...