Addicted to You

Chapter 20 I'm Not a Good Mom

Gu Xingchen blinked, and two lines of tears rolled down her cheek, Xi Muye could not bear her shed tears for the first time, so he hurriedly wiped her tears away.

"Don't cry. I'm here. I won't allow anyone to hurt you." The man in front of her sworn.

Gu Xingchen hugged Wanwan and said in a nostalgic tone: "I miscarried twice and had a lot of nightmares. I know I'm just a toy you paid for. I don't deserve to have a child."

"When I found out I was expecting Wanawn, I asked you what to do if I had a child. You told me to abort it, so I went to the hospital again. Lying on the operating table, I thought of the first two innocent dead babies, so my heart melted. Wanwan was born prematurely by a Caesarean section. Thus, she was susceptible to diseases. I feared that you would know her existence, so I could only hide her and haven't taken her out many times in three or four years."

"I wanted hire someone to take care of her, but there were so many cases of abusing babysitter in the news; I also thought about sending her to the orphanage, but I saw the older children in the orphanage bully the baby who could not talk. So I had to give her to my father. I could not tell my father that she was my daughter. She was wronged by my father and gradually stopped talking. By the time I found out, she had autism. She would not laugh at anyone but me. "

"I was the only family she knew, but she could only call me sister. Every time she asked me where her parents were, I felt as if a knife were piercing my heart! Before she died, she said her birthday wish was to call me mom! I'm not a good mom because I can't even save her! "

Gu Xingchen was originally very calm, for her tone of voice was as light as water. However, when she said the last two sentences, she suddenly trembled with excitement.

Xi Muye knew that Gu Xingchen was feeling guilty!

But it was not Gu Xingchen's fault, it was his fault!

"Xingchen, I'm sorry! It was me. I didn't know you were going to save Wanwan with that bag of blood, if I knew, if I knew!" Xi Muye suddenly opened his eyes wide and said, "After taking away your blood, I have sent the assistant to draw on the blood in another hospital to help you, but I didn't think it was too late!"

Gu Xingchen nodded and tears dripped down to the ground. "Yes, it was too late. It’s been five years, Xi Mu Ye. If I had known there were so much pain to be endured for you five years ago, I would rather have stayed in Mei Ye. It wouldn't hurt if I didn’t have a heart."

"I shouldn't have let you go, and I shouldn't have been entangled with you for these five years. If I had known that the end was my daughter’s death, I would rather have died five years ago. Xi Muye, you once said that you loved me, but did you say it for real? What did I get out of you since I was so loyal to you? "

Xi Mu Ye felt his breath was stopped, "Xingchen, what are you talking about?" What do you mean by what you said? "

Indeed, they had been entangled for five years, and he did not mind Gu Xingchen's identity at first, but she did and repeatedly used this status to torment their love.

Gradually, he could not tell whether she loved him or not.

Because Gu Xingchen never said the word ‘love' to him.

Gu Xingchen hugged Wanwan tightly in her arms and kissed her on the forehead, "I don't want to see you again! You don't deserve to appear in front of my daughter! "