Nepenthe

Reunion

He didn't knew why he was feeling anxious, Ryan really couldn't take out the thought of Mr. Roy's son out of his head , ever since Kevin mentioned something about Mr. Roy 's son Ryan didn't know why his mind was filled with Hayden.

He really didn't want his imagination to come true, he really didn't wanted Hayden to be Mr. Roy's son, maybe he was thinking too much but again it was his hobby to think too much.

It was break time so he decided to go to Kevin's office and surprise him , Ryan's studio wasn't far from Kevin's office building ,it literally took five minutes to reach Kevin's office from Ryan's studio by walking.

So he informed Felix that he was going to Kevin's office and would be back soon. Felix  also noticed how Ryan was really distracted today so he allowed him to go, thinking that maybe if Ryan talked to Kevin , then he could be at ease.

Currently Ryan was walking towards Kevin's office and soon he entered the Office, on his way to Kevin's office he was greeted by the employees , all the employees knew that Ryan was Kevin's fiancé and he was really sweet and the employees respected him.

Ryan and Kevin’s mothers were the one who opened the company and now they were the business partners , Ryan was also equally capable like Kevin. 

He held a large amount of the shares of the company, he also managed the working of the company sometimes whenever Kevin was sick or had some other important works, Ryan also helped Kevin and Chris to prepare for the important meetings. 

Ryan was the co-owner of the company but he never really took part in company's business unless it was completely necessary, most of the time Chris and Kevin would handle the problem or the situation , but when the problem would get out of hand or when it would become too much for Kevin and Chris to handle the work only then Ryan would interfere .

 Ryan was mostly interested in dancing, it was his dream and he was happy with working in his studio along with his best friend Felix .

When he reached Kevin's cabin , he slowly opened the door and walked inside the cabin slowly without making noise , he saw Kevin was completely immersed in his work, he didn't even notice when Ryan walked inside his cabin

Kevin was a hard working man , he was very serious and didn't tolerate any mistake when it comes to work, he was a very dedicated man ,and that's something Ryan loved about Kevin.

Kevin looked absolutely beautiful, while working . Ryan smiles while staring at his fiancé, he could watch Kevin all day and would not get bored

"how long are you going to stare at me Ryan?" Kevin said ,cutting Ryan's train of thought 

"I can watch you the whole day Kev" Ryan said and walked towards Kevin, adjusting himself on Kevin's lap and Kevin wrapped his arms around Ryan's waist.

"so what are you doing here Ryan" 

" I came to visit my fiancé and also to see how is my fiancé handling the company" Ryan said 

"so is your fiancé doing a good job" Kevin said

 "he is doing a great job " Ryan said and pecked Kevin's forehead , Kevin smiled and hugged Ryan tighter.

"Ryan I want to tell you something" Kevin said

 "what is it" Ryan asked curiously , Kevin gulped when he saw Ryan's smiling face and his curious eyes 

"you know I told you about Mr. Roy's son , that he will start working here today " Kevin said and Ryan slowly nodded.

 Ryan was becoming anxious for a second the thought of his imagination coming true crossed his mind "well you see, it turns out that we both know Mr. Roy's son very well" Kevin said, becoming more nervous when he saw Ryan's smile fade.

 Ryan on the other hand didn't wanted to believe that Hayden was Mr. Roy's son , so he looked at Kevin thinking that Kevin will prove him wrong, Kevin on the other hand understood that Ryan wanted his confirmation , so he opened his mouth to say that what Ryan was thinking was right but before he could say anything , he heard a soft knock on the door .

The door opened and Hayden walked in. As soon as Ryan's eyes landed on Hayden his breathing stopped , his reaction was the same as Kevin , he started shaking while sitting on Kevin's lap , and Kevin knew that Ryan was shaking with rage .

"Mr. Shroff I bought the documents you told me to-" Hayden said but immediately stopped speaking when he saw none other than Ryan Jones  sitting on Kevin's lap and shaking with anger while Kevin was rubbing circles on his back to calm him down ,but it was of no use.

When Hayden looked into Ryan's eyes the only thing he saw was anger and hatred , Hayden can't deny that he felt a pang in his chest when he saw Ryan's eyes which were once filled with love and admiration for Hayden were now filled with pure hatred.

Before Kevin could say anything or before Hayden could say anything, Ryan got up from Kevin's lap and went towards Hayden and punched him right in the face. 

It happened so fast that Hayden didn't have the time to react . Kevin's eyes widened, his mouth fell open and Hayden's body was turned to the side, he was still shocked. While Ryan was nowhere near calm.

Hayden regained his posture but before he could say anything he received another punch on his stomach which made him bend forward 

"how dare you, show your disgusting face in my company , how dare you" 

Ryan said his voice was filled with venom towards the Hayden, he then took a fist of Jungook's hair and made Hayden face him 

"you made us go through hell , when we brought you to heaven , we gave you everything and always listened to you, we made sure to never let you feel like and outsider , we gave you love, we trusted you , we shared our secrets to you but what did you gave us in return huh!" Ryan said and slapped the younger again this time harder sending him to the ground.

At this point Kevin's eyes were filled with tears , seeing Ryan like this all angry and sad really made Kevin worried , but didn't make an effort to stop Ryan , his body was frozen , he knew that Ryan always had this anger inside him and it needed to be released.

Hayden on the other hand was taking every punch kick and insult Ryan was giving him , he didn't try to fight back because 1st he can't anger Kevin and Ryan and second he knew he deserved this . 

The fact that Ryan was actually behaving like this proved that he was hurt very deeply, maybe the scars were still there and now Hayden he felt even more guilty.

"you are nothing more than a slut a w***e you are a disgusting human who don't deserve any love , do you have any Idea how many nights I cried myself  to sleep , or how I  would have nightmares and insomnia, did you know that I nearly starved myself because of my eating disorder, huh! . All the insults the student's threw at us didn't hurt that much but what hurt us the most was when you just stood there and watched all those things, you didn't even say anything from our side instead you just supported the bullies, WHY WHY WHY HUH WHY????" 

Ryan said as he kept kicking and punching the younger , his cheeks were stained with tears , Hayden on the other hand took all the beatings , he lying on the ground his body was curled in a ball as Ryan was kicking him, Now Hayden felt absolutely guilty he thought that he really deserved this , Ryan was right he didn't deserve any love .

Kevin on the other hand was a mess ,but he controlled himself and went towards Ryan to stop him from beating the s**t out of Hayden. he hugged Ryan from behind and begged him to stop , Ryan fought against Kevin's grip ,but Kevin held him firmly and didn't let go

 "stop Ryan please stop"

 Kevin said and as soon as Ryan heard Kevin's voice he stopped and stood there tears were still flowing from his eyes.

It’s all Kevin’s fault, he should have told Ryan himself , it must have triggered him but Kevin never expected this outburst 

“ For all the time  we were together  , didn't that mean anything to you , all those dates and moments meant nothing to you huh, we genuinely love you Hayden you were really special for us and in that one year our love for you only increased, if you were uncomfortable with us , or you didn't wanted to be in a relationship with us , you could have told us we could have simply broke.

There was no need for you to go that far, You should have just told us that you don’t want us anymore that’s it, it was that simple." Ryan said , and eventually stopped crying while Kevin was still holding him; he was silently crying as both of them were looking at Hayden who was still on the floor.

When Hayden thought that Ryan would not beat him anymore he slowly got up and stood on his shaky legs, there was hand print on his check on which Kevin slapped and also there was a bruise on his other cheek , his white shirt was now covered with footprints , he was holding his stomach , there were going to be bruises on his body everywhere that was sure. His cheeks were stained with tears. He looked really vulnerable.

Ryan felt slightly guilty when he looked at Hayden, and Kevin also felt sorry for Hayden , he shouldn’t have let his rage control him , maybe he overdid it .

This was the first time they saw Hayden crying , they were also a little surprised that Hayden took all the hits from Ryan without fighting back , back in high school no one dared to go against Hayden if anyone did he would be beaten to pulp. Ryan and Kevin both knew that Ryan's hits were no joke, Ryan is a fit guy and he is physically strong also.

After gathering himself a little Hayden finally looked at the couple , he wiped his tears and said " I have no excuse for what I did back then, I accept what I did was wrong , It is unacceptable , I shouldn't have played with your feelings , I had no right to do that, I shouldn't have insulted you and I should have stood up for you , I really deserve the treatment you are giving me , i am sorry" 

Hayden said, still feeling horrible, he made the two of the sweetest and most precious people who were the literal definition of an angel go through hell. 

He made them go through all those things ,when he knew exactly how it felt to go through depression , he can very well understand what Kevin and Ryan went through because he also went through those things at some point in his childhood and that's why he felt even more guilty because he knew how it felt when people bully you for no reason and he felt hate towards himself because was no better than those monsters .

Kevin and Ryan looked at him in shock , they tried to look for any sort of lie but when they saw the Hayden's eyes they were sincere and they knew that Hayden wasn't lying . But then again they are not going to get fooled by the younger again, they are not going to make the same mistake of trusting the younger again.

"your sorry doesn't change anything our wounds have healed but the scars will always be there , what you did to us damaged us  mentally so don't think that you can be forgiven this easily" Kevin said and Ryan nodded

"answer my one question?" Ryan said which made both Kevin and Hayden look at him, Ryan looked at Hayden with a hard stare which made Hayden gulp while Kevin looked at Ryan curiously 

"during the entire period of our relationship did you for once , even for a minute felt love towards us tell us Hayden , did you ever loved us even for a minute back then" Ryan asked and now Kevin was looking at Hayden curiously , while Hayden was looking at the ground.

It is true that Hayden started dating the two , just to dump them in the end after he was done playing with them , but he can't deny that all those dates and memories were still fresh in his minds , he still remembers their very first date which was in a mall and he really enjoyed that day.

 Whenever he was with the other two he genuinely laughed and really enjoyed , he could be himself around the other two and these two were the only people who would never judge him , whenever he was near Kevin and Ryan he always butterfly in his stomach his heart started to beat faster in his chest and he felt the emotions he never felt before , which really scared him back then , he really couldn't understand his feelings back then which made him really frustrated. He really didn't know how to name those feelings. And those feelings still scares him.

"He asked you something , answer him," Kevin said, cutting Hayden's train of thought and making him look at Kevin and Ryan , who were still looking at him with a hard stare . He didn't know what to say so just stood there without knowing what to do.

Ryan soon ran out of patience and went towards and grabbed both of his arms harshly which made Hayden hiss in pain "I ASKED YOU A QUESTION ANSWER IT! GOD DAMN IT !" Ryan yelled which made Hayden flinch . He looked at Ryan and with a shaky voice said " look i have work and i have to go so please let me go we can discuss this someday el--" Hayden said but was interrupted by Kevin's deep voice "

no you are not going without answering our question , now answer it and then you can leave "

Hayden looked at both Ryan and Kevin

and slowly shook his head then said "i don't know" he said in a small voice .