Unending Desire

Cunning b***h

FHREIAH

I stare at the man who is now soundly sleeping in the bed. I can now freely stare at his beautiful and alluring back. His broad shoulder, toned arms, and muscles. ‘God, whoever this man is? I hope and pray that he looks good, and he's a good man.’ Because if ever, if ever I got pregnant. ‘No! I can't be pregnant by a stranger. Can you please turn around so I can see your face, please? Yeah, like he's gonna listen or what,’ My crazy thoughts are killing me. I looked at the ceiling and realized that it's a bit dim around here. I couldn't help but think that I have no regrets that I just lost my virginity to a stranger. I would be feeling dumb if I had given this to that bastard Nicolo. They're selfish, liars and I damn believed their stupid lies.

I tried to peek on the pillow again trying to know what this man looks like. If the time comes that I am going to meet him again, in the future may be, there's still a chance that I could recognize him and it's easier to stay away. The responsibility of what happened to me last night is only on me, and I can't blame this on anyone, but me.

I pulled my hair out of frustration. Still, I can't have a hint of his face. So I just decided to get up before this man wakes up. I started to look around the room, I could see little light coming from the slightly opened glass window. But when I tried to move, I couldn't explain how painful my whole body was. It's like I've been struck by something heavy and big. Or I'm just suffering from a hangover. I blink my eyes trying to capture a clearer vision. Suddenly, some vague memories come rushing to my mind. I was dumbfounded by those little naughty details. It's not complete, yet it's too shameful to remember and I couldn't accept the fact that I did those shameless things. My feet are getting cold, and there are still memories rushing in. I subconsciously leaned back, feeling like my head was going to break. I don't know how being broken-hearted ended up losing my virginity. ‘This is insane! I shouldn't have drunk liquor in the first place.’

I slowly moved my body out of the bed and almost heaved a loud sound when I felt the pain in my lower part. The part that is in between my legs particularly. ‘Damn it! Is this guy that big?’ I silently laughed thinking about what had happened to me. Maybe I am the most unfortunate out of all the unfortunate people in the whole wide world. If there's a crown for the most i***t person alive, I might be holding that title right now. For there is no other explanation to this, just me, and my idiocy. So with all my strength, I successfully stood up.

“Ahhh! s**t! Aw!” I fell directly to the floor. I tried my best not to make any sound but failed when my butt hit the hard floor for the second time, then I forgot everything around me for a moment. I just pray that I don't wake the man up because I have lost all my courage after I did all the crazy initiative last night. It's like I raped him for f**k sake! So I stayed still, trying to feel my surroundings that seemed quiet. So I supposed he's still deeply sleeping. Despite suffering from so much pain, I still managed to bring myself up and made the first step. But sad to say, my legs turned numb and limp. So without further thinking I positioned myself to where I could only feel less pain if I fell. I quickly placed my hands on my side trying to avoid my bruised aching butt hitting the floor again. I closed my eyes ready to feel the painful impact. But to my astonishment, yes I fell. But I didn't hit the cold floor. Instead, I fell into a warm and hard thing. ‘Wait, what?’ Then I started to ponder.

“Enough trying, Vanessa. You know that you really can't walk. Isn't it a dèjàvu?”

I immediately turned pale and stiff when I heard him speak in my ear. It's one of the most sensitive parts of my body and I always get the most epic reaction when it comes to it. Goosebumps covered my whole nervous body. I can't utter even a single sound or word, my throat suddenly feels dry, and it seems like I swallowed all my words. I don't know who this man is, but the feeling of fear that I have right now seems to know him very well. ‘And one thing, the hell with Vanessa! Who is Vanessa?’ My mind turned upside down when I felt my body moving. He carried me and walked towards somewhere he'll be taking me. With my abnormal breathing, I tried not to panic. Trying my best not to touch further of his skin. Then I firmly closed my eyes, fervently praying that God would suddenly make me disappear. But then . . . I felt sudden ease and relief when my body met the hot and cold water. While feeling the sudden soothing effect on my system, I slowly open my eyelids. I almost choked with my saliva when our eyes met. This is the first time I stared at his eyes this close. He is famous, but he is an elusive kind. Looking at him, I just realized why girls who liked him would kill just to have his attention. He even got the most beautiful pair of eyes in the world. His eyes have different shades, one is green, and the other one is green with a touch of blue shade. It's hazel and it's so beautiful.

“I already called the doctor, I knew this would happen. This is just the beginning Vanessa, and you deserve more suffering than this.” I stared at him with a blank face. People only know him as a heartless billionaire. But they didn't know he's a crazy psycho too.

“What? What are you talking about? Who's Vanessa? I don't even know her, and why are you calling me Vanessa repeatedly?” I was absolutely confused. He had mistakenly named me someone I didn't know. We just met. That's all I know. And this will never happen again.

“You never changed, you are still a cunning b***h! You even fake your death! And these? You undergo a chastity operation just to keep your virginity intact? How pathetic! So what's your plan this time? Do you think you can just play around with me again?” I was in a deep state of panic and on the verge of tears and breaking down when I tasted the blood coming from my mouth. He gripped my chin so tightly that it cut my lip.

“Aghhh, p-please . . . I-it h-hurts . . .” I am struggling to flee. Trying to free myself from his ruthless hands. ‘Am I going to die here?’ I was about to give in when we heard the doorbell ringing.

“You're lucky for this time. But not for the rest of your minutes! Hours! And all your life!” He declared before letting me go and headed out of the shower room. I could feel my body freezing when he gave me an evil grin. ‘Oh my god! What did I get myself into?’ My tears abundantly flowed down to my face, of all the people. How did I get in the way of Zeus Valderijah? I need to stay away from here. I need to stay away from that monster. His classical angelic face doesn't suit his devil character. I tried to stand up again, still, my heart was in a panic, but I failed. I tried again, and this time I succeeded. With shaking legs and numb feet, I slowly walked to the closet and grabbed a robe. After I covered my little body with it, I looked around trying to find an exit or a door where I could escape. When I opened the heavy curtain, I found a hidden glass sliding door. My heart celebrated secretly when I saw a flower garden and not far from it is extremely filled with trees. I cannot contain my excitement thinking I can truly escape from this place. Because based on the way that psycho looks at me, I can feel that he wants to strangle me to death. His eyes are full of hatred and coldness for me or Vanessa. I don't know. All I know is that I need to get out of here.

I limped my way out of the bathroom and hurriedly walked with shaky steps. My eagerness is making me lose control. The way where I'm in seems long and unending. Dizziness is trying to take over my remaining pace. The pain between my legs and my body is slowly consuming every part of me. I entered the middle part of the flower garden. Moments had passed when I finally reached the forest part. I celebrated inside while trying to walk and ran faster. I can't wait to find my way out and get the hell out of this place.

“Hmmph! God . . .” My vision is getting blurry. My body is in tremendous pain when I realized that I bumped into something. Something hard I think. ‘Is it a wall?’

“Congratulations for trying to escape again, b***h!”

When I heard his words, I could feel my body's twitching. I couldn't even open my eyes. ‘Is this my fate?’ I felt him rudely grab me. It's painful, I want to shout. I want to break free. But none of my body parts were trying to work with my brain. And so I gave in. I lost my hope and slowly succumbed to the darkness.