Undying Love

Chapter 7

I heard banging on the door. What the hell is going on? It’s almost midnight. The banging only seemed to get louder. I got up and walked to the front door, this better be good, because I already get hardly any sleep and might I just add that I’m the only one in this entire house that woke up, the place could be burning down and they won’t even notice, I really feel save now.

“What do you want?” I asked as I swung the door open, not expecting Zoe to be standing there in front of me.

“Zoe what are you doing here? Do you know how late it is?”

“I’m sorry that I woke you, but we need your help?”

“What, my help?” They hardly know me how do they need my help or even think I could possibly be of help.

“Yes. We have a small problem.”

“Zoe, if this is about flirting or scheming I’m going back to sleep.”

“It’s...”

“Do you have any idea how f*****g late it is! Can’t you and your friends be quiet.” Luke said groggily from behind me,

“Sure, you heard us talking, but you had me get up to stop the banging.”

“I saw you get up so I thought it was taken care of.”

“Wait you saw her get up as in you were in the same room...well, well, well aren’t you a fast mover blue.”

“Wait it’s you! Is Owen here? Sapphire get behind me!” Finally he was wide awake and alert, my hero.

“We were in the living room watching movies and we fell asleep, and no Owen isn’t here, you can go back to bed.”

“You don’t have to tell me twice.” Luke said rubbing his eyes as he left.

“What was that about?”

“Zoe focus, you needed my help.”

“Right, it’s Hope. It took us the whole day, but we cheered her up, but I guess once we left her back at the dorms something happened and she freaked out and got stinking drunk. No one can see her like this.”

“What isn’t she allowed to drink?... Wait is it one of the compound rules?”

“Something like that.”

“Okay come on let’s take her to 305.”

“You mean break into the school?”

“You’ve done it before, how hard can it be?”

“Right.” I closed the door behind me and followed her to the car. Mya was behind the steering wheel and hope was sprawled out at the back holding a bottle of vodka.

“It’s Fire! Someone call... someone!”

“Hey hope, you ready to break into the school?”

“Hell yeah!” She yelled at the top of her voice. Mya drove to the school’s parking with the headlights off and parked as far from any lights that she possibly could.

“Okay come on Hope, let’s go.”

“I can walk on my own!” She said pulling her hand from Mya’s she started walking towards the building, her steps were a bit unstable, but altogether not that bad. She took another gulp of Vodka.

“And up the stairs we go.” She chanted.

“Isn’t there any guards?” I asked worried since Hope was being extremely loud.

“Yes there is so we need to get her in that room quick.” Together we urged her to go to the room faster, she wasn’t pleased with us at all, but we got to the room without being caught.

“We made it.” The twins said exhaling. Then they took a glance at Hope who was downing the content of the bottle.

“What? Aren’t you going to share?” I asked in attempts to get the bottle from her.

“No.” At least my question got her to stop.

“Fine. I’m not much of a drinker and I would have never thought that you were.”

“Sometimes when life hands you a moaning girl, you need to have some vodka.” Moaning girl? I need to get to the bottom of this.

“Really? What an excuse, being friends with the two of them must give you a lot of opportunities to drink then.”

“Not them, Nathan!” There we go.

“Nathan huh, so you want to talk about it?” She was pacing the room the bottle never too far from her mouth.

“I hate his guts, in fact I will get extensive pleasure from ripping his guts out!” and another gulp, at least the bottle is nearing empty.

“I really don’t need this sort of pain! It’s not like I want to have these feelings! But I do, he is all I can think about.”

“I thought we got your mind of all of it...” Zoe mentioned.

“Yeah until I got to the dorm and there he was in some slut’s room, screwing he brains out no doubt!”

“You sure?” The twins asked

“Oh Nathan yes! Bite me and make me yours! I’m sure it was him.” She Mimicked what she had heard. I would have been pissed too if I was the one to hear that, I mean I poured a drink on a girl for flirting with Jake if I caught him sleeping with another women, she’d have been dead.

“Why does the one person that was made just for me have to be him?”

“Come on Hope, he is a guy. All of them suck; it’s nothing to get drunk over!” I Said trying to make her feel better.

“What do you know, little miss perfect? Owen would throw himself of a bridge for you and you couldn’t care less.”

“I’ve cried my fair share over boys, more than my fair share and I still do, almost every single night.”

“What?” She asked shocked at my declaration.

“Yeah, but I’ve never gotten drunk over one, I actually never thought about it, I couldn’t anyway.” Alcohol and pregnancy just wouldn’t work.

“I just hurt so badly.” Her tears finally spilled over and she fell to the ground. I rushed over and put my arms around her.

“It’s okay, cry all you want.”

“Is that what you do to forget?”

“I don’t think I could ever forget which is why I cry.”

“And does it ever make you feel better?”

“It lets me get some of that anger and sadness out.” And that is what she did, she cried until she couldn’t cry anymore, which is about the time I took a sip of the vodka to calm myself down, since my own tears were rushing to the surface. That’s how I ended up getting drunk, I’m a lightweight, and apparently it took a bottle of tequila and two bottles of Vodka to get Hope as drunk as she was. Zoe and Mya had fallen asleep a while back leaving me and Hope to talk things over.

“I have it, my own special poem...shh listen. Roses are red, violets are blue, my heart is black and it’s all because of you!” I recited.

“Do you hate your guy that much?”

“No that wasn’t meant for him! But I do hate him, I hate him for leaving me!” It was meant for everyone else, especially my father.

“So you love him?”

“I loved him more than anything in the world.”

“Why’d he leave you?”

“He died.”

“Oh I’m sorry.”

“I wonder if he misses me. There is this song I like to sing it’s called Heaven; Natalia Kills sings it”

“Do you sing it a lot?”

“Not that often, but I listen to it all the time.”

“Well let me hear it?”

“I don’t have anything with me.”

“Then sing” That’s how I ended up singing us both to sleep.

The noise woke me up and I was not pleased about it, my head was killing me.

“Wake up!” Both the twins yelled each at one of my ears.

“Well you look like crap, how you feeling?”

“Ready to kill the two of you!”

“Touchy.” They both said together.

“Leave her alone, she probably has a hang over after last night.” Hope fended them off. How is it that she looks perfectly normal. While I feel like a big mess.

“She has too wake up it’s like 10am, we’ve already missed half of the day.” s**t it’s morning already and school has started. I looked down at myself, I’m wearing pyjamas and I’m at school, with my first hangover ever. It’s like that dream that most people get without the naked part at least.

“Here drink this!” Hope handed me two pills.

“What is it?”

“Tylenol, it will help with the hammers hitting against your skull.”

“Is it what you took?”

“No I don’t get hangover’s.”

“Of course you don’t and you called me little miss perfect.”

“Here catch Blue.” One of the twins threw me a bottle of water.  I caught it and took the pills.

“Okay let’s go...”

“What?” They actually want me to leave the room in my PJ’s for everyone to see.

“We can’t just hide in here, we’re hungry and no one has really seen us since yesterday morning. Not to mention your half naked movie buddy must be freaking.  Why is it that he freaked like that last night.”

“It’s nothing.”

“Alright let’s go.” I sighed, I can’t believe I’m doing this.

“Here, put this on you look like crap.” I took the sunglasses and put it on. We all walked out of the room 305, at first the halls were pretty empty, but then the bell rang for break and everyone was in the halls, they were all staring at us. I just kept wishing that I had on my long PJ’s instead of my booty short and an old t'shirt of Jake’s.

“Stop!” oh what now!

“Shit.” We turned around and stared into the face of the principal. The disapproving face glaring back at us.

“Your attire is inappropriate for school!”

“We know you’re right sir.” Mya said in a sweet tone, she almost seemed innocent.

“And we would usually agree with you, but this is for an important cause...” Zoe explained.

“What important cause lets you go to school in sleepwear?”

“We wanted to have a sleepover, but as you know no one is allowed to come to the compound, so we thought why not just have a sleepover during the day.”

“That is not a cause! You...”

“Can you just shut up, we are wearing shorts and tops it’s the same as any other clothes, it’s not overly exposing!” I yelled at the guy, I feel like s**t and he isn’t helping.

“It is sleepwear and I won’t have you take up such a tone with me!”

“Just because you have a stick up your ass and can’t distinguish a fun idea with a wrong one, don’t go and take it out on us!” s**t what has gotten into me!

“Detention, after school!” No, no, no!

“Sir, I’m awfully sorry, please don’t give me a detention, I have work after school. I can’t miss it, I’ll be fired!”

“Since I have such a stick up my ass I’d have to say double detention!” I’ll show him what a stick up his ass really feels likes, I tried focusing, which seems to be hard. I canceled out all sound and just as I was about to do it Hope grabbed my arm.

“Let’s go he isn’t worth it. You must be starving, how does a Burger sound?”

“Great.” I’m glad Hope stopped me, What I planned to do would have been awful.

“Why don’t you guys go get the food while we go and get a table.” Hope suggested to the twin, linking her arm with mine.

“Sure.”

“Fine.”

“What were you doing?” oh boy caught in action.

“What?”

“You were planning on doing something. I could tell...”

“I was just glaring at him, it’s nothing you don’t need to worry.” She was watching me closely if I did do it I would have given away my abilities, how can I slip up like that? She looked at me in disbelief, but let it go as we got to the courtyard and sat down at an empty table. Everyone was still watching us. The one thing I wanted was to not be the centre of attention and here I am in the middle, the bullseye to everyone’s eyes.

“Nice and greasy burgers!” The twins said as they sat down. I couldn’t get myself to actually eat, I felt to uncomfortable thanks to the stares..

“Congrats, you are famous blue.”

“That is the last thing I ever wanted.”

“You’re okay!” Luke stormed over and hugged me.

“What are you doing?” I said pushing him off me. He is a big guy and I was supporting his complete weight.

“Expressing my relief.”

“Don’t do it again. It’s creepy.”

“I just can’t help myself! I thought I lost you.” He sat down in between me and Hope putting his arm over my shoulder.

“You are over dramatizing the situation, you saw me last night.”

“Yes I did and you left at midnight with them. I thought ‘it’s fine they are her friends’ and then this morning when you missed kitchen duty I thought ‘f**k they are also his minions’ and then you were nowhere to be seen and no one had heard anything of you...”

“Come on this isn’t some sort of horror movie, he won’t kidnap me and he won’t hurt me, you are seriously over reacting.”

“I’d rather overreact, I made myself a promise to keep you safe. Are you going to eat that?”

“No go ahead.”

“And after yesterday I just can’t take any chances.” I can’t believe he is still going on about this.

“You i***t is that what you were on about last night? Owen wouldn’t hurt her!” Zoe exclaimed shocked,

“He’d rather hurt himself!” The twins defended Owen and I knew they were right, he likes me.

“I’m not that sure, she seems to bring shadow out, like the time he scratched her arm open.” Hope explained.

“That’s what the bandage was for!” I looked at Luke and quickly looked away. Feeling guilty for lying to him.

“It was hardly a scratch.” I lied but thanks to my Good Friend Hope my cover was blown.

“The nurse wanted to put in stitches.”

“It wasn’t necessary, she just wanted more work since no one ever gets hurt and it was my fault.”

“How was it your fault?” Luke asked sounding pissed, just great! I did such a good job at calming him down yesterday and now a few words has him rattled up again.

“I ripped out of his hold, which is why I got hurt.”

“Oh okay and try to explain yesterday.” He urged me, he was completely furious now.

“Come on Luke calm down.” I wish he can stop bringing it up, because I’ll defend Owen again. It can’t be just his fault if I enjoyed it.

“What happened yesterday?”

“Nothing happened, Luke is just kidding.” I looked at him begging him to keep his mouth shut.

“He forced himself onto her.” He said looking me in the eyes. He is the worst friend ever.

“When did that happen?” Hope asked me. I looked at her and smiled.

“It was nothing really just a big misunderstanding. Luke wasn’t even there.”

“Tristan told me... after I heard her yelling at Owen to leave I stormed into the kitchen. He intended to talk to her, but I got in between them. It was my fault, if I didn’t go to the diner he wouldn’t have gotten jealous.”

“Come on Luke you have as much a right to eat at the diner as anyone else, it wasn’t your fault if I didn’t grab his arm to stop him, he wouldn’t have followed me.”

“Okay wait a second what exactly happened because the two of you aren’t making any sense!” Hope exclaimed.

“I thought things were okay between Owen and myself since we talked at school yesterday, but when he came into the diner he was moody and he wouldn’t even look at me, I got him the drinks he ordered and then as I waited for all of them to order Valeri was messing with me, Luke came in and since Owen’s group wasn’t ready to order I headed over, but Owen shattered his class and rushed over to Luke, pulling him up and I grabbed onto his arm to stop him and then I left, but he followed me and the next thing I knew I was pushed against the wall and he was kissing me, it wasn’t that bad, but I was scared because he wouldn’t stop and I couldn’t move, but as he kissed down my neck he let go a little and I kneed him and then I slapped him. I told him to leave, but he didn’t want too. So I yelled and that’s when Luke and some guys came and jumped in front of me. That’s all that happened.”

“He was kissing your neck?” All of them asked together.

“It’s bad enough that the twins do that, can the four of you not do that please!”

“Luke you shouldn’t be sitting with us.” Hope informed him once again.

“I don’t care about the rules.”

“Come on Hope he’s my friend! When you guys weren’t here I spend my day with him.”

“That’s it!” Zoe exclaimed.

“What?”

“It’s so obvious! Owen was jealous because you kept spending time with Luke.” Mya answered me.

“That’s ridiculous, I’m allowed to have friends, Owen doesn’t control my life.”

“Remember how we classified him controlling, possessive and not so nice.”

“They might be right.” Luke admitted sighing, he probably felt worse about yesterday now.

“Exactly why Luke shouldn’t be sitting with us.”

“No! I’m not going to let Owen choose my friends for me. He just has to accept that I’m not interested.”

“You aren’t playing fair!” Hope yelled. I was shocked at her reaction, how am I suddenly the one at fault.

“What am I doing that is so bad! I told him I’m not interested! How is it my fault that he can’t take no for an answer!”

“You don’t want to give him a chance, you immediately rejected him, but you are giving Luke and Tristan a chance how is that fair.”

“They want to be my friends, they aren’t interested in dating me.”

“What made you think that he wanted to be more than just friends?”

“I don’t have to sit here and explain myself.” Why did Hope have to freak out like that, like I’m in the wrong. What happened to freedom of choice!

“Come on Luke we are leaving.” I got up and stormed away. This is bullshit, she is supposed to be my friend and now she is criticizing me. If I don’t want to be friends with Owen I don’t she can’t force me. Luke threw his arm over my shoulder again, probably to slow me down since I was almost running down the halls and I wasn’t sure where I was going.

“Hope didn’t mean to offend you.”

“Don’t defend her right now!” Unbelievable! Hope is defending Owen and is rude to Luke and now Luke is defending her!

“Fine, sorry.” He sighed, but kept on walking dropping it.

“Can I ask you something?”

“I guess.” I didn’t expect him to talk at all, I just wanted to calm down.

“Why did you reject him and not me? I thought you were pretty hot and I was definitely interested when we met.”

“I didn’t find you attractive.”

“Don’t lie I saw you checking me out.” I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face. And then I sighed, I might as well be honest and get it over with.

“When Owen looks at me it feels different, almost like everything stands still around us, like time is frozen. It makes me uncomfortable...it’s not something that I want to feel. I’m not interested in having feeling for someone else...”

“Because you already gave all your love away?”

“Yes, I don’t ever want to love someone again. I never want to be that vulnerable again in my life, I couldn’t take it. The concept of love is just too cruel...to love someone so much that they are like a part of you it’s so selfish. To be consumed by thoughts of them every second of the day is crippling. Love is the utmost form of torture on the soul. Once it has it claws latch firmly on you it doesn’t let go until you’re so dependent on it that you shatter if you lose it. Tell me that isn’t messed up and cruel?” He let go of me only to pull me completely into his arms hugging me tight against his chest.

“What happened?” he asked kissing the top of my head.

“I fell in love.” And then I lost everything I loved and now it’s all unreachable.

“Don’t touch her!” I got pulled out of Luke’s arms and into Owen’s I knew it was him, I felt the spark consuming my body.

“Damn it Owen let go!” I looked up at him and was glad to see his eyes were normal.

“Stop acting like this...please!” He slowly let go of me.

“You said you wanted to be friends...This isn’t what friends do! They don’t get jealous and they don’t act all controlling. I can be friends with whoever I want!”

“You can’t be friends with him!”

“Come on Owen just drop it okay.” Luke said stepping next to me.

“If you go against my request one more time, you can say goodbye to ever being accepted into the compound.”

“I’m fine with that.”

“Then I order you to leave! This is my territory.”

“There you go again! You can’t control everything around you!”

“You don’t know how wrong you are, this is my territory and I can do as I wish and take what I want and I want you, and I will take you and claim you as mine, no matter what your thoughts are on it. You are mine.” His eyes were dark again as he spit the words at me.

“Oh yeah!” I turned and placed my lips against Luke’s.

“See he doesn’t even have to force me.” I swear I heard Owen growl and just as he jumped forward, Nathan and Daxton grabbed on to him. He was fighting to get out of their grip.

“That’s our cue to leave!” Luke grabbed my hand and ran with me.

“Why did you do that!”

“To make a point, don’t worry I do regret it. I didn’t think he’d lose it like that!”

“Let’s just get to class okay.”

“I have gym.”

“Okay go straight there, try and avoid running into Owen for a while, try and give him a while to calm down.”

“I will and Luke, I’m sorry I kissed you.” I felt really guilty about it. Luke didn’t deserve that, I basically put a bullseye on him.

“Like you said love makes you selfish.” What is he talking about? He didn’t give me time to ask, he just left and I did the same. I don’t really know what came over me, I just got so angry. He reminded me of my father and Drake and I saw red. It’s their fault! I’m so sick of being controlled! He isn’t anything like Jake...Jake never raised his voice, he never forced himself on me. He was always so nice. When he smiled I felt embraced by his kindness, I felt special...

The gym was empty I guess I’m early. I went to the locker room and got dressed, I tied up my hair and then I went back to the gym, there still wasn’t anyone there. I sat down on the bleachers and waited. The doors finally opened, but I didn’t expect Owen to walk in. I got up and turned to leave through the others set of doors.

“Don’t!” There he goes again.

“Don’t tell me what I can and can’t do! Haven’t I made that clear yet!”

“I just want to talk to you please.”

“It’s never just talk with you!”

“I’m sorry about yesterday and every other time I’ve done something you didn’t like.”

“I don’t want you to say sorry I just want you to leave me alone!” I’ve never been in a situation where someone didn’t want to leave me alone. Is this how Analize felt with Drake. My heartbeat was already racing,

“I can’t do that.”

“Please.” I desperately wanted him to leave me alone. I’m scared of him and this influence he has on everyone, he seemed to convince a whole class to ditch, just so that he could get me alone...even my friends. And I’m scared of what I’m feeling, because in between the terrifying feeling I feel excited.

“Please give me a chance to explain.”

“I’m not interested in hearing anything you have to say.” He growled again and then he closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

“That’s not very nice, I’m trying to be calm and talk to you.” He said it through clenched teeth, so much for being calm. I was shaking, no vibrating, my heart was beating too hard.

“I never wanted to hurt you.”

“It’s fine I know you never wanted that, I forgive you I promise. I’m also sorry for kissing Luke it was a bad decision on my part. I just don’t like being told what I can and can’t do. Now that we have sorted that out, I should be going.” I tried leaving again.

“Don’t.” I froze when I saw his fists clenching.

“I want to explain something to you.” I really don’t want to provoke him.

“Okay.”

“You are the only one for me and I don’t think that I would ever be able to just let you go. I wanted to get to know you and see what type of person you are before I made any mayor decisions, but the thought of ever letting you leave my side just drives me insane. The thought of you with someone else...” He started walking closer to me and I took a step back.

“Owen stop please, don’t come any closer to me. This isn’t you, this is shadow right, that’s your angry side right? Please calm down.” He froze for a second and held onto his head, when he looked up his eyes were completely dark. Does he have a double personality?

“Owen this isn’t normal! You can’t just create a moment like this. It’s not normal to be so controlling, you need to see that this behaviour is unhealthy. It’s not normal to stalk me like some sort of prey.” He started laughing, it sounded cruel.

“I haven’t treated you like prey baby, but I could I can stalk you until the perfect moment and then pounce!” He was walking over to me again.

“Stop it!” the light’s started to flicker.

“Don’t come closer!” He stopped looking at the lights. Then he looked back at me and smiled. He started running towards me and I screamed. All the lights burst the glass falling down to the floor. He stopped to avoid being hit by glass.

“Leave me alone shadow!” was the last thing I said before I passed out.