Love Me Again, My Alpha

Chapter 3

Cullen

"Nana Julia, would you like to come with us to the restaurant?" magalang na tanong ni Sage sa babaeng may edad na na nakasakay sa likuran ng magara niyang sasakyan.

"Kuh, mas mabuti pang ihatid mo na lang ako sa aking mga apo Sage, ija. Mukhang ayaw sa akin ni Kai," sagot ng babae.

"Okay sige po. I'll take you hope po. Pasensya na po talaga Nana. Hindi po kasi sanay si Kai na wala sa tabi ko," sabi ni Sage using the same voice she always use to me when we were still together.

Pagkatapos niyang maihatid sa bahay ang matanda, nakita kong yumakap ito kay Sage. Napansin ko tuloy ang katawan nitom although Sage is a woman, nothing feminine about her body aside from her chest and probably down there. I can even see visible abs right through her white shirt and even her low waist jeans. Her V-line shows up. I wonder how it feels when she holds me?

Bigla akong nagblush sa naisip. What the hell is wrong with me?

"Dad, lez go to the taurant! Kai is hungry already," sabi ni Kai sa kanya.

"Yeah, yeah I will go. Do you want to sit in the baby car seat? Hmm?"

"No! Kai wants to sit on Mama's lap. Kai feels comforted here with Mama. I lob you Mama," sagot ni Kai sa kanya bago humalik sa aking mga labi. "You lob Kai Mama?"

Ngumiti ako.

"Of course your Mama loves you more than anyone in this world," sagot ni Sage sa bata.

"Even more than Dad, Mama?"

"Yes sweety," sagot ko sa kanya.

What should I say? Wala. Naipit ako sa sitwasyong ito.

Sumulyap ako kay Sage. Her face remains poker face habang nakatingin sa kalsada. Bahagya niyang kinakagat-kagat ang pang-ibaba niyang labi which find sexy.

Napalunok ako. I shouldn't do this. She already had a son. But I don't see any wedding ring on her ring finger. Ayokong magtanong. Ayokong panghimasukan ang pribado niyang buhay.

But still.. be still my heart.

Sa isang family restaurant kami dinala ni Sage. Sinubukan niyang kunin si Kai mula sa akin ngunit nanatiling clingy sa akin ang bata.

Si Sage na rin ang umorder ng kakainin namin but she never said any words to me. Napaka-awkward ng sitwasyon namin.

"Mama feed Kai pwease?" panglalambing sa akin ni Kai.

"Don't you want daddy to feed you, Kai?" tanong ni Sage.

"Kai dun like. Kai only likes Mama. Kai misses Mama so much. Kai and dad together but not with Mama

Pwease dad let Mama feed Kai. Otay?"

Naramdaman ko ang mga titig sa akin nu Sage habang pinapakaim ko si Kai. She's watching me intensely na nagdudulot sa akin ng pagkaasiwa. I would be better if only she could talk to me.

Natapos ang kainan na wala pa rin siyang sinasabi. Could it be that she doesn't know who I am?

Impossible.

Wala pa rin siyang sinasabi hanggang sa nakasakay na kami ulo sa kanyang sasakyan.

"Kai, sweety. I'm going home alright? You'll be with your dad. I still have work tomorrow. Do you understand?"

Kai grabbed my shirt at hinawakan ito mahigpit at saka humikbi.

"Mama don't like Kai anymore? Why won't Mama stay with Kai? Cause Mama tells lies that Mama lobs Kai when Mama doesn't lob Kai at all?" umiiyak na sabi ng bata.

Christ.

Wala pa yatang forty eight hours na kasama ko ang batang ito ngunit nakuha na nito agad ang aking kalooban as if he came from me.Parang nilakumos ang aking puso ng marinig ko ang sinabi niya.

"Oh no Kai. Mama loves you alot okay? It's just that you already have your Dad and-"

"Stay. Stay with him, please," narinig kong sabi ni Sage for the time we met. "For his sake. Please?"

The last strand of my defence suddenly collapsed and I hugged Kai and touched his back to calm him.

"I'm sorry Kai. I won't going to leave you," bulong ko sa kanyang tenga.

Nakita kong ngumiti si Kai sa akin.

"I'm sorry sweety. Mama won't say that again," sabi ko pa bago siya hinalikan sa kanyang noo.

Sa isang building kami dinala ni Sage. Of course pah-aari ng pamilya niya ang building na iyon.

"It's simple," sabi niya matapos kong punasan at mapalitan ng damit si Kai. "All you have to do is to become Kai's mama until we go back to the US," sabi pa niya.

"I c-can't. I also have work," sagot ko sa kanya.

I wasn't looking at her. I just can't see her cold gazes at me.

"Being Kai's mom is part of your work at my company starting today Cullen," sabi niya. I'll pay you double or even triple if you want. I'm sure that would be enough for your family," sabi niya.

"W-why me?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"Why do you say that? Of course of all the people in that street walking that night, my son found you. Coincidence, right? And he started to call you Mama. Was it because he felt that we were an item before?"

"Please I get it. I'll pretend to be your son's mother for the time being until your wife returns or something," sagot ko sa kanya bago napabuntong-hininga.

"His mom died after giving birth to Kai three years ago. I've dated a lot of omegas and see if my son will find a suitable mom since he's an Elite alpha like me. He can figure immediately if a person is suited to be his mom. Everyone failed. And the only one who he called mama was you. As his father, I love to see my son have a mother. Someone who can take care of him. I can see that he's already clinging to you so I hope you'll treat him like your son. I'm only asking for a month or two until I settle down any business negotiations in the company,"

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla na lamang napatulo ang mga luha sa aking mata. Sage is begging. She's begging for me to pretend to be her son's mom. But about me? My old feelings are still there. It didn't go away nor even fade a bit.

If I'll continue pretending to be this kid's mother, it means I have to see Sage every single day. But I couldn't just ignore a child's longing for a mother. It pains me whenever it feels like the kid is begging.

If I didn't give up on her at that time, would I be this child's real mother? The truth is, I want it. I wanted this kid's real mom.

"Please give me some time to think. But I'll stay for tonight," sagot ko sa kanya.

Bumuntong-hininga si Sage.

"Okay. I'll wait for your answer," sagot niya sa akin. "I have some clothes inside the closet. Feel free to use it," sabi pa niya bago isinara ang pintuan ng kwarto ni Kai.

Nanghihina akong napaupo sa malambot na kama ni Kai. Ang bilis ng pangyayari at pakiramdam ko ay hindi ito kakayanin ng aking puso. Umiiyak akong hinaplos ang pisngi ng natutulog na si Kai.

"Could it be that you chose me because you felt that your dad and I were lovers when we were still young? Or do you feel that I'm still in love with her?" tanong ko sa kanya habang tumutulo ang aking mga luha. "I can be your mom for the time being, Kai. I want you to feel how to have a mom. If only you knew what mistakes I have done before, I could be your real mom. But I was afraid. I was so afraid that I chose to let your Dad go. I chose to let her go. But I suffered so much," sabi ko pa at hinayaang umagos ang aking mga luha.

Ah, what am I even saying? Kain won't understand anything I have said. He's just a three years old kid. Tumayo ako at saka tinanggal ang polo sleeve na suot ko. I don't feel like showering so I just changed my clothes and then went straight to the bed with Kai.

I hope to wake up tomorrow that everything will be back to normal like me being alone.

"Mam wakey wakey. Kai is up and want to eat bwesfast," sabi sa akin ni Kai pagkagiaing ko kinabukasan.

"Well hello sweety. Did you slept well? Mama's sorry for waking me so late. What do you want to eat?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"Dad cooks bweksfast for Kai and Mama. Kai and Mama will eat coz Dad has already left for work," sagot niya.

"Well then let's go and eat sweety," nakangiting sabi ko.

"Why is Mama's eyes swollen? Did Mama cry?"

"Oh it's nothing sweet. Mama didn't sleep last night," sabi ko before I carry him out of the room.

Tulad nga ng sinabi ni Kai, wala na doon si Sage. She must be in the company now.

Hah. I was wishing last night that I hope when I wake up everything will be back to normal. But it was just my wishful thinking. Everything is far from being normal when it was me.

I heaved a sigh.

I hope I won't regret this.